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#like. they're talking about me i think - i am a conscientious objector when it comes to euthanasia
rowenabean · 27 days
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#just saw a post that was like 'if you have religious or moral objections that stop you from providing certain types of medical care maybe#you shouldn't work in healthcare' (paraphrased) and...#what a way to look at the world tbh#like. they're talking about me i think - i am a conscientious objector when it comes to euthanasia#(which granted has come up exactly twice and both cases in a theoretical capacity only this is not a frequent request to me)#and... i am also a good doctor#last week i told someone that her weight doesn't matter to her health with receipts to prove it and she cried#no one had ever told her that before#and that was something that came from me specifically. that was something i would not trust all of the GPs in my practice - a practice of#excellent and compassionate GPs! - to say#i am verifiably doing good in my job that is coming from specifically who i am as a person#i cannot put that down when it comes to issues i care deeply about#fundamentally the fact that i cannot put it down is what makes me a good doctor#i think that's what i'm trying to get at#the reason that i do well by my patients is that i practice out of my values and my ethics#if i did not stand on that core i would not stand at all#so you can't have it both ways. you can't have engaged and active and compassionate healthcare providers without sometimes those engaged an#active providers having things they do not feel comfortable doing#and it is to everyone's service if they are up front about it and do not try to hide (i am suspicious of people who try to hide this)#i am literally figuring this all out as i type hence the v long tag ramble and also being nowhere near the post that started this train#(honestly in med school we talked so much about ethics as like. abortion! euthanasia! trans rights! and the ethics in practice is the littl#things. do you apologise when you mess up. how do you manage a consult with your patient with paranoid dementia and her child in the same#room at one time - or one by one bc that's fraught too. (that one's on top i had one of those today.) how do you act with grace when#you're a bit stressed and your patient is a bit stressed and the nurse wants to add five more things to your book. the day to day ethics is#SUCH a bigger thing when you come to actual practice.)#this is obviously entirely about me and leans on the fact that i largely do think i am doing a good job i am really feeling my own way#to a Thought. but i think to a certain extent it is generalisable
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The Beginning of Everything
Ch. 19: The Monaxi Reality Show
Fandom: Doctor Who
Pairing: Female OC x 10th Doctor
(OC Renata’s Face claim: Marjorie de Sousa) (Gabby’s face claim: Victoria Moroles)
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DISCLAIMER: This chapter’s plotline is from Doctor Who’s comic stories. Most of the dialogue is directly written from the comic. The plot is NOT mine.
Chapter Summary: The Doctor discovers who the Sky Hunters really are and he, along with Renata and everyone else, have to put up the fight of their lives in order to end the Monaxi's little horror show.
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Gabby felt like her head was spinning. Her kidnappers - or saviors, it was still in the air - were talking at the same time, one voice over the other, so she didn't really know where to interrupt to make her case. She was grateful that one of them - the only human-looking one - had stopped the team from killing her on the spot but now they were all arguing with each other. Actually, on some level it was mind of funny because they started out debating what to do with her and somehow ended up arguing with each other over other things.
"Only you were stupid enough to get caught by them too!"
"Come on! Let's just fry her already!"
"Be quiet! Everyone, I'm trying to think!"
Gabby hadn't even gotten up from where the ship's force-field placed her after being brought into the ship. She was afraid that if she moved even an inch, everyone would shoot her. You can't just sit there and let your friends die! She exhaled deeply. She really couldn't just sit there. Her eyes flickered to the human man who seemed to be taking the reigns of the team. He could be her only salvation right now.
"Y-you," she found her opportunity to speak once the Earth man shut the other members up. "You're a human like me, right?"
The man furrowed his eyebrows at her. She at least didn't seem like he wanted to kill her, unlike the others, which gave Gabby hope that this was the right way to go.
"Yes, I am," he answered in a gruff tone.
"So am I!" Gabby exclaimed and pulled herself up to her feet. "If you can scan for a false bio signature, you should be able to pinpoint the origin of my DNA. You'll find I'm a native too!"
