#my childhood and teenagehood was a bit chaotic i couldn't hold onto everything i had. idk where the 2 music players i had pre smartphone wen

[sonoda-oomers]

(realizing tsubasa chronicle music feels like comfort to me not only because of nostalgia but also a sense of fulfillment, because i didn’t actually have access to trc when i was a kid: i fell in love when i read the first chapter demo’d in one of the many vietnamese otaku magazines that would go out of business, but manga collection hadn’t occurred to me then; my closest access was the beetrain anime on animax but i didn’t speak english to know the dialogues and airing schedule. and somehow regardless of all this, unlike other childhood things forgotten because of inaccesibility, i still held onto the love with bits and pieces i got by pure chance, unfinished vietnamese scanlations and forum posts and a few fanfictions on now defunct websites. unlike most things in my life this wasn’t even a financial difficulty but just circumstance that kept me in arm’s reach, until i was in my 20s and could buy the whole series barring 2 volumes, and it felt like. genuinely being in a better place and having some control in my life) hhuh