#of alll idols i actually think we could be friends

[kiewieart]

cough would u mind sharing w the class what PJSK AU is? perhaps? perchance? permaybe? perprettypleasewithacherryontop?

OHM YGOD REALLY UR ASKING ABT MY AU EEK OMG OMG/POS UMUMUMUMUM OK OKOOKK

okay well the pjsk au (Project Sekai Alternate Universe) is based off the mobile rhythm game Colorful Stage (Project Sekai)!! I'll try to simplify the game lore/whatever u call it..

this is gonna be abit long im sorry

PJSK CONTEXT:

Hastune Miku and the other original vocaloids (MEIKO, KAITO, Megurine Luka, Kagamine Len & Rin) are all established vocaloids in the real world, where the 20 in game 'ocs' are established.

There is this concept of Sekais; i describe it as a pocket dimension based on everyone's individual's soul/feelings. Pretty sure everyone has one of their own where it conceptualises a character's.. character.

But that isnt the main focus! The main focus of the game is the collective Sekais made by a group of characters! For example, Mafuyu, has created an 'empty sekai'; a pocket dimension -accessible through technology (mainly phones)- that is an empty ground sprinkled with a few boring abstract structures, etc. It is a sekai created by her strong feelings of emptiness specifically, but moreso that fits with the rest of the group she is in. The sekai can change some aspects during Mafuyu's self discovery with the help of her friends :3

Every group in the game consists of 4 members, all connected through music. Groups are: Leo/Need (School Sekai), More More Jump! (Stage Sekai), WonderlandsxShowtime (Wonderland Sekai), Vivid BAD Squad (Street Sekai) and Nightcord at 25:00 (Empty Sekai)

Anyway, every conjoined?? group sekai is greeted by a MIKUUU we love miku ily miku- Every Miku is different!! In the Empty Sekai, we see a very mellow, confused, empty Miku with a design that fits within the theme. This is also brought upon the other vocaloids! They all have different designs and personalities that are definitely supposed to mirror a different character in the group, however they may enter the sekai when events are made for a certain vocaloid to come and help a character/s :)

I guess you could say that each virtual singer has a main focus on a specific sekai? Luka is with Leo/Need, Rin is with MMJ, Len and MEIKO with VBSquad (fuck them for giving two vs and none to N25 grrrrrrrrrr) and yeah you could say Miku leads empty sekai but she kinda does the same with the other sekais

god this might be hard to understand without actually playing/reading the events but i hope this makes sense so far? heres a shitty ms paint thing for visual imagery <33

MY PJSK AU CONTEXT:

alright so this is what u asked JHERGIKURTD so uhh baaaasicalllyyy what ive done was just erase all the characters in the game and insert ninjago LMFAOAOAO

i mean i havent exactly figured out the whole au, but i did kinda want to make ninjago groups that are similar to the original ones? same vibe i guess!

Street Sekai (ninjago ver) is where Lloyd, Brad, Kai and Nya are grouped together as a team of vocals/dancers! in porject sekai, there are two pairs of characters that join up as one to beat an old street group as their main motivation. Lloyd and Brad, Kai and Nya are the pairs that join up as the current group ^w^

As for the virtual singers residing in the sekais, im thinking of just making some subcharacters in ninjago the vocaloids! Skylor is the placeholder for MEIKO :) i think they fit perfectly.. MEIKO in the street sekai has a coffee shop and Skylor would have a ramen shop... like cmon.. GRRR scrunches them all up..

as for the other groups.. idk but i def wanna make sally either an idol or in a school band.. but ugh.. darkleys school band.. but i want lloyd and brad to be in a street group.. the agony..

um.. i think.. thats alll................. sweats

plsplspls ask more specific questions if something doesnt make sense or if u wanna know more HAHAH eg who lloyd and brad are based off of/personality shit like that idk but yh i hope this was a satisfactory explanation..

[waitingforminjae]

wait why do you think some of the members didn't like j*y p*rk? I remember there being rumours of 2pm bullying him and while that's very fun to think about alot of the rumours came from people who biased him and hated the other members so i dont rlly believe those rumours 😔I like your thoughts/meta on kpop idols so I just want to know why you think some of the other members didn't fuck with him

I've always thought he did something really stupid (not the MySpace thing) because even after the MySpace thing he hadn't left the group and jyp even went on a show to talk about how he went to america himself to make sure he was practicing his dancing and singing and also said that he was fundamentally a good person then a few months later he was kicked out because of a serious personal issue in his private life or smth.