One of the members - a blue alien creature with a tiny head, a squared body and fat legs - scanned her with a circular object on its chest. "She's right," it declared a few seconds later. It brought up one of its skinny (almost tentacle-like) arms to the Earth man. It's hand was a screen that showed the results of the test on Gabby. "She's telling the truth boss, except there's an anomaly. Her DNA is genetically distinct. A throw forward, like she's from another time zone."
Gabby gulped. "I can...I can explain that…"
"What, you're a tourist from the future? That's even worse!" a bald, humanoid man with two sets of eyes growled. Gabby did not like his buff arms holding a high tech gun at her.
"And impossible," added a tall, green humanoid women with long, like hair.
"Not at all," went a pine tree-looking alien. "It's just not allowed. Generally speaking, anyway. I have seen future days…"
"Shut up, all of you!" the Earth man ordered again. "This data says you're from the world's future, supposing that were even possible," he looked at Gabby. "Why are you here?"
Gabby didn't answer straight away because she was a little bit distracted with the blue alien's tentacles floating around her. "Umm...to stop the Sky - I mean the Monaxi?" She had no idea what the 'Monaxi' were but she figured it was the name of the creatures behind the 'Sky hunters'. "That's what the Doctor and Renata do. They help. We help."
"What? You're conscientious objectors? I hate them almost as much as I hate tourists," the buff alien huffed.
"Last time some well-meaning protesters were captured by the Monaxi," the woman said. "They got themselves splattered across three valleys."
Gabby's eyes widened.
"Right. That's not what's needed here, future girl," the pine tree alien said.
"We are one cell amongst many who resist the Monaxi," the Earth man explained.
"They're invading," Gabby nodded. That much she could conclude on her own based on what she'd already seen.
"No, they're enslavers. They use this area's people and many others as a stock cupboard. Or pantry, based on whom they're selling them to."
Oh, this is bad, Gabby gulped.
~0~
"It's hot," Donna concluded almost as soon as she was conscious.
The Doctor was already standing up and gazing about. Wherever they were it was very different from the woods. For starters, Donna was right. It was blazing hot. They were in a desert that even included the traditional three birds flying in the sky that one would usually see on t.v. There was a lake not so far away from where they were but that was pretty much it.
"Doctor, where are we?" Donna got up and looked about.
"Never mind that," Renata stood up fast, but doing that too fast left her wobbly on her legs for a bit. "We need to find Gabriella and fast. Who knows where she is or who took her."
"Meerox?"
The trio turned to see Munmeth calling to another trio from a distance.
"Doctor, I don't like this place," Renata told the man. None of them were really concerned with who Munmeth was talking to considering they looked like they were part of his clan or the River clan. She was more worried about Gabby and where she ended up. Of course she wasn't denying they weren't in enough danger themselves. Already they had been attacked earlier and were taken away by the nets only to be deposited where they were now.
"I may have an idea of who's playing with us," the Doctor said quietly so Donna wouldn't hear.
Renata looked at him with widened eyes. "Someone you know?" She didn't mean to sound accusatory, but that's how she sounded and for a moment the Doctor lowered his head. "Doctor, I-I didn't…" she sighed. "This isn't you. Whoever did this is at fault. And we're gonna find them."
"Munmeth, watch out!" Donna shouted and ran to yank the man back before one of the trio of his clan speared him to death.
"But I know them!" Munmeth was stunned that he'd nearly been killed by his own friends.
"Nobody's a friend here," the Doctor eyed the trio carefully.
Renata seized the spear that had nearly taken Munmeth and held it threateningly at the clan trio. "I don't know who's pulling your strings but you better stay the hell away from us."
"Munmeth, if we don't fight you, we'll be punished," the women from the trio answered.
"Oh," Renata straightened up a bit. "So they're real." She thought they might have been projections or basic technology but no, they were actual people.
"No we don't!" the Doctor snatched the spear from the Renata's hand and struck it into the air just as a huge bird - a pterodactyl - swooped over them. It came crashing down with sparks and its head rolling to the side.
"It's a robot," Donna caught the wires sticking out from the bird's neck. She flinched when the Doctor smashed its head with his foot. It was very aggressive and unlike him, but the situation called for it. "Now listen to me," the Doctor turned to the clan trio, "We don't have much time. This was not a bird. It was a camera." He pulled out his glasses to examine the bird. "It was the eyes of those who are truly watching you, stealing you from your homes, making you fight. We need to destroy as many of these cy-birds as we can."
