#in context 'ikaw kasi' can mean 'this is your doing'

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we had another ridiculous conversation again, now "hosi" is going to jose's nickname list and "shanon" is going to mine. 😔

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Resurrection Power!!

Ptr. Joshua Castro! one of my faves preacher

( tamad talaga ako mag type pero para may babasahin ako when I'm feeling down or nanghihina ulet faith ko, gagawin ko, para din sayo to self kaya magsipag ka)

- Maraming Christians ang hindi nakikita ang power of resurrection or hindi nila narerealize or appreciate kung gaano ito kaimportante sa buhay natin.

Story time!

noong unang panahon, mga bandang 11th century humikayat sila ng tao to go to church using fear at hindi faith, tinatakot nila yung tao using the 7deadly sins, the layers of hell, the gargoyles, statues na nakakatakot para lumapit sila kay Lord at humingi ng salvation, ang resulta ay mababaw ang pananampalataya kasi takot ang means nila, they attend church dahil sa kanilang selfish goals, para iligtas sila ni Lord sa hell, kaya di nila maappreciate yung power of resurrection.

I. Resurrection brings salvation

- salvation is the deliverance from sin and its consequences, now kung buhay ang power ng resurrection sayo dapat di ganto; dahil nature natin magkasala, inaabuse natin to, we make sin, then we repent, then sin again then repent again, a never-ending cycle, if you're stuck in this cycle, then ang power of resurrection is not in you. You should overcome the human nature and pursuit His glory.

- we are already saved, no sin, no past, no traumas, no grudges, no sickness can trap you, kaya isuko mo na yan kay Lord! wala naman magandang maidudulot sa paghawak mo sa shame, sa guilt, sa sin or whatever you hold onto para mapalapit sa kanya

- are you still in love with Him, do you still hunger for His presence? hindi lang sana ngayong april kasi we're reminded by His sacrifices but all throughout your life. Seek Him! thank you Lord for bringing me back!

II. Rez Power brings Victory!

- Victory is madaming face, it could be victory over sin, sa buhay, success, wealth, fame or whatever you consider as your victory.

- always be reminded na ang buhay mo, ang purpose mo is to know Him and be like Him.

- victory isn't about wealth, goals, ambitions, its about Him! dapat maging contented ka on what you have and what you can attain, ibibigay naman ng Diyos yan kung will niya, there is nothing wrong with a luxurious life, a position that is high, pero if your focus is wrong, hindi mo inuna ang Diyos, you will never be contented, magpapayaman ka ng magpapayaman, your ambitions will be bigger and bigger, human nature kasi yan.

- Pag inuna mo siya, yung mga desire ng puso mo, susunod na yan, His plans are better than your plans, hindi nagkakamali ang Diyos.

- God didn't sentence you to trials, pain and suffering, He's leading you to victory! He knows what He is doing, trust Him in everything. Never lose your faith pag dumadaan ka sa trials! (eto lang yung makikita mo sa story ni pareng S, syempre di naman lahat pwede ipost sa fb haha, pero parang He's context picking, ang dami pa naman maganda sa preaching ni pastor, sorry Lord kung judger ako haha, kasi nasasayangan ako sa ganda ng preaching and parang yun lang tumatak sa kanya, well di ko naman alam nasa utak niya kaya let's not judge haha)

III. Power that brings Eternity

- Dalawa lang naman yan, heaven or hell, walang purgatoryo haha

- Heaven or Hell is a choice! and that choice is made here sa earth! In every aspect, in every decision dapat kasama mo si Lord, mapa financial, mapa lovelife man yan o kung ano pa man, dapat parating kasama si Lord. Kaya Lord, sinusuko ko na siya sayo, she's asking for space so I gave it to her, now give her your wisdom and courage para masabi niya ang dapat niyang sabihin kasi i'll be waiting, or dapat ba may timeline? ang hirap kasi malay mo in the next decade niya pa sabihin, alam ko na, sa birthday ko na lang, or pag naginitiate siya, tatanungin ko kung gusto niya pa or ayaw na, Lord ikaw ng bahala sa kanya.

- Para makapuntang heaven dapat lagi mong siniseek ang guidance ni Lord, and if will niya to mangyari. Kapag hindi mo sineek ang presence niya on your decision at mali ang nangyari, sisisihin mo si Lord? While in the first place hindi mo siya sinama sa desisyon mo? you'll be crying in the corner, Lord? bakit mo hinayaan maging ganun? sama mo naman bes haha

Let Him guide you sa lahat!