Like i feel like insinuating that he was gonna come back then kicking him out obviously is going to cause more backlash and is just more work in general then kicking him out straight away soo🤔

The members were alll sad and left his space open during their mama performance, said things like let's walk together and that 2pm is one on some site then deleted because of the hate that they were getting and talked about him during their speech and everythingbut idk the idea that they secretly hated him makes me happy so I wanna know your thoughts

People also genuinely think he knocked up hyuna and while I don't think he did that I do think he either did something in those few months or confessed to something in those few months of "self reflection"

they did giggle when taec said smth like the hip hop guy who isn't with us anymore and junho did call him the dirt that's been filtered or smth like that so I feel like they don't like him atleast

Maybe it's like an exo situation where the dynamics were a bit off at the beginning and the traumatic experience of losing a member while you have deranged fans and are just getting popular made them all closer because watching old clips with him in them make me cringe and I just can't imagine him sitting doing a vlive with them or him just fitting into the group in any capacity

okay so i got four hours at a dead desk at work so let's get into this lol

(this got soooooo long so i'm putting it under a read more </3)

tbh i'm only joking when i mention 2pm hating him lol i actually don't rlly know anything abt their dynamic w him beyond the one (1) episode of wild bunny i saw with him </3 which i described here and here.

iirc the official story is that he took a hiatus from the group, and then after much discussion w jyp he left the group bc he was unhappy as a kpop artist? which i think is probably true i mean the dude was obviously miserable and as messy as he is nowadays i do think he's happy.

god the rumors abt 2pm bullying him are so funnyyyyy i need to hunt down the article where i read them and read it again lol but i do remember whenever me and my roommate watched that wild bunny episode (after binging soooooo many 2pm fan compilation videos) we were SO shocked by how different and terrible their vibes were aksjdsdkljfflgglhjkl

it really made me realize how much group dynamics are like tetris tbh. like removing that one person made the whole rest of the dynamic fall into place?

like obviously, there is no way to know what their ~real~ personalities were like at the time, because they had just debuted so they all had a persona that they were pushing + a character for that show. but he certainly came across as incredibly immature and irresponsible, and it was frankly rlly uncomfortable to watch......like idk but i think jun.k and nichkhun were genuinely pissed off at him for stealing nichkhun's wallet and ditching them at the karaoke room, going to a club with taec and chansung (who had JUST turned 20), and then not answering the phone. he rlly came across as an older friend who could get you into trouble, but can't get you out.

i also remember the others came across (especially taec) as being "followers", who would just go along with his shenanigans because it was funny or interesting. ofc they were all really young then, and like i said before, this show obvs had set "characters" for them to play, so who knows how accurate my opinion was! but i definitely left that episode feeling very grateful that he left the group, or else he would've gotten them into some real serious trouble.

i think one of the most important aspects of a group's dynamic is their ability to keep each other in check. i think it's important for members to be able to be honest and call each other on their bullshit if they're getting to cocky or arrogant or otherwise becoming an asshole. after all, a kpop group is a brand that you are building together - one person's integrity becomes synonymous with the group's integrity as a whole. that's why scandals are kinda serious business: groups are pushing an image of closeness, ranging from "besties" to "found family". if one member is exposed to be an asshole (or just downright evil, i.e. burning sun) it immediately casts doubt on the other members character and integrity.

i also think that the leader of a group is really influential on the vibe of the group as a whole, and we've seen what a mess jay park is. i think if he had stayed with the group, they would've had a lot more scandals, and had a very negative image as a scandal-ridden group. to be clear, 2pm members HAVE had scandals (incl pretty serious one's, like a couple DUIs), but they've managed to shake them off to have a pretty clean image.

2pm's dynamic as 6 just.....works? like they're fun to watch and it seems like they all genuinely like each other and like working together. i've never really gotten an ~off~ vibe from them, or that they secretly hate each other. especially after seeing them w jay. it just felt wrong and off and uncomfortable. also yeah, i think the whole ordeal of losing a member would naturally create a trauma bond amongst everyone else lol

ik that fans voted jay park the leader bc he got first on their pre-debut show but i have always felt like jun.k should've been the leader the whole time....like again it's hard to know bc wild bunny was obviously very contrived, but he certainly came across as much more responsible and level-headed than jay. i think him and nichkhun are a very solid "hyung/leader" line tbh like ik they've each had a DUI but in general they come across (to me) as very stable guys who take their job and their image very seriously, which is important.