"Who is this stranger?" a blonde man asked then eyed Renata and Donna.
"Who are you to tell us what to do?" asked the second man, a bald man.
"Seriously?" Renata groaned. "I really hate when they do this," she looked at the Doctor. "Humans can be very slow sometimes."
"Oi!" Donna elbowed her in the ribs.
"Quickly, we don't have much time," the Doctor pulled the spear from the ground again.
"Do as he says," Munmeth urged his people. "He is...the medicine man."
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"Gabby, I'm Effrid Blink and these are my associates," the Earth man was introducing himself to Gabby. The team was somewhat more amiable than before but the only one who really seemed to take an honest, friendly attitude towards Gabby was Effrid.
Gabby still put on her best, warmest smile as Effrid introduced her to each of the crew members.
"Mem-brain was liberated from a Monaxi circus. He can't remember his real name."
The buff alien in question only huffed and went to the computers along with the woman with them.
"Unta, a Jerdian, whose world has become considerably more warlike in response to the Monaxi threat…"
Gabby wiggled her fingers in a hello manner but neither alien in question seemed to care for it...except for Tony.
"I'm Tony, hi!" the blue-squared alien that had scanned her earlier waved one it's tentacles at her. It definitely cheered up Gabby a bit.
"Tony, as inscrutable as he is useful," Effrid seemed closer to smiling. "It was he who rescued me from Monaxi. The tender mercies long ago. I still don't know what's inside that plasma suit he wears, but I trust him with my life."
Gabby eyed Tony's exterior with newfound curiosity since his skin wasn't skin but a suit. "Nice to meet you all."
"If you're sticking around, girlie, make yourself useful," Unta said as she sat down in front of the computers like Mem-brain.
"It's really nice to meet you all," Gabby said rather fast as she had more pressing matters to get to. "Listen, my friends got taken away and I really need to find them."
"Guerilla tactics are best when dealing with the Monaxi," Effrid went to take the head chair of the controls.
"That way we were made a hazard for the relatively minor operation they have going here," Tony said.
"What do you mean?" Gabby neared the screens, wishing to God she had learned some basic alien language in the past but...alas, she had not. "I really need to find my friends."
"We keep them from decimating the population," Effrid looked back at the concerned Gabby. "That's about all we can do. Resources are stretched."
"Well...how long has the Monaxi been doing this?" Gabby asked.
"Too long," sighed Effrid. "Longer than I can remember."
"They're like a plague," Tony shook his tiny head. "We'd need an army to drive them back."
"No," Gabby said matter-of-factly. She immediately had the looks of Unta and Mem-brain. "You need Renata and the Doctor. Trust me."
~0~
The Doctor had led the group through the 'desert' and discovered many more cy-animals that contained cameras. They were being watched through everything it seemed.
"Are we clear on what we do, then?" the Doctor asked the group once they stopped by another lake for a quick rest and catch up. Munmeth's friends still seemed a bit unconvinced that the Doctor's plan was the way to go, but it was really the only plan they had that gave them a chance to survive. "Whatever happens, whatever you see, and no matter how terrifying it looks...stick to the plan." He reached for his sonic inside his coat and started examining the lake in front of them.
Renata noticed the worried looks from the others and assumed they still weren't very trusting of their technology. "It's really alright," she assured them. "It's just a sonic...which...you don't really understand either…"
"As I suspected - hard light synthetics," the Doctor read off his sonic.
Donna crossed her arms and gave the man a pointed look. "And for those of us who don't speak 'Doctor'?" she then glanced at Renata but the Time Lady put her hands up.
"Don't look at me, I barely know what he's talking about sometimes."
The Doctor rolled his eyes at their conversation. "I meant it's holographic. It can be disrupted. As can anything else on similar wavelengths."
Donna practically glared at him. "I still don't know what the hell you mean!"
"Nothing here is real," the Doctor lowered his sonic with a heavy sigh.