Lord thank you for your sacrifice in the cross ♥️

Ps. Maganda atang walang powerpoint slide, ikaw ang magdidikta kung anu isusulat mo, magiging attentive ka kasi marerealize mong ikaw dapat gumawa ng notes mo at hindi ka lang titingin dun sa screen, kaya madami akong naisulat haha

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The Day After What?

So, iniisip ko kung ano bang magandang panoorin in line with the Pista Ng Pelikulang Pilipino kahit pa may mga issues na kakabit na naman nito na nagp-surface ng ilan pang pelikulang interesting. Here’s my list: 

-Madilim Ang Gabi -Signal Rock  -Balangiga -Gusto Kita With All My Hypothalamus 

‘Yung The Day After Valentine’s e isa sa mga bottom ng list ko kahit na crush ko si Bella at si JC. Reason? Parang alam ko na ang takbo ng kwento and hindi siya relevant sa akin since hindi naman ako naniniwala sa Valentine’s Day to begin with. Pero, dahil may yaya, e sige, pagbigyan. Okay na rin naman kasi for a cause --a bad case of a broken heart, so sige. Game.  All throughout the film, seryososng natatawa ako. Medyo weird nga kasi syempre ‘yung keyme at chararat ng kwento e malalim pero I really can not help but laugh and shake my head. Reasons?  #1 Gets ko ‘yung bigat ng mental health issues. Hindi ko siya tinawanan. Kaya nga sinabi kong I shook my head while watching at times. Madalang ang pelikula na tinatalakay ‘yung mga ganitong isyu kasi nga taboo. Nakakahiya. Ang natatawa lang ako e pinakakita talagang may kabaliwan ‘yung dalawa sa last scene kung saan pagkatapos makasampal nitong si Bella tapos nasaktan ‘yung si JC e nagtawanan ‘yung dalawa. Very eccentric. Very raw and authentic na pinakitang may sapak nga sila. We need more kinds of films that speak about these themes. 

Pero sana ‘wag lang puro in the context of a relationship. Why? Truth is, kahit nasa relasyon ka, ‘pag may sapak ka, wala e. You need to deal with things on your own. There is a thin line that separates saving yourself and letting yourself be saved. Parang si Bella. She thought she could get away with shit when she saved another soul. You are the captain of your soul, sabi nga ni Nelson Mandela.  #2 Do not ever think that fixing someone would guarantee that you get to be loved in return.  That does not work that way. Swerte mo na lang kapag ganun nga. May mga taong wired to have the Messiah complex and they find sheer pleasure in fixing people then tapos na. Finish na. Uwian na. May mga tao naman na they feel entitled to be fixed because they are beyond broken. ‘Yung kasi nasaktan sila ng sobra kaya naghahanap sila ng aayos sa kanila no strings attached. And these realities/scenarios make things more exciting and death-defying. Fixing someone is not a pre-req to being in a worth-the-wait kind of relationship.  Isa pa, hirap ng mga taong may issues at may excess baggages kasi dala nila ‘yan once they enter any kind of relationship. Hindi ‘yan sa pagiging safe o sa pag-subok sa relasyon. Hindi ka puwedeng maging nasa isang relasyon na half-full. Puntang ina. Walang “you complete me” mode paki usap. Kasi dapat ikaw, you know na you can be your own happy pill or you try your best to, at the very least. 

#3 Connection over destination. Always. 

Tignan mo ‘yung takbo ng storya. Ako, personally, bata pa lang ako, gusto ko na talagang pumunta sa Hawaii. Hindi sa America. Hindi sa Europe. Kung ‘di sa Hawaii. Pero pinatunayan na naman ng film na ito na walang ganda ng scenery ang makaka-fake ng real connection or the lack of thereof.  In fairness, mas maganda pa rin ang Pinas compared doon sa mga locations nila which made my heart do cartwheels na pangmalakasan. Ang ganda rin nung part na ang daming chances ni Bella to let her vulnerabilities go down pero she chose to fuck it up by trying not to fuck it up.  Walang relasyon na magwo-work kung may inauthenticity ang sino man sa inyo. (Segue: NP Oo by UDD on Jam 88.3, beshiekeyks, ang sakit-sakit kasi love ko pa rin UDD kahit napakasalimuot ng memories ko sa bandang ito a few years back because damn, girl...).  #4 Vulnerabilities make people more beautiful and more lovable, but... The reality is you really have to find someone who’d actually see the beauty beyond the beasts. Luh. Hahaha. Ang arte ko sa part na ‘yan pero truth lang. And I should friggin’ make it clear that there is a huge difference between finding beauty beyond the beasts and feeding the beasts just because one is mesmerized by one’s beauty. So, in Tagalog, just in case hindi pa rin gets, e, putang ina lang ‘yung ideya na kasi mahal mo kaya hahayaan mo na lang ‘yung isang tao na kainin ng mga halimaw sa loob niya. Hindi ‘yan sustainable.  When one shows vulnerabilities, it’s a cry for help. Hindi ‘yan nanghihingi ng sympathy. Empathy ang hanap niyan. Vulnerabilities ought to be turned to success stories that speak about overcoming the beasts in order for the real beauty to come through. Taena lang nung mga moves na sige, ilabas mo lang lahat ng dark side mo then tapos na. Finish na. 