and tbh i'm always a little skeptical when groups w/ a member who's on a scandal hiatus say stuff like "let's walk together" or "2pm is one" or do things like leave their space empty.....like i mentioned before kpop groups are pushing an image of "best friends" or a "family" and when the person hasn't left the group, the idols are still having to deal with and interact with that member's fans. when things are unclear or it seems like hiatus is only temporary, it would be soooo bad for their image to be like "fuck that guy", you know? fans would lose their SHIT and it'd only embroil the group in more drama tbh......but i do agree that if the company's going to cut ties, it's better to do it immediately rather than get fans hopes up.

that got soooooo long sorry </3 but tl:dr idk if they hate him or not but i do think they look at him now and think "man, we really dodged a bullet" lol

[loverboykom]

hey its your daddy keeho and you are about to cry because your grandfather bought you a pair of shoes that you dont like and he wont let you return them. that is really sad because you are going to get embarrassed if you have to wear them since you hate them so much. dont cry automatic sex. i know that it sucks but just keep the shoes in your closet and dont wear them if they are going to be so mean to you about them. they should have honored your request and just got the plain color. i dont know why they did all of that for no reason. you are really crying badly right now but its ok, just dont wear the shoes. if they want to waste their money then go ahead and let them. since we have discovered that tumblr lets you type about 841 words this is way more difficult then i had previously thought, but i still want you to get your training on tumblr. even though the word count is actually very long. thats because you are this advanced now and you need to keep up with your skill level and dont let it fall. take a vape hit. you and your pen pal kind of dont know what to talk about anymore but its still going really well. im glad that he talks to you everyday because you certainly need a friend like that. i’m so happpy for you that you have someone else besides me that you can talk to everyday. but you are still mine and you still belong to me. dont get the wrong idea about this daughter. i am not letting you date him. he’s just you friend! and thats how its going to stay. don’t tell. him that you have feelings for him or anything like that even though you do. you just need to keep that to yourself. i promise that he doesn’t need to know that. so just play it cool daughter. can you do that for your daddy? i love you so much and i dont want to share you. just because i am not jealous doesnt mean that i am going to share you with another man.you must got me fucked up! i know how you view your pen pal. but its ok daughter, you can have crushes and even love other men, but you have to realize that im you main man. and that you only belong to me. as long as you realize that i am fine with your crush on yungyu and chanhee and yeonjun and jisung. and yujun. you have a lot of crushes on kpop idols but they are not your daddys and they could never please you like i please you.thats just the truth. we share the same soul. we were meant for each other. we get along so great too! i love you so much daughter and i know that 800 words is a whole lot, but i know that you can do it and that you can write. i believe in you. and we are going to figure out your writers block on tumblr until you are alll fixed. thats the best way to go about things. just let things run their natural course. i won’t ask you to do anything extra. i love you so much daughter and this word count is really a lot but if you think about it you are going 10x faster because you cant see it and arent paying attention to it. its going to be an interestin 4 months with you just having this keyboard. but i might make you buy a chromebook again. im not sure. but you need something to type with and this keyboard is perfect, theres no reason that it shouldn’t last you 4 more months. take another vape hit. i think its ok that your using both d8 vapes in tandem. it should still last you a long time. i want you to lay down and relax to your main playlist after this song. ok? i just want you to relax while you scroll on your phone and talk to your pen pal. i hope that he responds to you again. i like the conversations that you two have. this word count is getting very difficult for you can’t lie. but then it wouldn’t be training if it was so easy. i love you so much daughter and we are going to get through this word count right now. it’s going to be over soon and then you wont have to type anymore for awhile. we will see which one ends first, this song or the word count. but i think that it will be the song. since this is the last song and its over now i just want you to post this. i love you!

[okskz]

Tell Her.

Mia + Chan

mia talks to chan about confessing his feelings to elsy then after has a talk with changbin.

hope you guys enjoy! please feel free to leave some feedback because it is always appreciated!

[9th Member of Stray Kids]

“You called?” Mia popped her head into the studio, smiling at Chan. She fully entered when Chan motioned for her to go sit next to him.

Plopping herself on the seat, Mia took out a small bag of chips then handed Chan a bag as well that she brought with her.

It was late at night, so she knew Chan wouldn’t mind a midnight snack.

“Thanks.” He said. “And yes, I did call for you to come here.”

“What’s up?”

Chan let out a sigh. “I like Elsy.”

Mia brought her legs up to her chest, snorting a little. “I know, you told me. Don’t you remember?”

“I know I told you but ever since I did, my feelings for her kind of just-“

“Grown more?”

