#ik a lot of ppl don't like this part and uh. yeah. but also I am having a ball moving the little guys around

[ghostietea]

Also I finally got to a chunk of Homestuck where the games are playable so YIPPEE

[icyfox17]

WAIT now I’m curious :0

How would you rank all the Lovejoy songs, from best to worst? I’m incredibly interested to see what you think of them :00

Ooh man this is tough . Look I love asking these questions to OTHER ppl but when I get asked them I panic /lh /j

1. It's Golden Hour Somewhere

2. Model Buses

3. Cause for Concern

4. Consequences

5. Everything else /hj

I'm ngl king I am STRUGGLING I REALLY WANTED TO TRY, I EVEN PUT ON MY LOVEJOY PLAYLISR BUT EVERYTIME I WENT TO COMPARE I LOVED THEM BOTH EQUALLY 😭😭😭

so uh o7

5. Scum, Poabs, Sex Sells, One Day, Taunt, Perfume, Knee Deep at Atp, Call Me What You Like

6. You'll Understand When You're Older, Oh Yeah You Gonna Cry, Concrete, Warsaw, The Fall, Posg

7. Perfect Pair (IM SORRYFUFJF ITS REALLY NICE I JUST DIDNR VIBE WITH IY)

8. It's All Futile It's All Pointless

Okay after listening to all of them I actually ranked quite a few higher than I used to. I used to really not like Posg or The Fall bc of the shouting (I am a sensitive soul and don't really like shouting in my music dhfkfk) but I've gotten a lot more used to that type of music so I actually vibed with them super hard

And uh yeah iafiap is still my lowest 😭 which is ironic bc the og is one of my fav songs ever. I just... it has way too much going on, it's so overwhelming for me shfjgkfkfk

But yeahhh jazz hands, ik it's not a super proper ranking but I am physically incapable of ranking them 😭😭

Besides those top 4 ☝️ (honestly idk if consequences is above all of 5... sex sells is sooooo goooddd but yeah for now it's there bc it makes me the happiest when it comes on)

Model Buses used to be MY Lovejoy song (it just... really resonated with me I dunno, I feel like it's my Vibe) but then It's Golden Hour Somewhere came out and it knocked it out of the park LMAODJFJGKG

I still adoree model buses eueueue but golden hour is I think more of my Vibe nowww, y'know? Ive grown. Model Buses was younger me, Golden Hour is present me (wild how much one can change in a couple of years). Model buses is still my baby tho ❤️

Also my ranking for Aya has always been all over the place but cfc being that high up compared to all of the other Lovejoy songs is definitely a newer thing. I just.. I love the trumpets in cfc so much. It makes me feel an emotion none of the other Lovejoy songs do. It honestly might one day get above Model Buses. It makes me so happy. It feels truly the epitome of an Indie Movie and that's my fav vibe ever.

OGOGIGOHIGIGUHOH I PUT ON GOLDEN HOUR AND YEPYEPEYEEPYEPU IT STILL REIGNS SUPREMEEEE THAT BASS JUSR DOES SOMETHIGN TO ME ALSO THE HARMONIESSSS I LOVE THE HARMONIES SO MUCHHH AND THE WAY THE CHORUS BUILDS OHMUGOSSHDJDJFKFKDJGKDKDJFJJFJDJDJFJDJDHFJGKFKDJFKGKGKFKFKSHFJFKDKFKFJDJDKJGKGKDK THE OOOOOOOOSSSS I CANTTT I CANTTT!!!!! GOLDEN HOUR IS MY SONG!!!! I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!! IT IS JUST PERFECT FOR ME!!!!!! AND THE TITLE TOO??? LIKEEEEE THATS SO MY VIBEEEDHFJKG

The funniest part is like. I tried SO HARD to go into wu&io blind. I avoided every concert video like the plague. I scrolled past all those clips on twt. I even debated not listening to cmwyl but . I didn't want to be that left out so I did listen to it (which predictably made me feel sick of it by the time the album came out 😭) but seeing the titles of all the wu&io songs I got attached to golden hour 😭😭😭 and was already being like "I bet u that's gonna be my fav" but I was like no. I will not be biased. And the first time I listened to wu&io I actually liked poabs the best but I think that's just bc of how fucking shook I was by it being the first song I listened to and when I told my friends that it was my fav they all were like "damn I thought golden hour was gonna be ur fav" but then . I relistened to it again (bc for me it honestly takes at least like 3 or 4 listens for me to properly rank bc I am often someone who will just like the song I hear first, same thing goes with covers. It's rare for me to like a cover more than the og song if I heard the og song first. But if I heard the cover first?? I will most likely prefer that one) and then I was like Oh. Oh it's Golden hour is good. Oh. And then I literally looped it like 5 times in a row 😭😭 leaving poabs in the dust LMFAOFJJFKGF and then as I started to listen to it more Consequences just started vibing w me more than Poabs

But yeah lmaoooo, apparently it's not just me who thinks golden hour is my song but I had like 3 or 4 diff ppl instantly clock it as my fav before I even told them/listened to the album 😭😭😭

Ough,,, I love golden hour sm,,,

Anyways thanks for the ask, I had an existential crisis over it LMFOAJFJGKGK tho it's only fair since I made April do it lolll

I'm so bad at ranking stuff 😭 but feel free to ask me more bc this was fun!! U just might have to deal with a lot of ties ^-^

[waynedunlaptheorgandonor]

can i say a sort of pointless rambly thing i was thinking about that i can't put under the cut bc i'm on mobile?

