#in fact the only correlation I've seen so far is people that do have hobbies ASSUMING with NO EVIDENCE that people who don't are bad

[disabledunitypunk]

We deleted our reblog because people were still, even with anon off, harassing the blog admin and being incredibly ableist towards them.

Taking the words of a severely disabled person who at times has been bedbound and literally too sick to even scroll social media for days on end in the worst faith possible when they tell disabled people who are objectively more disabled by their conditions that talking about the experience of BEING more disabled and how statements like theirs harm us, is ableist.

Assuming that every disabled person is capable of doing some form of hobby - yes, even media consumption - and erasing and speaking over severely disabled people who are telling you we sometimes or always can't - is ableist.

Equating anything that some people can't do with being a good or bad person - is ableist.

Sending these kinds of asks:

"having hobbies is ableist??? are you fucking nuts??"

Having hobbies isn't ableist. Tumblr users piss on the poor and you didn't actually read our reply. Equating having hobbies with being a good person and not having hobbies (almost everyone who can have hobbies chooses to do so, by the way) with being a bad person - is ableist.

"so after your fucking tirade was posted, someone decided to start sending anons telling someone to bash his wifes skull in and break her legs so she knows what real disability is. do you call that activism? or unity? because i call it fucking threats. THAT shit is literally VIOLENT ableism. you are fucked. you are absolutely fucked. delete your blog youre literally fucking insane and you dont stand for unity in any sense of the fucking word. you are sick in the fucking head."

- Assuming we are responsible for or even condone truly horrific ableist harassment. To be clear, that is ableism on an entirely different SCALE of the microaggression OP is guilty of. That is unacceptable, and we hope the person receiving those asks reported them and that the user minimally gets IP banned from Tumblr entirely, and that the victim of those asks even gets the authorities involved if necessary.

- Calling being upset by something that personally harms us a "tirade"

- "you are literally fucking insane" as an insult

- "you are sick in the head" as an insult

Those last two are literally just abject sanism. They are equating sanity and sickness to morality/immorality. This is literally the justification ableists have used for hundreds if not thousands of years for oppressing mad people, and the basis of mad liberation is fighting this ableism.

"There's no way this blog is run by multiple people lol. This is the hub of one very mean brat."

Okay, even setting aside that both mods are plural, let's assume they meant my multiple bodily people. I... don't know why we'd have any reason to lie about this? Quite honestly, if it weren't for Mod Cloud taking over admin, I would not be able to continue to run this blog. I'm also curious what was "mean" about saying "this is ableism I'm personally affected by". I think the meanest thing I said was saying "OP says hobbies make them happy so maybe they should spend more time on them because they seem unhappy", because it was a bit snarky, though still genuine.

Also, nice use of infantilizing language with "brat". And now getting back to us being plural: it is pluralmisia and sanism to insist that multiple people in one body are one person. I wanted to address that we are bodily two, because I know that is what that person meant, but it is also just literal ableism to insist systems that identify as multiple people are singlets. (Parts-based systems who identify as one person, however, are valid, and should be addressed as such.) Any accusations of insanity or sickness of the head for being that way are also pluralmisia and sanism.

These are just three among quite literally HUNDREDS of examples. At one point, there was one every few SECONDS while Mod Cloud was trying to answer the good faith anon that wasn't understanding my reply (to that anon, even if you still disagree, thank you for being kind).

One said we should be institutionalized - you know, the form of violent nonconsensual removal of autonomy used to oppress disabled people for as long as institutions have existed? They wanted to not hear us speak about ableism so badly they wanted us to be incarcerated and coercively medicated. THAT'S ableism.

THAT is ableist harassment. That is you disagreeing with a disabled person and taking offense to them interpreting their own experiences as ableism, and following that up with spamming and dogpiling the blog in order to shut us up. You are actively trying to stop us from talking about our experiences with ableism. While I don't know whether the anons sending these were abled or disabled, that's the level of ableism I'd usually only expect from abled people. So if you are also disabled, shame on you for turning on your own community. If you're abled, uno reverse, shut the fuck up forever.

