#literally the only gifs of him in the gif search are of that time Rue flirted with him lol

[mediocre-writerr]

you belong with me [cassie howard]

cassie howard x fem reader

requested: Hey! Can I request a f! reader x Cassie Howard fic where the reader is in love with Cassie, but it's like a slow burn happy holidays! xx

key: italics stand for rue’s voiceover! enjoy

*not my gif*

Y/N Y/L/N and Cassie Howard have been best friends since they were little. Y/N was always there for Cassie during her whole childhood. Watching her from the sidelines as her figure skating became more and more incredible. 

“Y/N! When are you gonna get off your lazy bum and join us?” Cassie’s dad asks during one of their many ice skating practice sessions. 

You were taken back by surprise and you looked towards Cassie who was giving you her best pouty lips and eyes, “Oh okay.” 

You strapped on the ice skates that the Howard family bought you for your 10th birthday. A gift you rarely used. But was still grateful for nevertheless. 

Back before your Cassie started getting into ice skating your family was big about hockey. So you knew the in’s and out’s of ice skating, but you weren’t good at doing cool tricks. 

“Y/N, you’re a natural!” Cassie says as you start skating towards her. 

And it’s like she jinxed you or something because you started slipping. Flailing your hands up in the air. But she caught you and the two of you just stared at each other smiling coyly. 

Her lips were inches away from yours. But her dad cleared her throat, looking at the two of you with a small smirk on his face. 

Y/N and Cassie were inseparable, nothing seemed to ever get in between them. Lexi always gave Y/N looks and have conversations where she tried to make her think that it was something more than just a friendship, but she was easy to laugh off or ignore. 

Lexi thought of Y/N as a second sister growing up together and having Y/N be over all the time. So when she saw the way Y/N looked at her older sister she couldn’t help but want to protect her. 

She didn’t want you to get hurt, but how could Cassie ever hurt Y/N?

Y/N loved Cassie more than a friend. There was never a specific moment when Y/N found out she liked Cassie. It was everything about her, all of the moments leading up to since they were young kids.

Much to her disappoint, Cassie’s underlying daddy issues made her attached to boys in more ways than anyone could ever possibly. She fell in love too fast and dare I say it, was too naive. 

Cassie wanted to be loved and never wanted to be alone. She wanted all the boys no matter how stupid, sweet, or mean they were. And that led to many nights of crying in Y/N’s arms about some boy who leaked her nudes or made a sex tape or broke her heart.

“Y/N?” she whispers over the phone, her voice already cracking.

You shot up from laying down on your bed and instantly woke up at the sound of your first love crying, “Hey is everything okay?” 

“No. I can’t. Someone made a sex tape of me and leaked it and I just really need you.” she whispers, trying to get all of the words out. 

“I’ll be there in five.” 

Luckily for the two of you, you didn't live far. And before you knew it you were climbing in her bedroom window. 

She instantly pulled you into a hug and you wrapped your arms around her waist. Placing a hand on the back of her head to pull her close. You started rubbing the back of her head, threading your fingers through her hair. 

“It’s gonna be okay.” I whisper, “I’m here now. You’re gonna be okay.” 

Y/N always protected Cassie. Ever since the first pictures of her nudes were leaked she was there to let her cry. Her first sex tape was leaked, Y/N was there. A boy broke her heart, Y/N was there to pick up the pieces to put her back together.

Y/N hoped that one day she wouldn’t feel this way anymore. Or one day Cassie would realize that she was there all along. But it never happened. And it seemed like it would never happen when Cassie started dating McKay.

Y/N insisted she wasn’t jealous, but she also insisted she wasn’t jealous about all of Cassie’s suitors.

“McKay is a good guy Y/N!” Cassie yells. 

The two of you were having yet another argument. And you weren’t angry at her or at McKay, you were just tired. So fucking tired. 

“What’s wrong, Y/N?” Cassie asked, “This is your third snide comment this week about McKay this week and it’s only 10 am on a Monday!” 

