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#like. can we go. two seconds without treating people with mental disorders like a spectacle. please. you dont have to have a ''take'' on it
transbee · 7 months
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having did and being online in any capacity is so fucking exhausting because you literally can't go anywhere without seeing the most heinous takes about your existence or validity it's like. can we be normal. can we please be normal and Chill for like two seconds.
#HEADS UP: this accidentally turned into a huge rant/vent feel free to get the hell out el oh el#i try reallly hard not to talk about it too much here because you can. offhandedly mention the mere concept of did or osdd or any#dissociative disorder and its like. people will not shut up about how its not real or how its people being delusional or kids being cringe#like. can we go. two seconds without treating people with mental disorders like a spectacle. please. you dont have to have a ''take'' on it#idk and i also avoid online did communities bc theyre the most exhausting spaces you can ever be in and theres constant fighting about#literally anything and everything. like. maybe i would like to find a space to meet other people with similar experiences to my own.#and we dont get that!! we literally cannot get that. and this goes for a lot of mental health related stuff but like my god#and im very lucky to have other people i know in real life who also have did so i can in some amount have that support system (hah.)#but it is EXHAUSTINGG that people cannot go literally a day without saying something stupid about systems#or i can be following someone for years and unprompted they will saysomething heinous thing about did and hide it behind something like#get a load of how weird and cringey kids are getting online these days.#and CHRISTT thats a whole OTHER issue i REALLY dont wanna talk about because it has its own whole set of nuances but like jeeeesus#is it really so hard for people to grasp that brains when exposed to traumas at a young age will be affected by it in weird ways.#idk man ive been seeing a lot of offhanded disregard for systems recently and it's so normalized and it's starting to get to me i guess#i wish people could just go well this is something i dont understand and dont need to have an opinion on and move on with their lives.#what the hell ever this is all to say having did has impacted my life in a lot of complicated and intricate and hard to explain ways and it#sometimes painful and awful but other times is an incredible experience and ALSO. most IMPORTANTLY !#i should be able to make jokes about BEING FRIENDS with SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG!! in REAL LIFE!!!#and not have to deal with SUICIDE BAIT IN MY INBOXX BECAUSE OF IT!!!#WHATEVERRR !!! RANT OVARRR I HAVE NOODLES TO MAKE AND EAT#.... WITH my friend SHADOW!!!#.txt#and btw this isnt about anyone ik here so dont worry im not upset with any mutuals etc etc and all that.#in fact i love getting the chance to chat about it n it can be fun to teach stuff to people who know how to like...be normal about it LOL#<3
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rahmaelsayad · 6 years
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If you make a boy laugh, He likes you. But if you make a boy cry, He loves you.
Bahut gurur tha sbko apni daulat pe.. zara sa zameen kya hili sb aukat me aa gye..
I told my parents I had my eye on a bike for my birthday. They told me to keep my eye on it because my arse won’t be on it.
Finding friends that have the same mental disorder as you.
It can take me anywhere between 0.02 seconds and 3 days to reply to a text.
Sometimes it is painful to see that the people most appreciate is false.
Girls with open messy hair, chubby cheeks, a dimple, and spectacles.. Aww, you look so cute.!
Opportunity tends to knock once, then it’s gone…temptation, however, likes to stand there and lean on the damn doorbell!
Make your nature simple, the time will not be wasted.
Hope is the power that gives a person the confidence to step out and try…..
Alone doesn’t mean lonely, lonely doesn’t have to be alone.
Beauty is power, a smile is its sword..
We all need mirrors to remind ourselves who we are.
Things r beautiful if u love them.
If I could be anything, l would be ur tear, so l could be born in ur eye, live down ur cheek and die on ur lips…
You say it best when you say nothing at all!!
Sometimes, i want to meet myself from someone else’s point of view!
Shit happens. Everyday. To everyone. The difference is in how people deal with it.
Maturity is not when we start speaking big things. It is when we start understanding small things.
Sometimes I’ts better To be Alone.. Nobody Can Hurt You!
God is really creative, I mean.. just look at me! 🙂
Last seen 1980! 😀
Thinking holds what you feel, feeling drives what we think.
A friendship that can end never really began !
I dont have a lot of friends, I just know a lot of people.
A friend is someone who knows all abt u and accept u as u are.
Right or Wrong doesn’t ‎exist! When u have a ‎CONFIDENCE.
Life is Just a Journey.
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Be bold to own your mistakes in Life, accept your faults and improve your personality.
I speak for what i see, I stand for what I Beileve. I strive for what i want.
When u love someone, even though they hurt u nd break your heart, you still love them with all the little pieces!!
World is small and life is short.. Spread smiles and share peace.
People who tolerate me on the daily basis! are real heroes in my eye.
Life goes on with or without you!
