#my boss asked me recently if I knew what the n'tilat yada'im cup he was holding is and I said no | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

erin-gilberts · 4 months

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The niche support group I need is one for people who became long COVID-damaged during or shortly after their conversion process because it truly fucks everything when newfound memory issues start pulling the bricks out of the foundation you had to lay by hand yourself

#erin is talking #the alpha variant was BAD and I developed long COVID from an infection in April 2020 #anterograde from 2020 -> this is the time frame long COVID has hit the worst in terms of memories #it's somehow worse than just forgetting because I mix up specific details even of really important memories #and become convinced that's how it happened until some actual recorded evidence contradicts me #so it often just looks like I'm lying about details but the reality is that long COVID eats them #or like processing them is way slower than it used to be #my boss asked me recently if I knew what the n'tilat yada'im cup he was holding is and I said no #because my brain literally couldn't process what I was seeing for like half a second too long #and it made me look like I have way less knowledge than I should and do. I know what a n'tilat yada'im cup is!#it's super upsetting to look at something you KNOW what it is and not be able to process what it is #it'd probably be really interesting for *someone* to speak to the experience of converting and developing a disability #but it's too frustrating and makes me too sad for it to be me #it's literally such a niche experience but I know I can't be the only person in this position

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