“I’m sorry for being bitter. I’m just tired.” you whisper. 

Lexi gave you a sympathetic smile and look. And you just smiled back softly. 

See you weren’t jealous. That would involve anger and you weren’t angry. You didn’t hate McKay. 

Sure, there were thing that he did that was questionable at best, but he was wasn’t the worst out of all of Cassie’s boyfriends. 

Even though your happiness was slowly dwindling away each time you saw them at a party. Or each time she canceled plans to go hang out with him instead of you. Or each time you saw them kiss. 

Even though all of it was fading away in you. She didn’t deserve to lose anything when she was so happy. So you tried to stay the same for her and not act any differently. 

Lexi had been a good friend to Y/N and did her best to try and pull her out of it. The annual carnival was coming up and it used to be a tradition for the three girls to go together, but Cassie was busy with McKay...again. 

The two of you ran into McKay on the way to the Ferris Wheel. Much to both of your surprise you didn’t find Cassie next to him, “Where’s Cassie?” Lexi asked.

“Oh I don’t know we called it a night a couple hours ago.” he said with a shrug before going back to Nate and Mr. Jacobs.

Both of you looked at each other and immediately knew something was up. Agreeing to split up both of you searched the carnival in chance to find her. 

That’s when you saw her going around the carrousel with Daniel. She was grinding against the pole of the horse. And Daniel looked like he was getting turned on by it.

But there was something about her that was off. She looked high. You were gonna leave, but you decided to wait for the ride to stop. Before ultimately taking her home, you didn’t want some asshole like Daniel to take advantage of her in the state she was in. 

As soon as the ride stopped you hopped the fence that separated the line to get to her. Despite all the yelling from the person who controls the ride you made your way to Cassie.

“Hey Cassie. How about we get you out of here, okay?” you ask.

“Y/N! I didn’t know you were here.” she slurs and you nod smiling.

“I’m right here.” you whisper to her, unbuckling her seatbelt and lifting her off.

Daniel scoffed, “What the fuck Y/L/N?! We were in the middle of something!” he yelled annoyed.

“Not anymore.” you reply. 

You guided her towards the exit, but saw that she was stumbling and it was hard for her to walk. So you did what you thought was best and picked her up bridal style. 

Cassie wrapped her arms around your neck and nestled into your chest, “Can you believe McKay said to people we weren’t dating? We were just chilling. He literally told me that he loved me yesterday.” she says angrily.

“I’m sorry love. You don’t deserve that.” you whisper back as you saw Lexi, Jules, and Rue running towards the two of you.

Lexi looked at her sister frantically, “Is she okay? Do you need help? I can get her for you.

“Lex take a breath,” you whisper and she nods taking a deep breath, “She’s okay, she just looks a little high off of something. But I got her.” 

Lexi nods and we all get into Cassie’s car. Jules and Rue decided to stay at the carnival a little longer, but we thought it was best if we got her home. 

Cassie passed out across your lap as you just ran your fingers through her hair. Staring at the beautiful girl in front of you. 

“I wish she could see that you were always there for her. She needs someone like you in her life.” Lex whispers looking at you through the rearview mirror. 

But the thing is Cassie never noticed. As much as she would hate to agree with me, she took Y/N for granted most of the time. She just assumed that her best friend since basically birth would always be there for her.

She learned that the hard way.

You were more tired than usual as you sat on the couch of McKay’s house. You were at one of his infamous parties seated next to Lexi, Rue, and Jules. 

Lexi and Rue begged you to come and you agreed without hesitation. But then you realized that you would have to see them dancing close to one another, kissing, and just being with each other. 

The other three girls proceeded in conversation, but you were too tired to contribute. So despite all of the loud music and drunk people, you laid your head on Lexi’s shoulder trying your hardest to just shut everything out for a few minutes. 

And you were about to shut everything out when you heard your name being slurred, “Y/N, what’s wrong?” 

You opened your eyes a little, not wanting to leave the comfortable spot you found on Lexi’s shoulder.