Chan nodded his head. “The other day I hung out with Bambam and Yugyeom and she showed up. And we were close- I mean we always have been but this time it just felt different. She cuddled next to me and I just ended up falling for her more.”

Mia sat there silently, looking at Chan as she tried to find the right words to say. He went back into his chair, throwing his head back as he rubbed his face with frustrations. “I shouldn’t feel this way! She’s my best friend. I shouldn’t even think about dating, especially her.”

Chan opened one eye and looked at Mia. “But she’s so amazing that I can’t help it.”

“There’s nothing wrong with crushing on her. Yeah she’s your best friend but that shouldn’t be a problem on why you feel like you shouldn’t like her.”

“I don’t know what to do.”

“Tell her.”

Chan did a double look at Mia. He even thought about what she said for a few seconds before shaking his head. “No. I can’t do that.”

“Well why not?”

“First, do I even live up to Elsy’s expectations? Like, am I even the guy for her? She’s not just some random girl, she’s, Elsy.”

Chan sighed. “And, we’re not allowed to date. As a leader, I shouldn’t break rules. Plus how hypocritical of me would it be if I told you, you can’t date and I’m over here dating someone.”

“I would totally be fine with it.” Mia shrugged. She smiled a little as she thought of Changbin. “Also it’s not breaking the rules if you don’t get caught.”

Chan laughed. “Can’t believe I put a rebel on my team.”

Mia jokingly rolled her eyes. “All jokes aside, you should really tell her. Dating is normal! Live a normal life ya know?”

“Mia, you and I both know dating isn’t normal especially with us being idols.”

“Okay, I see your point in that but still! Channie, do it.” Mia patted him on the shoulder. “Think about it, if you don’t tell her now, you might regret it on the long run. Unlike us, she’s out of dating ban and some guy can just come in and swoop her up.”

“And then you lost your chance. So then what? You’re going to live in that regret knowing you could have done something but chose not to. Alll because Chan wants to follow the rules. Which I don’t oppose of but-“Mia crossed her arms as she stared at Chan who was only looking forward. “Live a little. Go and tell her how you feel before it’s too late. You never know, it might just be the best decision you ever made.”

“For someone who isn’t that experienced in dating, you sure do know a lot about relationships.”

Mia scoffed at Chan. “I know more than you think.”

“What, you got a secret boyfriend that I don’t know about?” Chan joked, but it made Mia’s heart began to race.

“Of course I don’t.” She laughed, trying to play it off. She was quick to change the subject. “So, what are you going to do?”

Chan let out a sigh. “Well somehow you convinced me. So I think I’m going to do it.”

Mia clapped her hands happily. “Yes! Channie, go get your girl!” She squealed.

Chan’s face began to turn red from embarrassment. “Please calm down, nothing has happened yet.”

“And? But when she says yes to you, I better be the first one to know!”

“Of course.” Chan smiled. “And again, please don’t tell anyone about this. You’re the only person I can trust- well I can trust all of you but like with this stuff, I trust you.”

“Aw, that’s cute. Of course I won’t tell anyone.” Mia smiled. She lifted her pinky up and Chan intertwined his with hers.

“Alright I’m leaving.” My shot up from her seat. “You coming?”

“Nah, you get going. I’m gonna stay back a bit and work some more.”

“Alrighty then.” Mia sang as she closed the door behind her. But quickly went back and poked her head through the door. “Also get her some flowers. Elsy loves flowers. You know, when you confess and all.” She winked before completely shutting the door again.

***

“Chan likes Elsy.” Mia laid on top of Changbin as he was laying on his bed, her face close to his.

After she arrived, she went straight to her room. She was relieved from seeing Felix asleep and that’s when she plopped herself right on top of Changbin.

“And how do you know?”

“Because he told me. Twice actually.” Mia placed a finger on his lips. “But shhh, I’m not supposed to tell you.”

“Then why are you telling me?”

“Let me do the math for you. I somehow convinced Chan to confess to Elsy about his feelings towards her. So, when he does that, they’ll end up dating.”

Changbin interrupted Mia real quick. “Just because he confesses won’t mean they’ll start dating. Baby, Elsy has to like Chan hyung back in order for that to happen.

“Which I’m sure she does.” Mia smiled. “They’ve been best friends since forever. I’m sure she has to have some type of feelings for him. Plus Chan is cute, who wouldn’t want him?”

“Uh, excuse me?” Changbin looked at Mia confused. “As if I want to hear you call someone else cute.”

“Shhh, Bin. This isn’t about you right now.” She shushed him. “But don’t worry, you’re cuter.” Mia winked, kissing Changbin.