"Doctor…" Renata had caught something dark forming across the lake. She took a few steps forwards, letting the water hit her ankles, but she didn't seem to mind getting wet. "What's that?" she pointed up ahead.
Sand swirled as if there was a sandstorm coming. Something black was forming in the middle of it and it looked to be huge.
"Positions people!" the Doctor immediately shouted. "Remember to wait for my signal!"
Donna was the first to rush away but she pulled Munmeth with her, who then brought along the rest.
"Renée, you too," the Doctor reminded but Renata shook her head.
"I want to know who the hell created all this and took Gabriella from us," she said with a deep scowl across her face. Her eyes narrowed as the creature from the sandstorm finally emerged but there was an immediate confusion once she saw its squid figure. "I'm sorry-" she blinked, "-are we under the sea?"
"I should've recognized all the trademark signs of oppression," the Doctor frowned. "A whole holographic coliseum to test out the qualities of those they enslave."
"I must have missed that class," Renata mumbled. She studied the bright orange squid coming towards them on its dozens of long tentacles. Its top part resembled a circular spaceship but it was still bright orange with only a streak of silver at its middle.
"The energy nets, indiscriminate use of tractor beams directly upon living matter, dumping unwanted captives from great heights...the needless cruelty…" the Doctor reached for Renata's hand, gripping it tight as soon as he held her. "Everyone, now!" He dove to the ground, pulling Renata with him, and allowed for a perfect target that the others could get.
Everyone threw piles of sand at the squid, delaying its arrival to their side of the lake. The Doctor then aimed his sonic at the squid and activated it. The squid's orange and silver top seemed to rise a bit and revealed a monster-like head underneath complete with classic horror, sharp teeth and dozens of eyes.
"What is that, Doctor!?" Donna watched the squid struggle to stay on its tentacles thanks to the sonic.
"A species of traders that prey on less advanced lifeforms and sells them to high civilizations," the Doctor said. "An elusive race known to be that rare thing, a composite of physical matter and energy. And if I am recalling correctly, you also pipe the gladiatorial spectacle from these coliseums back to your homeships. Munmeth, Kria, now!"
Munmeth and Kria came running with a huge, fashioned net between them. Between them and Renata, they threw the net over the squid and essentially knocked it to its side. The Doctor's sonic was messing with the squid's tech on its top.
"Pitiful little...bipeds…" the squid groaned and slowly picked itself up again, tossing the net to the side.
"Oh, it talks," Donna made a gesture as if she should've known it would've talked.
"Good," Renata glared at it. "So it can tell us where the hell we are and where the hell Gabriella is."
"You'll regret causing damage and delay," the squid warned.
"Try me," Renata was quick to say despite not having much to defend herself with.
"Renée, just stay back!" the Doctor exclaimed as he kicked up the energy from his sonic.
"I may not have a sonic but I do have my ways," Renata scowled.
"Yeah, well, as much as I'm very curious how your balled fists are going to solve this...let me just take care of it!" the Doctor put himself in front of her and used every last bit of energy to finally put the creature down.
The squid collapsed on its own tentacles and as it went down, the orange faded from its skin and left it with a rotten, green color.
"Is it...dead?" asked Donna made sure to stay a few feet away from them just in case.
"I ruptured his energy carapace," the Doctor shrugged as he tucked his sonic back into his pocket. "I popped him...but he'll recover eventually."
"I need him to talk now," Renata snapped, although not directly at him. She was just upset that so far they hadn't gotten any clue of where they were and they were no closer to finding Gabby either.
"Renée, we're dealing with the Monaxi," the Doctor told her and watched her blink in realization. "They might be vicious but maybe they aren't as tough as they look."
"How could I have missed what they were?" Renata brought a hand to her forehead and rubbed hard circles over her skin.
"It's impossible to remember every single race we learned about…"
"You don't forget."
"I'm not normal."
That made Renata smile for a moment. Of course, the Monaxi finally spoke up and ruined their moment.
"How could a stupid local biped like you know that we are Monaxi?"
"You actually can't tell the difference between any of us, can you?" snapped the Doctor. "We're all just two-legged insects to you, huh!? Just raw material to be enslaved or slaughtered."
