#now she just measures it out for me which is easier tbf but i can't help but feel stupid because of it | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

pastelcheckereddreams · 8 months

Text

Some days I really hate my brain. I miss the most obvious things and do things in roundabout ways that seem ridiculous to anyone else because there's many simpler solutions/more logical conclusions that people reach that I just can't see until they're pointed out to me. Rendering all my effort a complete waste of time. You don't know what you don't know and all that, but when everyone else knows these things easily, I can't help but feel foolish, incompetent and straight up dumb.

#delete later #nikkispeaks #neurodiversity #i didn't clean the mould out of a client's bathroom tiles because they didn't have mould cleaner so then I just Stopped Seeing the mould #so i did what i thought was a really thorough job of cleaning the bathroom - and the client thought i hadn't cleaned at all #another time i was dogsitting and the owner thought i'd overfed her dog but I explained how I was working out how much to give him #and it turns out i was giving him the right amount but had worked it out in such a ridiculously complex way that she was confused #now she just measures it out for me which is easier tbf but i can't help but feel stupid because of it #and if i'm asked to do a task at work that isn't needed often - say once every few weeks - my boss will have to take me through the process #because i just straight up need reminding what “can you input the progress reports?” entails when it's basically three clicks on the screen #i'm fully aware that my brain is different and slightly broken and it hurts to just seem incompetent when I am trying my hardest

2 notes · View notes