I hate fake people. You know what I’m talking about. Mannequins. 😀
I am the circle, and the circle is me.
24 Hours Online!
Classic book is a book which people praise, but do not read.
Cheer up, tomorrow will be a better day, just believe!
It might take awhile, but eventually you’re going to find the good in goodbye.
When the past calls, let it go to voicemail.. it’s got nothing new to say.
Play the moments. Pause the memories. Stop the pain. Rewind the happiness.
Romantic are people that had never seen the other side of the things.
The Ones Who Are Crazy Enough To Think That They Can Change The World Are The Ones Who Do.
Love is not possible without sacrifice, and sacrifice is not possible without love.
Love is when u have seen the best and the worst of sam1,yet u still love them for what they have..
True love doesan’t have a happy ending. It has NO ending.
Call me crazy, but I’m madly in love with you and this won’t go away for a while, so get use to it..
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Sometimes you have to act like you don’t care, even when you do.
You have no idea how much l like you. How much you make me smile, how much l love talking to you, or how much l wish you were here.
Every problem comes with solution, but my GF don’t have.
Life is too short. Don’t waste it reading my status.
Give thanks for a little and you will find a lot.
What is known in the heart doesn’t always need to be uttered by Mouth.
Don’t feel special. Some people keep your number in phone list just not to answer your call.
After all we all are stories in the end.
Sometimes the person you trust most is the one who trust you the least.
Go for someone who is not only proud to have you but will also take every risk just to be with you.
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Some People Change Your Life, Then Leave Without Explanation !!
The most eloquent silence, that of two mouths meeting in a kiss.
Play the moments. Pause the memories. Stop the pain. Rewind the happiness.
I Miss you dearly my heart aches, My head is lost, I really miss you.
The Ones Who Are Crazy Enough To Think That They Can Change The World Are The Ones Who Do.
Romantice are people that had never seen the other side of the things.
I think I might be falling for you. I love who you are and every little thing you do.
Life doesn’t get easier u get stronger.
Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.
Stop saying I wish start saying I will.
Love yourself love your day love your life.
Don’t let a bad day make u feel u have a bad life.
I’ve got nothing to bo today but smile.
Life is to short to remove USB slowly.
Nobody can teach me who I am.
It doesn’t have to be perfect to be beautiful.
Sometimes it’s not about missing someone. its wondering if they’re missing you
You know how you don’t want to miss them, but you want them to miss you
Absence makes the heart grow fonder
Love is missing someone whenever you’re apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you’re close in heart.
If we evolved from monkeys, why are there still monkeys?
Dont talk if you dont have any good thing to say
A female can be your best friend and worst enemy. It all depends on how you treat her.
Remember, You are unique, but then again so is everyone else in this world.
Sometimes the right one for you is the one who was there the whole time.
If they can’t swallow facts, let them eat fiction.
I think of you in colours that don’t exist.
Guys who run girl’s account on Facebook are the ones who secretly buy barbie and comb its hair.
Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.
Mujhe teri mohabbat ko sahara mil gaya hota.. agar tufan nahi aata kinara mil gaya hota…
Pluviophile: a lover of rain, someone who finds joy and peace of mind during rainy days.
Aarju honi chahiye dill me kise ko yad karne ki.. Lamhe toh apne ap he miljate he dost
Baharo phool barshao mera mehboob aya hain..
Saw a Chinese kid and a black kid wave to each other today. It gave me hope…for another Rush Hour movie…
They say what goes around comes around, passed a packet of chips and never came back.
Duniya main sirf 2 Chize Mashoor Hai, tere bhai ka Style, aur teri bhabhi ki smile.
Thanks to the words ‘dude’ ‘bro’ and ‘man’ I haven’t said my best friends name in 10 years.
Tu hi ye mujhko bata de.. chahu main ya na..
Ye zami ruk jaye, Ye aasma tam jaye, Jab tere chara samn aaye.
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Lovesick
Words: 4.7k Genre: Angst, smidgen of Fluff Summary: In a world where love is a disease...your heart skips one too many beats. Warnings: Mentions of illness and medication
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Love is a sickness.
It’s an illness that once too far gone becomes incurable; terminal.
Scientists have discovered it as an infectious disease, a parasite that crawls its way under skin to the heart. It can cause numerous complications, including delusion and blindness. Those who are affected by ‘love’ may be susceptible to mood swings, an increased dependency, a feeling of loneliness and obsessive thinking. It can cause stress, shortage of breath and mental disorder. In severe cases, it could cause physical aches to the chest - a term known as ‘heartbreak’.
Centuries ago, the majority suffered under ‘love’. Many victims had to lose their freedom and became detached from their schooling and careers. They were separated from reality and was unable to work efficiently. Those victims had psychotic behaviour, sometimes experiencing ridiculous amounts of happiness to feelings of jealousy, rage or sadness. In the worst of cases, some people allowed themselves to be hurt again and again in an endless cycle of pain. It’s as if ‘love’ was an addiction. Unfortunately, only one of every ten people were free from ‘heartbreak’.