“It’s nothing, Cassie, really. I just have a headache.” you whisper, trying your best to smile at her.

“Why are you lying to me?” she asks, crossing her arms over her chest.

Of course she knew when you were lying, 

“Just let it go, please.” you pleaded with her.

You didn’t want all of this to come out now. Not when she was tipsy. Not when all of your friends and a bunch of random strangers were around to hear.

“No Y/N! I can’t! It’s like you’ve been falling into this pit of sadness for I don’t even know how many months now! I just want to know what happened. You’re supposed to trust me. I trust you. So why can’t you trust me?” she whispered sadly.

“3 months.” I whisper simply.

“What?” she asks.

And it was all coming out right now. Despite all your wishes and prayers to not to.

“I’ve been falling into a pit of sadness for three months. Ever since you started falling for McKay.” you whisper and it looks like the wheels are turning in her head, “I can’t trust you because I’m in love with you!” 

You finally yell out, letting all the feelings that you’ve had pent up to finally come out. Lexi squeezed your hand lightly to let you know that she’ll be right here.

“What?” Cassie asks, her mouth open agape as she just stared.

“I always have been! And now it’s too late. I’m not angry with you and I don’t hate McKay. I’m just tired. I’m tired of feeling like I’m just there now when everything goes wrong in your life. When you and McKay fight or when you need someone to pick you up when you’re drunk. I’ve always been there for you and I’m tired of it not being enough.” and with that you got up and you left. 

She didn’t try chasing after you. No one did. They all knew you needed your time and your space to regroup. 

And just like that the non-related conjoined twins were separated. Neither of them talked or hung out. The only time they would see each other is passing in the hallway exchanging small smiles.

It was weird for the both of them. No small study sessions or move nights. Just them alone. 

Cassie didn’t like not having Y/N there, but every time Y/N tried talking to her she would just avoid her.

During the time Y/N was gone she realized that Y/N was right. Lexi gave her a stern talking to. Lexi’s talk was basically her singing that one Taylor Swift song.

You know the one that goes like...

Dreaming about the day where you wake up and find that what you’re looking for has been here the whole time. Then something about short skirts and t-shirts, I don’t fucking know.

And that’s when Cassie knew. Cassie Howard was in love with Y/N Y/L/N.

Then the infamous night happened, where everything came pouring out...literally. It was raining outside. 

Your phone buzzed with a text and your heart stopped at the name that popped up onto your phone. 

With a text that read meet me outside. You looked outside your window and saw the raindrops that stained your window pane. And made out the small figure that is the blonde girl. 

You grabbed a hoodie from your closet before running downstairs and to the middle of the street.

“Cassie! What are you doing? It is pouring!” you yell the hood covering your head.

You stepped closer to her throwing the hoodie you grabbed from your closet over her head. She was standing there wearing nothing, but a long sleeve shirt and jeans. 

“You still care about me?” she asks barely above a whisper voice.

You let out a sigh, “Just because we stopped talking doesn’t mean I stopped caring.” 

Out of nowhere Cassie pulled you closer to her by the waist placing her lips on yours. You didn’t kiss back at first, but it didn’t take you long to kiss her back. Your two lips moving in perfect motion, you only pulled away when you felt like you were gonna pass out.

“I love you. I always have and I’m sorry I took you for granted. And I’m sorry I didn’t see that you were right in front of me all along. I love you. I am so sorry-” she was about to go on, but you cut her off with a quicker kiss.

She smiles into the kiss before pulling away, “I love you so much, but this was very dramatic.” you whisper with a smile that matched Cassie’s.

She giggled lightly before pecking your nose.

[renegaedarchived]

hi sexys it is i, gemma ( s/h, 21+ ), bringing u the fuckboy ur mother warned u ab, park jaehyun!! he’s a fallen national soccer player who escaped to maehwa after a match fixing scandal ( all true teehee ) bc he’s sick of the bad press n dirty looks from ppl in seoul 😘 as always, u can find more info of him under the cut ( j a caution that it is the length of an essay or ten.. .. . . ) but pls LIKE this post to plot! im also available on d*scord so lmk if u want it!!

