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soldier-poet-king · 4 months

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being full of extreme emotions 24/7 does NOT make you good at expressing emotions, especially when it's sanitized, socially-ordained sentiment demanded by professional etiquette. in fact, being super upfront and genuine about my emotions makes this faux behaviour MORE excruciating, imho

source: i am consistently the most emotional person on the face of the earth, but am experiencing The Agonies trying to write thank you cards for my second-last day at work

#like it's fine. i can do it. i'll live #i UNDERSTAND why we have professional etiquette and social scripts like #I GET IT #i just think that in many (not all but many) they are very stupid!! and i am bad at them!!#it feels like LYING and i CANT LIE IT MAKES ME FEEL SICK #like i am expressing emotions which i am not experiencing!! which is rare #i express my silly extreme emotions 24/7 but now???#WORKPLACE EMOTIONS??? IN FANCY NICE CARDS????#insane. idk man #i think it is part i am very awkward and socially bad thing. do not like proscribed social scripts and all that #and it's part a class thing?? like. grow up poor working class #my idea of a thank u is like. i bake cookies. i bring lasagne. idk man #CARDS??? STATIONERY???#it's like. we are running on social scripts i dont understand and was never taught #and therefore hard to follow #GOOGLE. MY BESTIE. HOW DO I WRITE A XYZ #just trying not to like. socially blunder yknow #i KNOW ppl find my awkward genuineness endearing in a pitiful child charming way #but I AM TRYING TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY AS A PROFESSIONAL #bc im GOOD AT MY JOB. I LIKE MY FIELD. i just ALSO happen to be v emotional and silly #these are not mutually exclusive ok #the duality of fran

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