jk, i'm not actually asking. ramble below, not edited for clarity. the following is completely unclear and i will not fix it:

i've been thinking about how part of the reason i'm so chill about caryl is bc growing up as a queer woc 99% of my main ships were like, never gonna fucking happen bc they literally couldn't. it was like, "omg, they gazed at each other from across the room, let's analyze the homosexual subtext of this one scene for the next fifty years, that's not necessarily hyperbole." i've watched all my ships fuck other ppl/have other love interests, and i knew that my thing was never gonna be canon, so to see like, one thing being like, "one half of my ship fucked another person several years ago while pining for the other half of my ship," i'm like...#nice, bc that can and likely will be used as a plot point to get them together later on, whereas in other situations i've been in i just kinda had to deal with it. so my impulse when i see ppl losing their shit is to be like

and to be slightly annoyed, tbh, bc the ship is still on track to be canon, and it's like, literally two white heterosexuals, they're prime candidates for juicy angsty pining that actually gets a resolution.

but!

that being said, i recognize that that attitude isn't necessarily fair. for one thing, i'm not the only queer woc (or some variation thereof) in this fandom, and some ppl's impulse might be exasperation instead, bc like, "wtf, even my mayohet ship has dumb fucking drama," and that's valid as hell, and i get it.

and also, i get that, even if you didn't grow up shipping impossible ships (or mulder/scully, bc that's a brand of bullshit all its own), this has been a suuuuper drawn out process where sometimes it feels like they're legit sprinkling crumbs to keep you hooked, just to play you again, and when you are invested in something, like /rly/ invested, especially if it's a form of escapism or hyperfixation or whatever, that can be e x h a u s t i n g. and i get that. i truly do, and while i make a lot of snide comments about the fandom being bonkers, i do get where the bulk of you are coming from (unless you're one of those ppl who hate on actors and esp actresses for just doing their jobs, and attack them on social media, in which case i am very much judging you and you need to get your life together).

i also realize that in the scheme of things i'm still a newbie. i've been here, what, twoish/threeish years, whereas some of you have been here since the beginning, so i'm not as worn out as y'all. but i also think that gives me a bit of objectivity that some of y'all have (understandably) lost.

my positivity is not meant as a sleight against those of you who are feeling negative, but is more of a semi-objective viewpoint (i say semi, bc lbr, i'm invested af in this, so i definitely have bias), and to me the threads of the storyline they're crafting seem sort of obvious.

like, let's look at it, yeah? they have one season left of this show that has been on for over a decade. they need to cater to everyone to give them a satisfying ending, while still hanging on to carylers bc of the spin-off. darylrreah seems like a very calculated move, bc it gives them both something to make abcers happy, while also creating tension and suspense and pining for carylers (i think they might underestimate just how fed up some carylers are tbh, and are banking on us to hang on for one last ride, which, honestly? if they play it right will probably work.)

if they end up doing a dumb love triangle thing, which, without seeing the episode and gauging the subtext i can't confidently say if i think they will or won't, it will ultimately end in our favor. it has to, bc leah isn't going to third wheel them on the bike in the spin-off. we can say with good authority that whatever that relationship ends up being (again, idk if they'll drag it out or not) it will be temporary. which leaves caryl open to ride off into the sunset and then bone down in every state in the united states and in puerto rico for good measure.

it's a lot of cheap drama, but i really and truly do not think it's anything to worry about, and i still really and truly trust kang to not make it out of character. ik ppl still don't agree with me on that point, and i'm not gonna argue, but to me it really does make perfect sense.

and i also predict that they are gonna play it up hardcore in the promotional shit and talking dead, but when that happens, remember it's bc it gets attention. regardless of where the story is ultimately going, relationship drama gets attention, which gets viewers, which gets amc and twd producers nice and comfy with full pockets

idk. to sum up ig i just wanted to clarify that i don't mean any harm with my relentless positivity. my history in fandom has just made this seem like nothing in comparison, bc while ppl are freaking out, i'm like, "oh damn, they're actually gonna get together by the end of this, aren't they? i didn't know that could happen!" and that makes me excited instead of upset

and you definitely don't have to listen to me. maybe i'm actually wrong. maybe i'm completely full of bullshit and am just good at making things sound confident. i got a lot of As on papers in college over books i never read, i know how to bs. but i also know how to analyze, and i while i will be the first to tell you i am not the best at a great many things, i do know that i am good at critically analyzing text while taking into account the context it was written in, and imho all signs point to canon caryl. when, i'm not entirely sure, but i see it happening. if it doesn't then they severely fucked up their storytelling, and that'd just be bad writing on their part.

(if you want proof that i'm good at reading writers'/producers' intentions, consider that i watched like, 8 seasons of supernatural before giving up, and said to myself, "i think they're gonna make destiel canon, but not until the very last second bc they are rly into catering to their fans but also have to consider their dumb fanboy audience so they can't do anything crazy overtly gay," and guess who hit the nail on the fucking head on that one)

none of this is important, but it was rattling around my mind grapes and i wanted to write it down into something vaguely coherent, and where else better to do it than here. i can word vomit and then send it into the ether and pretend i never said a thing. i love this horrible website, nothing can compare

i have no real conclusion to this, it was mostly stream of consciousness, but i hope it sort of helps y'all understand where i'm coming from, and why i am as chill as i am about things. not about y'all. y'all cause me so much anxiety i get physically sick and have to legit block tags, but with the actual show content i'm zen as hell

uh

the end ig?

it feels weird even signing off on this, but w/e

-diz