( s/n: im also the mun for rue @blvelagoon​​ ( intro inc ) so if u wanna plot w her pls lmk!! )

aries sun / gemini moon / leo rising

if u recognise him no u don’t

only child of some nondescript middle class family n honestly he was cruising thru life w little complaints!! up until the age of 4 when his parents get into a fatal car crash courtesy of some drunk truck driver, n suddenly the police is dropping his ass off @ his grandma’s home in rural chuncheon,, cursed to livin life Below the poverty line

was a v loud n rambunctious kid growing up so living w his grandma was a huge change of pace bc she had a speech disability,, but more than that she raised him in a very Asian Grandma way aka smacking him w a sandal when he was misbehaving but other than that she didn’t communicate or outwardly show him love all too much,, like he knows she loves him but uhhh emotional constipation yk

fun fact grandma made do by selling nuts @ the wet market and the way he bonded w her was by helping her crack n pack those nuts every evening!!

he was also a rlly bad kid like,, alw caught stealing,, alw caught in places he Definitely shouldn’t be,, F student on good days : ) n ig at some point when his grandma has to pick him up from the police station for the nth time, he begins to feel Real guilty for everything he’s puttin her thru like the poor woman does not deserve this shit

so he's resolved to making a change!! promises himself that he’s gonna get both him n his grandma outta this poverty!! n yes he sucks w education but jaehyun’s strongest talent is that he’s hella good at soccer!! he alw played w the neighbourhood kids at some paddy field, but he got on the team when he was in middle n high school and he’s alw been the Star Student

gets scouted for fc seoul outta high school!! he goes off quickly to do his military service then comes back n has been playing for the national team ever since!!

anw the downfall starts when he gets a,, rlly bad injury in one of the games, n jaehyun being the man he is refuses to rest and keeps pushing n he Really damages it for good,, has to get knee surgery and he’s out of the game for 6 months yikes ( recovers from surgery ~beginning of 2021 )

when he gets back he never quite gets back to his former glory 😩✋ he starts playing again but he gets injured So Easily and there’s talk of fc seoul wanting to sell / drop him bc even tho he has gr8 skills, he gets injured too often rip

starts panicking n Dreading that him and his grandma are gna go back to his life of poverty if he loses soccer, bc he literally has No Other Talent

around the same time he catches wind of some of the soccer players contemplating match fixing,, basically what it means is people usually bet on the outcome of the game, and the players anonymously bet against their own team and sabotage the game so they get a huge payout

knowing that his career in soccer is prob coming to an end, out of his desperation he starts doin the same thing oop ,, this goes on for a year until him and the other soccer players get found out mid 2022 ( so like last month teehee ) and a Huge Scandal breaks out

all of them get dropped from the team obv and banned from playing soccer, jaehyun included 😩✋ n there’s people in seoul literally spitting on him when he’s walking past the street like tf

anw the leo rising in him is rlly Not Dealing Well w all this hate n one panicked night, decides to look up places to run to where people don’t know his name 😩 during his search he finds out ab the secluded maehwa mansion that recently opened up, so he packs his bags n the rest is history!!

he moved in like literally yesterday n the plan is to j wait out the scandal until it dies down, then Maybe he can go back to seoul or chuncheon to have a,, Normal life w the insane earnings he got from a) bein a soccer player n b) the match fixing hoho

personality-wise he’s hella loud n p rough around the edges from all that Locker Room Talk,, also has a resting bitch face n has been told that he gives off the vibe like he alw has smth better to do oop

hella emotionally constipated due to his upbringing n has a lotta toxic masculinity so uhm,, it’s alm like the only emotion he’s allowed to show is Anger so that’s literally the only emotion u see from him other than bein rlly loud

impt thing to note is it honestly,, doesn’t take v long to realise he has some sort of anger issues,, like it could b the way he’s sensitive ab certain things ( banter involving insults is one way to grind his gears fr ) but also he swears like a sailor so that may also b misconstrued as him bein Upsetti

