#maybe it's a weird extreme form of masking idk but ive been like that my entire life | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

privatelife · 1 year

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whats the opposite of hyperfixating cause i do that tbh. if i get really into something i force myself to do something else because i dont wanna focus my energy on One Thing, it has to be Many Things In Different Intervals or else im not winning. do you know what i mean

#like i cant sit and read a book because i think well i have to devote some attention to movies as well.#and i cant watch too many movies because i have to stay up to date on all my shows lest i get behind #and i cant wear all one color Or Else. or else what idk but my brain says i MUST choose variety or i'll look like a loser. am i making sense #like no you cant eat the same food over and over or There's Something Wrong with you. you Have to pick something new or else you look weird #you Have to listen to some pop even if you're still in a post punk mood because you cant get stuck to one thing #like idk how best to explain it... like say ur picking an avatar in a game #my instinct would be to choose the goth character but then i think nooo that's so obvious and expected plus you just look like a faker anywa #ys so you have to choose another one. you like that thing but it's not for you You're Not Allowed. yknow #maybe it's a weird extreme form of masking idk but ive been like that my entire life #idk why i keep making these posts lately it's like i should see a therapist or something... imagine having money and time for therapy lol

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