“Since then, civilization has longed moved on from such feelings. We have detached ourselves  from this idiocy.” The suited lady on the television nods. “If you notice any symptoms in others or in yourself, it requires immediate medical attention. Symptoms include an irregular heart rate-”
“Is there nothing else to watch?”
“No, but you can try to find something else.”
“Fine.” You flop down onto the couch, digging your cold feet under the blanket. “A documentary it is.”
The documentary continues on the horrors of the illness. The two of you are curled next to each other, silence taking over as you concentrate. You ask yourself why anyone would want to suffer at the hands of this disease and willingly at that too. What was so special about ‘love’?
“Hey, Y/N.”
“Hmm?”
“What do you think it feels like to love?”
It happens when you turn your head. It happens when you look over to him. It happens before you can stop it.
His face is illuminated by the glow of the screen. His velvet lips lay still, a void emotion written across his features. You can see how he was drained by the day, exhaustion settling in with the night. The voice that speaks to you is of a breathy timber, a question that isn’t really looking for an answer. It’s a thought spoken out loud. No. He is close but out of finger’s reach. This can’t be right.
He looks at you deep within your eyes, a stare that you can’t draw away from. You’re magnetized, bewitched under the brown hues of his irises. Beautiful. He is different somehow that you can’t quite explain. But maybe the difference is within you. No. Jimin is your friend.
Then it happens-
Your heart skips a beat.
“Y/N?” He laughs and shifts to look at you again when you move away. “Are you okay?”
No. “I’m fine.” This can’t be happening.
“Okay, weirdo.” He stops bothering you, looking back at the screen.
You must’ve imagined it. How could you ever feel something more for Jimin? It’s impossible.
That night, the boy who’s been your platonic companion from since you could remember, falls asleep on your shoulder. The soft and silver strands of his hair grazes against your skin. The knot between his brows has dissipated and his cheek is cutely smooshed against your collarbone. Something constricts inside as you stare at him, eyes pinned on his curled lashes. You linger in his warmth, the weight pressed on your side. Jimin.
What have you done to me?
Your heart skips yet another beat.
//
“You’re not just coming in to see me right?” He laughs, rolling back in his chair to put away some file folders. “Or is it because you think I have time to kill?”
The walls are white, floor and ceiling in the matching void colour. The odor of disinfectant and the emptiness of the hallways would otherwise make you feel uncomfortable. But you’re in the presence of your trusted friend and that makes everything better. It doesn’t feel like a potential illness is looming over your head. It doesn’t feel like you’re a patient, ready to receive news of your death. It’s probably nothing. You’d simply thought that a checkup wouldn’t hurt.
“No.” You pout at him, staring at your hands in your lap.
“Okay.” Seokjin stops and gives you all the attention you need. “What’s wrong?”
You would’ve never gone to the doctor’s. But Seokjin is a friend that you know would never judge you. If your suspicions are true, he would never force you to undergo surgery. Jin would never make you feel disgusted with yourself or treat you like you’re contagious.
“I think I’m sick, Jin.”
He frowns and the mood becomes grim. “What do you mean sick?”
“I-” You’re at a loss of words. “My heart skips beats. W-….when I see this..person, I feel happier and when they’re not there then I feel.....lonely. It’s pathetic, isn’t it?”
“No. It isn’t.” Jin scrambles for a clipboard, digging through his belongings before he sits himself in front of you. The first question he wants to ask as he looks at you is- who?
Who made you this way?
But he knows you wouldn’t answer; that uttering the name out loud would cause even more panic and pain. “Does your heart go faster?”
“Yes.”
“Do you feel any nervousness or anxiety around this person?”
“Yes.”
Jin is completely serious, the persona of a professional taking over as he asks you a few further questions. The more you answer, the more afraid you become. “Is it what we both think it is?” You beg him with tears welling up, “Tell me, Jin.”
“I don’t know for sure.” He shakes his head, ready to step out of the room to immediately book an MRI scan. “Let’s just hope it’s not.”
The man in the white coat tries to reassure you, following you in every step. He’s there when you take your x-rays, blood tests and to monitor your heart rate. “Everything’s okay so far. It’ll be okay until the end. Don’t worry.”
You look up at him, lying on the table in a thin gown. You’re about to be swallowed by the machine, brain picked apart for any abnormalities.
“I’m scared.”
It’s a small and weak confession that whispers out from your parted lips. “What if it really is what I think it is? What will happen then? What will I do, Jin?”
He takes your hand within his, holding it tightly. “Then I’ll be here to help you.”