thx to his injury, he can often be seen walking w a limp espc on colder days ( don’t ask me why )

if u got this far u must plot w me!!!! here r some piss poor ideas 2 get us started teehee

top of the list is some bros,, pls,, he’s good for havin a fun time but uh don’t rely on him if u want advice his advice is literally life-changing like in a life-ruining way

he j moved into maehwa ystd n he’s mad at the stain on his floor bc how can he go from a life of luxury to This,, prob tryna clean it angrily atm so pls help a brother out

id love for him to have some past connections!! i see a lotta athletes hoho yall hit him up im sure yall met somewhere somehOW idk im not an athlete

he often goes to the closest convenience store to grab a beer,, someone join him on his nightly routine hehe

picture this: u know ab the match fixing scandal n gasp!! is that park jaehyun the coverboy of the nation’s most hated men in 2022??? talk to him ab it i dare u 

rom wise jaehyun is uh,, that serial dater bc i think he genuinely craves love in a way he never got when he was a kid, but then he’s also that Shady ass boyfriend so that said im keen to explore exes / past flings!! all his prev romances were toxic asf so if u need a villainous ex in ur story, he’s ya man!!

also ive written hella toxic relos w this old muse so as a mun im tryna get him to turn over a new leaf 😘 that said present romances r also on the table teehee ( this tiktok is literally him as a bf, he is truly ur manipulate mansplain gaslighter malewife all rolled into one what a Treat ) callin all ‘i can fix him’ queens here’s ur chance xo 🤡

[readingraebow]

Les Misérables Section Nine

Part 4 - Books 11-15

1. Which characters join the mob in book 11? Gavroche happens upon Enjolras, Courfeyrac, Combeferre and Feuilly and asks where they are off to. They tell him to join them. Following them is Monsieur Mabeuf who the group had found wandering the street. The told him he must go home because there's going to be fighting. He says he doesn't mind and asks where they're going. They say they're going to overthrow the Government and he says good and follows them. Then they were joined by a tall, grey-haired man who none of them knew. Then, finally, they passed by Courfeyrac's house and he went in to grab some things he forgot. While there, the concierge tells him there's a lad whose been waiting for over an hour to see him. The lad says he's looking for Marius and when Courfeyrac says he doesn't have any information, he ends up telling the youth that he's going to the barricades and leaves with his friends. Some time later, he looks back and discovers the youth is also following them.

2. Where do Courfeyrac et al. build a barricade? So Enjolras, Gavroche, Courfeyrac, Feuilly, Jean Prouvaire and Combeferre pas by the Rue de la Chanvrerie where the rest of the group is waiting and they're like "come with us!" and Bossuet's like "just build the barricade here." So they do. The side entrance from the street narrowed into a bottleneck, the Rue de Mondétour could be easily blocked on either side and frontal attack was then impossible from the Rue Saint-Denis. So it was actually a pretty perfect location to build their barricade. Plus they could wait inside the tavern instead of outside where, I think, it was actually raining.

3. Hugo writes that at the barricade, “these fifty men were waiting for sixty thousand.” Are there any causes for which you feel so passionately that you would be willing to take on those odds? Uhhhh. Honestly probably not, haha. I can't really think of anything that I'm this passionate about? Though I definitely get where they're coming from. If I lived in such oppression and hardship with absolutely no end in sight and the government only making things worse, I would do exactly what they're doing. But even though I don't always agree with our current government, I can still afford to live and live well. But currently there's honestly nothing that I feel so passionate about, I would literally die for it. (Unless it's my family. And by that I mean Dalton, Hailey, Havin and the cats, haha.)