"It's not like you matter."
Renata actually gasped out of pure offence. "This is why I don't like travelling sometimes," she looked at the Doctor. "Because every once in a while, you meet creatures like these."
"It's a good thing we're not just any travelers," the Doctor looked directly at the Monaxi. "Constellation of Kasterberous ring a bell?"
It definitely did. "Not possible…"
Renata actually wanted to grab the Doctor's arm when he started walking towards the Monaxi. She didn't want him anywhere near the creature who still had possession of its dozen tentacles.
"Your psi-control maintaining the illusion of this place is weak," the Doctor spat. "I will ask you this only once: bring down this holographic lieso we can see where we really are."
"If you insist," the Monaxi surprisingly said.
The area around the group began to glow for a minute then died a few seconds to reveal a coliseum and they were right in the middle of it.
"What are these strange caves?" Munmeth was wide-eyed at the structure around them. Glass walls lined the circular wall on each level where there were supposed to be benches.
"They're not caves," Renata moved towards one glass wall. Now it was the Doctor who wanted to keep her close. "They're...cages…"
"What?" Munmeth looked at her.
"Imagine a net for people, a net that you can't get out of," Renata stopped walking and turned sideways to meet the man's gaze. "Everyone who has been taken is in here, in these walls…"
Munmeth didn't seem to believe it at first but once he heard the cry of his daughter, who was stuck behind one of the glass walls, it all seemed to make sense. He rushed for his daughter but came crashing into the glass instead. "Doctor, you must help me! Muthmunna!" he banged against the glass.
"I don't suppose there's a button or something we can push?" Donna quietly asked Renata.
Renata shot a glare at the Monaxi that'd brought them here. "Not unless it's feeling generous."
The Doctor shared the glare on the creature. "Drop the cage shields, Monaxi," he spat the name out.
The Monaxi's dozen eyes glowed a bright red. "I can't do that."
"Do it or I'll do worse than give your energy sac a puncture," the Doctor whipped out his sonic again and threatened the Monaxi with it.
"You misunderstand me. I am unable to. I don't have the etheric key. Only our leader possesses that."
And just as it finished explaining, something a deep orange light burst from its top. The Doctor just barely jumped out of the way when it exploded. He landed face first but looked up in time to see an even bigger Monaxi floating in the air.
"You'd risk taking the life of one of your own just to be sure of shooting me in the back!? You must be really scared!"
"I'm scared for you - get over here!" Renata practically hissed at him from her spot. She felt completely useless being unable to remember anything about the stupid creatures. She admitted there were a few times where she wouldn't pay attention in school, and much more - ironically - when she spent a lot of her time with a young Doctor.
"Gallifreyans. I know what you are," the larger Monaxi remarked. "I am Iktra. My colleague here, Vozmarth, is young, ambitious, inexperienced and foolish. He never was good for much and now he's lived up to his promise."
"It's his fault you fired him?" the Doctor almost laughed. "That's harsh even by Monaxi standards."
"You dare judge me, Time Lord?" the Monaxi lowered its body a bit as if to look the Doctor face-to-face. "In ancient times, of all the races we traded with, yours were the cruelest...the most demanding. Your kind had the most unrelenting of appetites, you were the most terrifying in your ambivalence. You use your time scoops to populate your own coliseums, your death zone, but you needed the likes of us too. You demanded gladiators for your entertainment and we supplied them."
"At least not all of us were awful," Renata called out, gaining his attention whether or not the Doctor wanted it. "We may have started out that way but some of us learned and evolved. I don't think the same applies to your people."
"At least my people are alive."
Renata's face fell flat.
"Word gets around, Time Lords. You'd have to go back to primeval times to find any of your kind outside the time lock."
"Now!" Donna suddenly shouted and when Renata and the Doctor looked back to see Donna leading the others with the huge net from earlier. They threw it over the Monaxi once again.
"You filthy bipeds!" the Monaxi shook against the net. "You cannot hold a Monaxi! I'll kill you all!"
But this time they were ready for him. One man jumped with the net to stand on top of the Monaxi and secure the net. Donna pulled hard and had the others follow her lead.