It’s late past midnight. Hours have passed and the clinic is vacant. If it weren’t for Jin, you’d be laid out for assessment in the cold eyes of numerous doctors. They’d exploit you until you feel naked, scorn you underneath spectacles and spit out terminology spun into tongue twisting language. Instead, he’ll be the one to find your secrets.
Kim Seokjin.
Whose eyes are bloodshot red, carrying black bags underneath them. He stifles every yawn, blinks hard to keep himself awake. And the moment you glance at him, he always smiles back at you without missing a single beat.
“It’ll be okay.” He reassures you a second time, grip tightening. “You’ll be okay.”
You’re being pulled into the scanner and his fingertips slide away from yours. “Thank you.”
The white fluorescent lights burn to the back of your lids. You shut your eyes, expelling away the water that threatens to spill onto your skin. “Y/N.” His voice comforts you again. “I’ll be here.”
It takes twenty minutes.
When you’re out, he stops you before you can bombard him with questions.
“I have to give it to another doctor who specializes in this area to take a good look at it.” He softly smiles. “Twenty four hours. Do you think you can wait that long?”
“I can.” You let out a staggering exhale. “But whatever the results are...good or bad...don’t hide it from me, okay? I want you to tell me the honest truth, Jin.”
“Of course.” He bumps you lightly. “I am a doctor. You think I can just hide the results from you because you’re my dear friend? I’d get fired!”
You laugh, feeling the most calm you have since the other night. Jin ushers you outside the room, leading you straight to the other room that you changed in. Once you switch the patient gown for your regular clothes, you find your friend leaning against the wall with his white coat taken off. He’s puffing out his cheeks, swinging his car keys around his finger.
“Let me drive you home.” It’s not a question but more of a statement. You don’t get to argue as he casually walks off. He beams when you have to run to match with his large steps.
Jin slows down his strides for you. “You owe me a meal.”
“What?” You giggle at him in disbelief, “why me?”
“Because it’s like two in the morning!” The man childishly pouts. “You know I’m suppose to be dead asleep right now? And I have to return in a few hours! You owe me, Y/N. And I won’t take ‘no’ for an answer~”
“Fine….” You nag at him in feigned exasperation. “You’re going to empty out my pocket again, aren't you?”
Seokjin opens the car door for you and makes a big gesture for you to go in. You roll your eyes and he shuts the door. “You bet I will!” The empty parking garage echoes with his voice. He mischievously grins and winks at you as you laugh.
It’s a breath of fresh air. You don’t feel as afraid as you were before.
//
The door opens and immediately your ears perk at the sound. “I’m home.”
“Welcome back.” You try your best to ignore, keeping your head low and focused on your keyboard. Your fingers tap relentlessly, the words not quite making sense on the document. But the false concentration is shattered by the smell of- “You brought food home?”
Jimin smiles and hums gently, placing the plastic bag full of takeout onto the counter. “Did you have dinner yet?” With one look at your bewildered expression, he already knows. “No, right? Well good. Now we can eat together.”
The boy snatches your laptop away, plopping down next to you and demanding all of your attention. It’s a long silence before he catches your eyes. “Why are you looking at me like that?”
“I-” You shake your head, forcing yourself to forget about your accelerating heart. “Looking at you like what?” You fake a laugh, “If anything, it’s the ugly on your face.”
“Pft.” He shoves the box gently into your hands. “Yeah, right. You wish you had my face.”
You roll your eyes, feeling too tired to join with his silly antics. But when you open up the box, your breath hitches- “Oh.” It’s your favourite.
He melts into a sheepish smile when he notices how surprised you are. “Can I hear a ‘thank you, Jimin’?”
A seeping heat sweeps itself up your cheeks, burning in a shade of rose that you pray he can’t see. “Thank you...Jimin…”
The boy who is unaware of the misery and yearning, who doesn’t know that you itch to hold him in your arms, reaches over to messily ruffle your hair. For the merest second, his fingertips touch your skin. “Why are you being such a good girl today?” He leans downwards, looking up into your eyes with a teasing smile. “Y/N.”
“W-What is it?”
He laughs. Even if Jimin didn’t have bad intentions, you wish he knew of the cruelty; how you felt like you were being played with each sound, how each movement made you hope of something more. “Eat your dinner.”
Could he not tell how nervous you were? You were on the edge of your seat, unable to control whatever foreign feelings were settling at the pits of your stomach. All day, you couldn’t stop thinking about him. And now he was here with you - in a way that was so surreal and…..utterly painful.
When did this happen?
The tide of emotions had once tickled your feet and erupted giggles from your chest. Somehow when you weren’t paying attention, it had snuck up behind you and enveloped you into the blue, pulling you deeper and deeper in. Now you were surrounded in him and nothing but him.
//
“Y/N. You need to come here right now. It’s urgent.”