4. Which spy is discovered at the barricade? So it's been so long since we've seen Javert that I literally forgot about him, ahaha. But Enjolras is sending Gavroche out to look past the barricade and before he goes, Gavroche points to a guy in the corner and says to keep an eye on the big 'uns and points to a man. He says that the man is a police spy who picked him up less than a fortnight ago. So Enjolras and some bigger guys confront him and he confesses that he's a representative of the law named Javert. He search him and find his card confirming this. Enjolras then informs him that he will be shot two minutes before the barricade falls because they don't want to waste ammunition.

5. Who is the first to die at the barricade? When the barricade was first attacked, the flag fell and Enjolras said they needed to put it back up and asked if anyone volunteered. The flag had been right at the front and was literally right in the line of fire so whoever put it back probably wouldn't live through the experience. Well, Monsieur Mabeuf had stayed with the group even though they repeatedly told him to go home. He'd mostly just sat in a corner of the tavern though. So when the fighting started, he heard it and got up and appeared outside just in time to hear Enjolras ask for a volunteer. So he took the flag and put it back but was pretty much immediately shot. Enjolras used him to rally the troops though, saying they're young and stood back while he was old and volunteered to die.

6. Who saved Marius? At what cost? So the youth who was waiting for Courfeyrac turns out to be Éponine. She's the reason Cosette left. She switched clothes with a body and gave Jean Valjean the note saying he should move. And when Cosette wrote a letter to Marius telling him she was going, she gave it to Éponine to post though Éponine didn't want Marius to get the letter. But she went to his residence and that's when she followed them to the barricade. Well, when Marius showed up he used both of the pistols he brought so he went inside to get a new weapon and someone was going to shoot him when a hand shot out and stopped the bullet. It was Éponine and the bullet went through her hand, into her chest and out her back. So when she finally found him and told him everything, she was already dying. She does give him Cosette's letter and asks one thing of him. She asks him to kiss her on the forehead after she dies and he does.

7. How does Jean Valjean come to learn of the intruder to his life with Cosette? When they left their home, Jean Valjean and Cosette didn't take much with them but Cosette brought her blotter and blotting book. She'd left her book out on the dresser and it was still open to the page where she'd blotted the letter to Marius. It was backwards, because it was the blotting but Jean Valjean saw it through a mirror and read the letter (ironically before Marius even got it) and was completely heartbroken that Cosette hadn't told him and that she had someone else in her life. He loves her like a father but Cosette is all that he has so, unconsciously, he doesn't want anyone else to ~take her away from him.

8. What happens to Gavroche as he returns to the barricade from his errand? So he sees this guy sleeping in a cart and thinks the cart would make a great addition to the barricade. He takes the cart and leaves a "receipt", haha. But having the cart with him slows him down. And so a man in uniform stops him, thinking he's a scoundrel and asks where he's headed. Gavroche refuses to answer and instead tries to use the cart to ram the man. The man falls backward and his gun discharges. Well, they were near another barricade and this brought everyone from it out and firing. Though the only casualties from this battle were windowpanes, haha. But Gavroche makes it out of that and still takes the cart with him??? And from what I can tell (the last paragraph honestly confused me), the cart was attacked again and Gavroche was taken prisoner.

  Section Nine Reading Journal

Wow okay. So this was a trip. So apparently we’re right upon the “everyone starts dying now” portion of this book. And honestly I’m not prepared. Though since we’re right in the middle of such a big battle, I also don’t want to stop reading??? So this is a huge problem??? I want to read the thing but I don’t read the thing. *flies off to hide in the woods*

But yeah. This section was honestly super interesting, especially the building of the barricade. And I’m SO GLAD Les Amis is back. It was like they were introduced and then just completely disappeared for a long while. (I want to say it was literally 300 pages or 500 or something like that. Because for a long while it’s been the Marius and Cosette Show, haha.) So I’m glad they’re back.... if only just to die. #distressed

Also Gavroche joining this fight. But the part where he kept asking for a musket and Enjolras is like “once we make sure all the adults have muskets, we’ll see about arming the children.” I seriously snorted so loud.

So yes. I am continuing to love this book and I can’t wait (but am also terrified) to read the last two sections!!! This has been such a long, wild ride. Wow.