#meryl is scared of vash kinda instinctively but she pushes thru it bc he's her friend yk | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

collieii · 1 year

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idk if this is controversial but i don't think vash is ashamed of his scars. i think vash is mainly concerned abt the picture he presents to the world and other peoples well-being/feelings. so the reason he doesn't like others seeing his scars is because he think it will make them uncomfortable, and it also sort of undermines the image he wants to project of someone who's very sillygoofy/carefree etc. similarly, i don't think vash is ashamed or insecure about being a plant/having those inhuman features, more he's concerned with how other people react to them. (the plant stuff esp makes sense to hide given how people literally stoned him lmao)

but yeah i don't think he's filled with self loathing over the scars and being nonhuman. i feel like vash's self image is fine, he just prioritizes how others feel and reacts based on that. his whole philosophy of covering up how he feels inside (that smile is fake!) is based on this principle, it doesn't matter if he's depressed as hell as long as he can pretend it's ok, because external presentation and how you affect the world is what really matters to him.

#trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #thinking more of trimax than stampede vash but i think this applies to both?#anyways i've been reading a lot of trigun fic if you couldn't tell #the plant/wings stuff is addressed p well thru meryl in trimax #where it makes sense that ppls immediate reaction to seeing them is fear #(seen in ch 38)#but ofc anyone who knows vash would know he'd never intentionally use his powers to hurt ppl #even if they are terrifying and it's reasonable to be scared #meryl is scared of vash kinda instinctively but she pushes thru it bc he's her friend yk #and there's a whole line where someone just points that out directly i can't remember which chap but yk what im saying #oh when i say his self image is fine i am not referring to the guilt of causing insane tragedies that different #i just mean he's not insecure i feel like it might look like there's overlap w what i'm saying but it's different it's different #only saying this bc i've seen other ppl make him more insecure abt it which is fine but i wanted to add my 2 cents #trigun meta #.lieii #.lieii txt

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