You’re not sure why you’re so calm. Maybe you had expected it all this time but you find yourself walking into Jin’s office like you were visiting him as a friend and not as a patient.
“What is it?”
“Just...take a seat first, Y/N.”
“Jin.” Your eyes are full of determination. “Tell me.”
Kim Seokjin takes his hands from the pockets of his white coat. He stands up and meets you in two strides. His darkened irises are focused onto you, his black locks disheveled from the busy day. “Y/N.”
You’ve never felt more vulnerable.
Pathetic. You can’t control the sobs that shake your body. Your hands automatically raise to shield away the tears but then you feel arms drape your shoulders, pulling you close in comfort. He encases your trembling frame, protecting you from the bitter bite of the air. Jin is the clothes that cover your nakedness, the shield to your exposed feelings that have been served on a silver platter. You let go. You allow yourself to break down.
“I love him.”
“I know.” Your friend whispers into your ear, a sweet hum of a lullaby. “We can stop it before it’s too late. Plenty of people are able to fall out of love naturally on their own….If not then we can take a more drastic measure.”
Surgery is what most in his field would encourage in this situation but he knew how horrific it was. They’d have to mess with the chemicals inside your head, cut parts off in your brain. The last thing that Jin wanted was to see you lying pale and sick in a bed, halfway to death but not quite. It was too cruel. The thought of you in that position made him sick.
“I love him, Jin.” You murmur again, tears dripping to his clothes. “I’m in love with Jimin.”
The confession hits him like a freight train. Park Jimin who he’s known as long as he’s known you. Park Jimin who isn’t a stranger that Jin had hoped. He wanted it to be someone he didn’t know. He wanted the person who had made you ill to remain faceless. That way, he could despise them as if they were a monster or untouchable entity of a second world.
“I’ll prescribe you with some medication.” Jin’s embrace tightens around you. “Just...try to stay away from him.”
Jimin. His own friend.
Jin can’t find it in himself to hate the person who has harmed you in this way, even if it was unintentional. But it pains him even more to see you so broken...sick...in love.
//
Staying away from Jimin proves more difficult than said.
After that night in Jin’s office, you had listened to his advice and actively tried to stay away from the boy who gave you the disease. If Jimin left early in the morning, you’d leave before he did. If he was to come home late at night, you’d make sure to return when he was asleep. You even went as far as searching for a new apartment to move into, condemning your past self as to why it was ever a good idea to become housemates with your friend.
You still think about him everyday. It becomes natural, automatic. Whenever there is time to spare and your thoughts begin to wander...you daydream of a boy whose eyes crinkle when he smiles, who calls you silly names with his head tilted to one side...who makes you so unbelievably happy that it aches.
“Y/N?”
“Jimin?” You shut your eyes, opening them again to make sure it isn’t an illusion. “What are you doing here?”
The rain pitter patters gently, puddles growing at your feet. You’re hidden underneath a bus shelter, the cold nipping at your nose. It wasn’t a shower, more like Heaven’s teardrops raining down. It made you wonder if the angels were sorrowfully weeping for you.
“I was looking for you.” He’s hyperventilating, having ran outside with little warning. When Jimin saw how it started to pour, he chased after you to make sure you wouldn’t get drenched.
“You didn’t have to-”
“Why are you avoiding me?”
His question is straight to the point and it leaves you stuttering. “I-I’m not.”
At your weak retort, he raises an eyebrow. “You aren't?”
“I’ve been a little bit busy.” You say with more confidence and a masked smile. “Did it seem like I was avoiding you? I’m sorry, I should’ve said something-”
“No.” He tips his head back with a relaxed expression. “I’m relieved. I thought there was something wrong.”
“There’s nothing wrong.” You reassure as your throat tightens. “There’s...nothing wrong.”
“Good. That’s all that matters.” His grip on the umbrella handle eases. The sunny yellow of the canopy vividly stands out in the surroundings of grey rain. “If there was something wrong, you know you could always talk to me about it, right? You’re my best friend and I care about you.”
“I know.” You step forward and under his umbrella, protected from the cold. The drops that drip from the sky softly knocks against the surface. It’s a beat to the song of your despair.
“Let’s go home.”
The symptoms are worsening. You can no longer restrain the butterflies that explode in your stomach; like the first of spring’s season. It churns and makes you feel sick. When he comes too close, goosebumps helplessly erupt over your skin. You find yourself hyper aware of each of his actions, hanging onto every single word.
You’re always staring. You are captured by his spell, captivated as your eyes run over the slope of his nose, each eyelash and the dip of his plush lips. All the while, Jimin is simply looking ahead. He never once notices. He doesn’t detect how you desire to be held, to be touched...to want more than to watch.
“Are you okay?” He taps on the door. “What’s taking you so long, Y/N?”