There's a block button. You're allowed to disagree with other abled people about ableism. It's not okay to spam harassing and ableist asks because a disabled person says something you don't like. And you might want to do some serious thinking about why you don't like it, and why you feel the need to say that someone could never be so disabled by their disability as to be unable to do hobbies.

This is what happens every time a disabled person calls out ableism on the internet. Other disabled people jump to lick abled boots and say "no, it's not ableism because it doesn't personally affect me!" They say "Every disabled person is abled enough to do [thing that some disabled people can't do]". They literally pull up examples of inspiration porn. They twist everything the original person said, often to the point of claiming OP said the OPPOSITE of what they actually said.

They try to shut down discussions of ableism. That is, itself, ableism.

Finally,

To all the people in the notes missing the point and saying stuff like this:

"the idea that disabled people can't participate in the arts or crafting or hobbies or anything is so insulting to the disabled people who are doing all of those things (and excelling at them) as we speak"

The existence of more severely disabled people who can't participate in those things, according to you, is insulting to disabled people who are more able to do those things.

Also, to the person talking about how consuming media counts as various hobbies: yes, and thank you, but please note that it is possible to be so disabled and sick that even that isn't possible. PLEASE listen to severely disabled people.

Also, to the person who was snarking about taking shit in the worst possible faith on the internet by saying this is ableist: that's exactly what people are doing WHENEVER a disabled person points out ableism, including on this post. Just because you don't want to believe you are capable of being laterally aggressive to people who are more strongly disabled by their disabilities than you, or that you have privilege over them, doesn't mean that it's true. Sit with your discomfort instead of immediately telling people who are extremely sick and bedbound that actually, we're harming you when we talk about our own experiences.

That's crybully behavior. As much as you might want to play the victim here, you're not.

We will republish our statement at a later date, once harassment has died down.

I am truly disgusted with the cruelty and bullying from within the disabled community on the internet today. Check your privilege and recognize that not every disabled person IS capable of having hobbies. I even talked about how much of a negative impact that can have on our quality of life, and how if it's possible to get to the point where you can do so, that's really important for your personal health and happiness, good grief.

It just doesn't make you a bad person if you can't currently or can't ever do that, and doesn't make you any more likely to be an asshole to random strangers on the internet.

(Plaintext: It just doesn't make you a bad person if you can't currently or can't ever do that, and doesn't make you any more likely to be an asshole to random strangers on the internet.)

And in the unlikely event that it is other people disabled to the point of not being able to participate in hobbies saying this: please advocate for yourselves instead of caving to the pressure. You deserve to not have your inability to do activities you love equated to being a worse and lesser person. You deserve better than having it assumed that you'll hurt people just because you can't occupy your time the same way they can, especially when they are being cruel while actively having hobbies.

[notlucy]

Hi! I hope you're enjoying a slow week after recent busy times . I'm curious about your process. You seem to have many discrete steps, including, I think, writing, rewriting, line edits, and uploading. I've also seen you mention an out-loud reread and grammer edits as a separate thing. What exactly do each of these steps include? Do you do it all for everything you write (including nonfan stuff)? How long do they each take, relatively? big fan of your work! TY for all the effort and time :)

Hi! Thank you so much for this question, and also for the compliments about my work. I’m happy to talk about my process, but I want to preface it with the fact that I firmly believe that every single writer and creator is different, and that just because something works for/has helped me, does not mean it will work for or help everyone. In fact, some of the things I do might hinder other people, and that’s okay! A big part of doing this has been figuring out my own weird little idiosyncratic crap, which can be a fun part of everyone’s journey.

Another thing is: this is supposed to be fun! Yes, I’m attempting to pursue writing professionally, which is why I have developed this convoluted, nonsense process. However, I wouldn’t do any of it if I didn’t get some joy or enjoyment out of the crazy hoops I jump through for a final product - I really, really love doing all these ridiculous things, and it’s part of what makes writing fun for me. So if the thought of doing this is exhausting and you think I am a glutton for punishment, please don’t do it. Be smarter than me. Love your hobby and let it bring you joy however it brings you joy!