#5 Assuming at paasa. Parehas lang ‘yung hanap nila -’yung something na mauuwian nila 

Hindi ako naniniwala na exclusive ‘yung isang tao na paasa, in the same manner na assuming siya. Laging may mix of both ‘yan. Sabi ko nga sa friends kong feeling nila e martyr sila e hindi ako naniniwala doon. Lahat ng tao kaya nagmamahal e gusto nilang mahalin sila, in one way or another. Walang perfect love sa mundo ng tao kasi may pangangailangan tayo. ‘Pag may motibo kung ano mang motibo ‘yun, diyan nagsisimulang mag-assume at mag-paasa. May mga verbal and non-verbal cues na kahit sabihin mo pang dense ‘yung isang tao or hindi naman talaga siya paasa, and caring lang, lulusot at lulusot ‘yan as something that leads the two people into thinking about taking things a step further. At the end of the day, assuming ka man o paasa ka man, gusto mo lang naman, makita mo ‘yung mauuwian mo; kahit ano pang kahantungan ng araw o gabi mo.  Assuming ba ‘yung kitang-kita mong masaya siya kahit sabihin niyang hindi siya masaya?  Paasa ba ‘yung sinabi na niyang hindi ka niya hahabulin even if it means having a badly broken heart kasi you made that person feel again?  Assuming ba ‘yung nung kinamusta mo siya e kung makapag-update daig pa Macbook update na matinde, as in bawat detail kailangan talagang ibahagi sa’yo kahit ang tanong mo lang naman e simpleng KAMUSTA KA?  Paasa ba ‘yung sinabi mong ayaw mo na kahit alam mong puwede pa in the name of saving yourself from committing a mistake the second time around? 

#6 Baybayin should be part of the curriculum. 

Sana seryosong ituro ito as part of Filipino subject tapos as in may spelling tests ‘yung mga estudyante sa ngalan ng K12 shenenens. Ang ganda-ganda ng wika natin at nakakadagdag ng lalim. Gusto ko mang kiligin e nakakatawa lang na kelangan pang magbaybayin ng mga characters. Nalungkot lang ako na bakit ba hindi natin gawaing mas malalim ‘yung pagintindi natin sa sarili nating wika kesa mag-master ng matitindeng English terms. Okay lang naman maging fluent sa Ingles pero sana lang talaga, ‘wag nating kalimutan ‘yung sariling atin. 

#7 ‘Pag naitawid mo na ang mga katangahan in the name of That Thing Called Tangina, matatawa ka na lang talaga

Kaya ako natatawa, kasi naitawid ko na, beshiekeyks. And nasasabi ko sa sarili ko na malayo-layo na rin ang natawid ko. Alam ko kung anong gusto ko. Alam ko kung anong ayaw ko. At hinding-hindi na ako magste-step backward kasi parang tanga lang kung ganun gagawin ko. Sayang naman ‘yung lahat ng scars sa ngalan ng pag-temper sa tide between That Thing Called Tadhana and That Thing Called Tangina, Mumsh. 

So, ang takeaway ko? Patuloy na ‘wag maniwala sa Valentine’s kasi napaka fucked up lang niya. I remember tuloy na nagmamasid kami noon sa SM Manila back in college sa mga taong pakamatay sa Valentine’s. Best spot? Dinaig namin ‘yung Papermoon. Sa escalator kami nagabang para mas kita ang dynamics na sangkajowaan. Sobrang entertaining panoorin ng mga paasa at ng mga assuming. Higit sa lahat, always stay authentic. And never back down to let the people see your vulnerabilities. Kung ayaw sa’yo or kung hindi mo kaya, e ‘di pasensyahan na lang. See you around, beshiekeyks!