“Just-” With the energy you can muster, you outstretch your arm, struggling to turn on the tap so he can’t hear your coughing. “-one second!”
You’re collapsed on the floor, leaning lifelessly against the counter. Twenty pills have spilled in your palm, the bitter taste of the medication still on your tongue. Your eyes are reddened, cheeks stained with the anguish. Why? No matter how many you’ve taken, it doesn’t go away.
The feelings don’t disappear.
“Is there a way for me to have him around?” You ask Jin over the phone, a few dials and seconds away before you can hear his soothing voice. “I can’t do it. I can’t cut him off.”
“Y/N…” He calls you softly, the hurt returning to bore into his bone. In his hands hold your paperwork, the last check up telling him that your disease has progressed into unrequited love.
Jimin has always and forever will be compassionate, considerate and kind. You know him like the back of your hand. And that’s why it hurts even more. Because you aren’t special.
Not in the least bit. He treats you like he would anyone else. You, on your own, had to misunderstand his intentions. You let hope sew itself into your heart. You took advantage of his kindness. You brought this pain onto yourself. You let yourself become sick.
But was love ever a choice?
//
“Is falling in love so bad?”
The hope cannot be smothered. You’re desperately yearned that the things he speaks to you means something more. And you’ve become selfish. If he was sick like you...maybe it wouldn’t have to be so painful.
“Are you okay, Y/N?” Jimin looks at you in concern, “What’s wrong?”
He never answers your question.
The symptoms worsen even more until it feels like you’re held captive under his reign, on edge from his every glance. You’re ill. In a way that makes you feel disgusted with yourself. The world continues to move but you’re glued to the same spot. There’s nothing you can do.
Nothing he can do.
Jimin is at a loss, befuddled at your behaviour. The way you look at him is strange. How your eyes are soft and your words are always full of hesitation. The way you react is strange. He finds you withdrawing when his hands accidentally grazes yours as if he’s burnt you. You’re always mumbling to yourself...lost in another world. Yet at the same time, you’re always smiling when he is, your laughter has become brighter and it makes him happy that you’re happy.
He is your friend after all.
“Y/N?” Jimin lightly calls your name. Upon hearing no response and seeing that you’ve fallen asleep, he smiles and walks away. “Why is she always sleeping on the couch?” His mumbling and the padding footsteps aren’t enough to wake you. But when you feel a warm blanket drape on your body, tucking you in, one of your eyes flutter open.
Why? Even through your hazing mind, you’re screaming inside your brain. Why does he always treat you with so much kindness? Why does his compassion hurt you so much?
Your hand automatically wraps around his wrist and he freezes, eyes trailing up to your body to meet your eyes.
“Stay with me.” It’s a murmur that befalls from your parted lips, half between a desperate plea and a breath. “Can you please stay with me?”
Those are words that you wanted to say. Those are words that sobbed to be spoken on your tongue. Those are words that you were too cowardly and too scared to utter.
“Thank you.”
Jimin doesn’t respond and he doesn’t need to. You watch him smile, let your heart quicken in pace - thump, thump, thump - and the butterflies in your stomach do acrobatics, swan dives and fluttering leaps. His eyes crinkle like the crescent moon in the night sky and you allow your lips to mimic his.
“Go to your own bed, brat.” He ruffles your hair and you sink deeper into the covers. “Your neck will hurt in the morning.”
If only he knew how much you wanted him to be with you. How much you wanted him to call your name. How much you ached to have him embrace your body and kiss your lips. If he knew that you were ridden with disease, a lovesickness that you can’t get rid of, would he feel something more than pity?
You watch the silhouette of his backside blur in the darkness of the hall.
That’s when you realize that it never happened overnight. You never loved Jimin merely by sitting on this very same couch that’s filled with his scent, not by watching his face glow in the television’s light, not when he fell asleep on your shoulder and you realized how beautiful he was.
The feelings were always there.
They were buried deep underneath, grown over time and experiences. It was tended to, sprouting inch by inch each time he laughed to that very time when he nagged you to death about staying out late. The question that he mindlessly spoke (“What do you think it feels like to love?”) simply had made you recognize that the seedling wasn’t a bud anymore. The roots had clung on no matter how hard you tried to rip it out.
“Y/N.” Jin’s voice quivers, “The sickness has deteriorated...into the worst kind of love.”
Unconditional love.
No matter what happens - you’ll still love him.
“Be honest with me, Y/N.” Jimin has his hands in yours, the two of you sitting down together one afternoon day. “Is something going on? If there is...I want to be there for you. Whatever’s happening in your life...You’re my best friend.”
It stings. But you’d still hang onto every word like the fool you are.
And he’s left unaware.
“I’m fine. Everything’s going to be okay.”
Because even if Jimin never knows for the rest of his life, you’ll truly be happy for him.