So, my process (my own, my precious)

Writing - This is the stage where I just spew everything out into Scrivener or Google docs. My outlines are sparse to none, and while I might have a single document with a numbered list meant to loosely correlate to eventual chapters, it’s more of a guideline than any definite thing. (For example, my outline for merBucky chapter 1 was the line “Steve leaves home”.) My first drafts are usually messy and incomplete, with ideas that aren’t quite fully formed, and the gist of a lot of things, without the meat of them.

The “don’t poke the bear” stage - where I try not to touch the story for 3 weeks to a month. Longer if possible. This allows me to forget what I’ve written entirely.

Rewrite - This is something I’ve been doing since Family Placement, to a certain extent, but didn’t really formalize until I was doing Small Star. Basically, I take that first draft, put it side-by-side with a blank document, and retype the entire thing from scratch. This allows me to take what I already had, read it fresh, and try to figure out what I actually wanted to say. During this phase, I tend to find a lot of those half-formed ideas, or areas where I was over-explaining, or places where I hadn’t quite gotten the characterization right. (I keep picking on merBucky, but a lot of the rewrites involved going, “who is this guy? I know it says Steve Rogers on the page, but uh…this is not Steve Rogers!”) The story usually grows between 15-20% during this phase, too, as I’m expanding a lot on basic ideas.

Line-edits - I have no idea if this is the official term for what I do, and I only started doing this when I got my new printer (the first story I did it on was Go Fish, I think), but I print the entire story out and go over it with a red pen. This is, I think, the biggest change to my writing process since I started, and I honestly have found it the most helpful. Seeing the work in a different medium helps me catch so much more. I tighten prose, I spot odd sentences, I see where I’m reusing phrases and words, etc. etc. Please don’t get me wrong, it’s a pain in the ASS to do it this way, but (for me) the results are worth it. This is also where the story shrinks back down another 10-15% as I’m cutting out a lot of extraneous shit.

Regretting everything - This is the part where I’m faced with a million red pen slashes to put back into the Scrivener document and I start crying. But it’s fine, it’s fine!

Beta - Self-explanatory. Story goes to between 1-3 betas at this point. (Note: this is not the first time other people have seen the story, usually, as I have some alphas I brainstorm ideas with, but this is usually the first time I’m asking for crit and not just cheerleading or brainstorming). Once the beta edits come back, I make the necessary changes.

Out-loud - Also self-explanatory. I read every single word of everything I post out-loud to myself. This is the final step to catch weird sentences, odd word choices, or things that just don’t sound naturalistic in dialogue. Or if, say, your one-armed assassin suddenly has two arms. Just lil’ things that the final once-over helps to catch.

Grammarly - I have a premium membership to Grammarly, and if you’re a SPAG nerd, I can’t recommend it enough. It catches a LOT of shit. Real pedantic shit that I never would have caught otherwise, and SPAG has never been my problem. It’s also good for catching where you’ve accidentally inserted two commas, or forgotten to throw in a period, or little tiny things your brain might jump over when you’re doing it yourself. Granted, it also points out a lot of things where I’m like “no Grammarly, you don’t understand my prose,” because at the end of the day it’s just a tool, and it’s what you make of it.

AO3 (if it’s fanfic) - I post, then I spend the next hour fretting, and then like months later I catch additional mistakes. So, you know. It’s a living.

To answer your question as to whether or not I do this for everything, the short answer is yes, the long answer is: yes if I give a shit about it. I will always do it for fic, or for fiction writing. When I’m writing for work or for school…eh, depending on the class/paper, I’ll do a lot of this, but not the whole process. And as far as how long each step takes me, it depends on the length of the story, but I reliably write around 1,500 words a day, same with rewrites. If I’m editing, I can get about 20 pages of line edits and/or inputs done in an hour-ish?

I hope that was what you were wanting when you asked! I feel like this entire thing is a cautionary tale. Mwah!