#might need to tinker with it now I know mery's voice better

[thevikingwoman]

EMMY GRIEF!!!!!!!!!!

thank you Azia!!!

this one I really, really do want to complete - but I mostly have some fragments and a great idea: This take place after The Vault, and while Emmanellain and Meryta is broken up, they still find some comfort in each other. It's sad. It has so many Fortemps headcanons.

the starter, because I love it very much:

“I hated him for the longest time, you know?” Meryta almost leaves right there, Emmanellain sitting in his divan, hands in his hair. She came to him for – comfort perhaps, or commiseration. She didn’t come for whatever this is, but she’s not sure she can bear the haunted look in Alpinaud’s eyes either, nor the grief of Edmund. “That’s what Mother taught me,” Emmanellain continues, “but my brother is – was – very hard to hate.”

and a bit later

“Tomorrow I’ll be off, I’m going to kill them all. Thordan, the Heaven’s Ward.” It burns in her. She wants to tear them all apart. No matter the cost. Emmanellain looks forlorn, then his mouth sets. “I should go with you. I should avenge my brother,” his voice almost breaks. “Please don’t go, Emmanellain. It’s not – not everyone has to fight. Not everyone should have to fight.” “He trained me, you know? Said I’d learn to fight eventually. I was never as good as him. I can never be as good as him. Perhaps if – I can’t be him, I can’t. Oh Meryta, girl, he was always so nice, and now! “ She put a finger on his lips. “My Father…” “Your father doesn’t have to decide what you do. He shouldn’t.” she brushes his hair back from his face. “I’ll avenge your brother, I promise. I want you to stay safe.” She doesn’t know what else to do, so she leans in and kisses him. She’s desperate, hungry and ungentle. It’s not fair to Emmanellain, she knows this, she will not, she cannot come back to him, but she needs this now and so does he.

I really love these bits, but unfortunately there's not a lot more. I have thoughts though!