As long as he’s still smiling and laughing, you’re content. The undying yearning has subdued under the noisy palpitations of your chest. The happiness that you so longed for yourself is overridden by happiness for him. To love unconditionally is not to love no matter what he does to you. It’s not to love him when he hurts you. Rather it’s to love without expecting anything back.
“What do you think it feels like to love?”
You don’t know all the answers and you never will. But you know it’s one of the most painful and beautiful things that can happen to someone. You will never stop cherishing him. And your heart will never stop skipping beats and racing to the non-existent finish line. Your cheeks will always glow and bloom hues of rose, warming up to the caress of his fingertips. The butterflies won’t cease when his irises connect to yours, when he smiles or calls you silly names to tease. You might never stop wanting more, never stop thinking about him when your daydreams skedaddle off but at the very least - you know now that this love has made your world less grey.
This love is the one that swept you off into the tide of emotions. It made you learn how to love.
Jin doesn’t know what he’s doing.
He especially doesn’t know when he stares at the bouquet of lilac flowers lying on his desk.
What was he thinking? Maybe he wasn’t feeling well. After hearing that you were coming by his office, he had abruptly turned into the florist’s shop. Now the scent of floral was haunting him and the image of your flushed cheeks came to mind within the snapshot of a millisecond.
“I’m going crazy.” He mutters to himself and throws the flowers into his trash bin.
At the exact same time, the door to his office slides open and you’re greeting him with a grin. “Were you just talking to yourself?”
“No.” Jin defends himself with a pout that quickly grows into a smile when he sees you. “How are you?”
“Are you asking as my doctor…” You plop down in the seat across from his desk. “...or as my friend?”
He laughs at your mischievous expression. “Both. But...mostly as your friend.”
“If I’m being truthful…” You lean back. “I’m not doing as badly as I was before. It’s still...difficult on some days but I’m okay. That’s why I’m here-” You pause with an inhale. “I wanted to drop by and let you know that I’m leaving.”
Jin tips his head to one side. “What?”
A smile lifts your lips and you fiddle in your lap. “I’ve decided that I needed to get away...just for a while. Travel and see the world...free my mind a bit.” You meet Jin’s eyes again, overwhelmed by thankfulness. If it weren’t for him, you would’ve made it this far. “I don’t think I’ll ever stop loving Jimin. But I’ve come to terms with it and it’s not so bad…”
“How-” He nods to himself and gets a grip. “How long will you be gone for?”
“When I’m ready...if it’s a few weeks or months...maybe even a year.” You melt into a sheepish smile. “Thank you, Jin. I don’t know what I would do without you. You’ve helped me so much. I-”
“It’s the least I could do.” He means it with all his heart, “I’m just happy that you’re happy.”
It happens before he can realize. It happens before he can stop it. It happens when you bid him a sweet farewell.
The scent of the flowers are still lingering in the air. Your silly smile is imprinted into his mind. He gazes at your backside when you walk out the door...
Then it happens- Jin’s heart skips a beat.
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If you make a boy laugh, He likes you. But if you make a boy cry, He loves you.
Bahut gurur tha sbko apni daulat pe.. zara sa zameen kya hili sb aukat me aa gye..
I told my parents I had my eye on a bike for my birthday. They told me to keep my eye on it because my arse won’t be on it.
Behind every successful man is a surprised woman..!!
Train your mind to see good in everything…
In my house I’m the boss, my wife is just the decision maker…!
Hey there Whatsapp is using me…
Don’t compare yourself with anyone in this world… if u do so, u are insulting yourself…
Create your own visual style… let it be unique for yourself and yet identifiable for others.
Beauty Fades After A Time, But Personality Is Forever!
No matter how strong of a person you are, there’s always someone who can make you weak.
If a hug tells you how much I love u, I would hold you in my arms forever.
Finding friends that have the same mental disorder as you.
It can take me anywhere between 0.02 seconds and 3 days to reply to a text.
Sometimes it is painful to see that the people most appreciate is a false.
Girls with open messy hair, chubby cheeks, a dimple and spectacles.. Aww you look so cute.!
Opportunity tends to knock once, then it’s gone…temptation, however, likes to stand there and lean on the damn doorbell !
Make your nature simple, the time will not be wasted.
Hope is the power that gives a person the confidence to step out and try…..
Alone doesn’t mean lonely, lonely doesn’t have to be alone.
Beauty is power, a smile is its sword..
We all need mirrors to remind ourselves who we are.
Things r beautiful if u love them.
If I could be anything, l would be ur tear, so l could be born in ur eye, live down ur cheek and die on ur lips…
You say it best when you say nothing at all!!
Sometimes, i want to meet myself from someone else’s point of view!
Shit happens. Everyday. To everyone. The difference is in how people deal with it.