Renata actually smiled at the efforts. "It's moments like these where I can see why you appreciate the humans so much," she told the Doctor. He gave her a side-glance that encompassed his surprise at her words, but also a newfound fondness for her. He'd been getting those lately, actually.
"Use that sonic of yours to disrupt his energy carapace as well," she suddenly instructed. "If this Monaxi is the leader then by de-activating his energy carapace…"
"...we can essentially de-activate the others," the Doctor finished with a huge grin. "Renée, you're a genius!"
"I...wouldn't go that far," Renata made a face.
The Doctor didn't care for that statement. He thought she was incredibly smart, but that was a conversation for another time. "Keep him steady!" He told the others and hurried to take his sonic out again.
"We're...trying!" Donna struggled with her end of the net so Renata ran to help her.
The Monaxi shook violently to rid itself of the net. "You can't hold me!"
"Monaxi, cease all hostile actions immediately!" rang a loud voice. For a moment, the Monaxi stopped and it gave the Doctor the perfect chance to de-activate.
Once more his sonic lit up when it took aim against the Monaxi. Even as it shook, its orange color began to glow to eventually fade away just like before. "Cranking up the levels!" the Doctor was happy to report despite the terrible struggle he was now facing as well.
"Monaxi, surrender now!" rang the same voice from before.
"Where's that coming from!?" Donna wildly looked around in case they would also be attacked from something else.
Renata was the first to see a huge ship - no, rocketship. She gasped and unintentionally let go of her part of the net. "It's the ship that took Gabriella!"
Donna nearly fell back from when Renata let go of the net. "Would you be so kind to keep helping!"
"Sorry!" Renata quickly reached for her part again. "But that's the ship! We have to get Gabriella back!"
"Monaxi! Cease or we'll slice you in half!"
"I'd rather not go anywhere near that thing!" Donna cried as soon as she'd heard the threat. "If it shoots it'll hurt us too!"
Renata's eyes widened. "Good point! Everyone!" she yelled to those aiding them. "Get away from the Monaxi!" she made the gesture for them to follow her. "Doctor, you too!"
"Just a bit more!" the Doctor kept a steady aim on the Monaxi. "I've almost drained it!"
A few seconds later came the promise of a blast that sliced the Monaxi in half. The force threw everyone on the ground.
"Doctor!?" Renata was quick to call when she raised her head off the ground.
"I'm here, I'm here!" he was shaking his head to get rid of some straggling sand. "And whoever just attacked did help with de-activating the energy sources, so...I guess we should thank them?"
Renata discarded his confusion and gazed up at the huge ship in the sky. "We need to get Gabriella back."
But before they could even think of a plan, the ship took position to land. It lowered itself to the ground and opened its cargo door. A few seconds later, a few aliens, plus two humans, emerged from it.
"Renata! Doctor! Donna!" Gabby came running up to the trio.
"Gabriella, thank goodness you're alright!" Renata hugged the girl tightly. "You are alright...right?"
Gabby laughed as she pulled away. "Yes. They-" she pointed over her shoulder to the team she was with, most of which were now helping get the prisoners out of their glass cages, "-are rebellion fighters."
"Lucky for you, then," Donna crossed her arms. "Meanwhile, we were stuck fighting for a reality show."
"Donna," the Doctor shook his head at the poor comparison.
"That's what it was!"
Gabby chuckled.
~0~
Once Effrid had rounded the last of the Monaxi still straggling about, the Doctor felt it was right to leave. They had also helped Munmeth and his people into Effrid's ship so that they could be returned home.
"What about the other Monaxi?" Gabby asked the trio once they neared the TARDIS. "Would they come here to investigate why all their people disappeared?"
"Nah," the Doctor didn't hesitate to shake his head. "Monaxi always want things easy so I've rigged up a warning beacon. If more come this way, they'll know that this world is defended by us." He smiled specifically at Renata, but the woman only laughed.
"Oh please, like you said, what am I going to do with my balled fists?" she raised her two fists and tilted her head at them. "Not much, I think." She chuckled again and went inside the TARDIS first.
The Doctor seemed to think of something that kept him lingering outside even when Gabby and Donna went inside, something that brought out a big smile from him.
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