Maturity is not when we start speaking big things. It is when we start understanding small things.
Sometimes I’ts better To be Alone.. Nobody Can Hurt You!
God is really creative, I mean.. just look at me!
Last seen 1980!
Thinking holds what you feel, feeling drives what we think.
A friendship that can end never really began !
I dont have a lot of friends, I just know a lot of people.
A friend is someone who knows all abt u and accept u as u are.
Right or Wrong doesn’t ‎exist! When u have a ‎CONFIDENCE.
Life is Just a Journey.
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Be bold to own your mistakes in Life, accept your faults and improve your personality.
I speak for what i see, I stand for what I Beileve. I strive for what i want.
When u love someone, even though they hurt u nd break your heart, you still love them with all the little pieces!!
World is small and life is short.. Spread smiles and share peace.
People who tolerate me on the daily basis! are real heroes in my eye.
Life goes on with or without you!
I hate fake people. You know what I’m talking about. Mannequins.
I am the circle, and the circle is me.
24 Hours Online!
Classic book is a book which people praise, but do not read.
Cheer up, tomorrow will be a better day, just believe!
It might take awhile, but eventually you’re going to find the good in goodbye.
When the past calls, let it go to voicemail.. it’s got nothing new to say.
Play the moments. Pause the memories. Stop the pain. Rewind the happiness.
Romantic are people that had never seen the other side of the things.
The Ones Who Are Crazy Enough To Think That They Can Change The World Are The Ones Who Do.
Love is not possible without sacrifice, and sacrifice is not possible without love.
Love is when u have seen the best and the worst of sam1,yet u still love them for what they have..
True love doesan’t have a happy ending. It has NO ending.
Call me crazy, but I’m madly in love with you and this won’t go away for a while, so get use to it..
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Sometimes you have to act like you don’t care, even when you do.
You have no idea how much l like you. How much you make me smile, how much l love talking to you, or how much l wish you were here.
Every problem comes with solution, but my GF don’t have.
Life is too short. Don’t waste it reading my status.
Give thanks for a little and you will find a lot.
What is known in the heart doesn’t always need to be uttered by Mouth.
Don’t feel special. Some people keep your number in phone list just not to answer your call.
After all we all are stories in the end.
Sometimes the person you trust most is the one who trust you the least.
Go for someone who is not only proud to have you but will also take every risk just to be with you.
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Some People Change Your Life, Then Leave Without Explanation !!
The most eloquent silence, that of two mouths meeting in a kiss.
Play the moments. Pause the memories. Stop the pain. Rewind the happiness.
I Miss you dearly my heart aches, My head is lost, I really miss you.
The Ones Who Are Crazy Enough To Think That They Can Change The World Are The Ones Who Do.
Romantice are people that had never seen the other side of the things.
I think I might be falling for you. I love who you are and every little thing you do.
Life doesn’t get easier u get stronger.
Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.
Stop saying I wish start saying I will.
Love yourself love your day love your life.
Don’t let a bad day make u feel u have a bad life.
I’ve got nothing to bo today but smile.
Life is to short to remove USB slowly.
Nobody can teach me who I am.
It doesn’t have to be perfect to be beautiful.
Sometimes it’s not about missing someone. its wondering if they’re missing you
You know how you don’t want to miss them, but you want them to miss you
Absence makes the heart grow fonder
Love is missing someone whenever you’re apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you’re close in heart.
If we evolved from monkeys, why are there still monkeys?
Dont talk if you dont have any good thing to say
A female can be your best friend and worst enemy. It all depends on how you treat her.
Remember, You are unique, but then again so is everyone else in this world.
Sometimes the right one for you is the one who was there the whole time.
If they can’t swallow facts, let them eat fiction.
I think of you in colours that don’t exist.
Guys who run girl’s account on Facebook are the ones who secretly buy barbie and comb its hair.
Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.
Mujhe teri mohabbat ko sahara mil gaya hota.. agar tufan nahi aata kinara mil gaya hota…
Pluviophile: a lover of rain, someone who finds joy and peace of mind during rainy days.
Aarju honi chahiye dill me kise ko yad karne ki.. Lamhe toh apne ap he miljate he dost
Baharo phool barshao mera mehboob aya hain..
Saw a Chinese kid and a black kid wave to each other today. It gave me hope…for another Rush Hour movie…
They say what goes around comes around, passed a packet of chips and never came back.
Duniya main sirf 2 Chize Mashoor Hai, tere bhai ka Style, aur teri bhabhi ki smile.
Thanks to the words ‘dude’ ‘bro’ and ‘man’ I haven’t said my best friends name in 10 years.
Tu hi ye mujhko bata de.. chahu main ya na..
Ye zami ruk jaye, Ye aasma tam jaye, Jab tere chara samn aaye.
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