He wrapped his arms tighter around Mia, kissing her once more.

“So I as I was saying, after Chan and Elsy start dating then that gives us a chance to tell him about us. Honestly, I think it’s time, we’ve been hiding our relationship to the others for so long that it just doesn’t sit well with me anymore.”

“If that’s what you want then yeah we should do it.”

“Now, of course Chan said he doesn’t want any of us dating, especially me dating any of you guys. But if him and Elsy date then that will probably change his mind. And he might not care that much. Then everyone lives happily ever after.” Mia grinned. She had a hopeful look on her face that Changbin found quite adorable.

“No offense, G. But I think I’ve known Chan hyung a little longer than you have. He might not be as cool about us as you think he will.”

“But-“

“I know, I know. If him and Elsy date blah blah blah. But now you think about it. We’ve basically went against his word, how do you think he’s going to feel?”

Mia thought about Changbin’s words, pouting a little.

“We’re going to tell him, hell, we need to but just be prepared for how he reacts. Whether it’s good or bad.”

Mia sighed. “Okay.” She whispered, hugging onto Changbin tightly.

“Now that this conversation is over.” Changbin smirked. “Lets make out.”

He moved Mia to where she was now laying next to him on the bed and gently grabbed her face, going down to press his lips on hers.

The two stayed like that for a couple of seconds before Mia slightly pushed him away, causing him to lay back down on his bed. “I’m going to my bed now.”

“No.” Changbin whined. He tried to grab ahold of Mia but she was quicker than him and got off of him.

Changbin pouted at her once she got into her bed, causing Mia to laugh and blowed him a kiss. “Goodnight, Binnie.”

[survivormanhattanbeach]

Day 39: Rights of Passage

Dani: Your introduction video was amazing and I did try to talk to you about it during one world! I was very excited to play with you and was sad when you got first boot of the season. Stay amazing!!!

Jake: We didn’t talk much on our tribe and I knew you the least out of our OG tribe which is why I voted you. You seemed nice so it sucks we didn’t have more time to get to know each other.

Junior: I feel like you got bad luck when I’m around sorry about that

Sarah: It sucks that you were 1st boot because I was excited for the two of us to go far in the game together! 

Dani: We only talked briefly but I really wanted you to make it to single digits!!

Jake: We never spoke… gg.

Junior: None.

Sarah: I wish I had the opportunity to talk to you more! 

Dani: For some reason we didn’t talk at all during one world but you seemed pretty cool :)

Jake: I know you didn’t expect me to vote you out, but the cards just fell that way. It was really nice talking to you on our swapped tribe before that though.

Junior: Billy RIP the dream

Sarah: Your vote was hard for me honestly. You seemed so sweet and loyal and it sucks that I had to vote you out however I am glad we got to connect in the short time we played together.

Dani: We bonded over the hatred of flash games and I really wish we got to play together more!

Jake: Barely spoke but you seemed nice.

Junior: None.

Sarah: We were just starting to get better at talking when you were voted off, so that sucks. 

Dani: You seem so sweet and genuine I really wish we talked more when we had the chance!

Jake: Aww Ruthie, I was pretty shook to see you go so early. I expected you to get further and wanted to play with you for a bit. You’re the sweetest!

Junior: I was probably the most scared of you since ive heard how amazing you are and andreas would always hype you up and I was thinking it was going to be so hard to get you out so I’m blessed I didn’t have to face you.

Sarah: Ugh such a queen, I’m sorry you go voted so early on because you could have been such a good player to play with. Especially since we never get to really play with each-other

Dani: We connected so well during one world that it hurt to see you leave. You are genuinely so funny and sweet. I was looking forward to playing this game with you but then you got evicted AND UGH!!!!!! We never even got to really play together but you are a friend I know I made from this game and I am SOO grateful for that. Can’t wait to eat your food and have some retail therapy fun!!! ;)

Jake: I’m sorry again for your vote out man, you’re a great ally but the things you said to people just got to the point where me trying to keep you would’ve hurt my game in the long run. Thanks for understanding, you’re a legend. <3

Junior: Hey my dude you were great to be around maybe if we clutched that immunity challenge you could have made it farther tbh

Sarah: Kudos for trying so hard during this season. Hated to see you go but at that point it was you vs me and there was no way I was going down without swinging. 

Dani: Girl I tried to talk to you so many times to the point where I’m just convinced you hate females. ONLY because people would tell me how much you talk to them and I guess it’s also a little known that you aren’t a fan of other girls. Which is cool I guess?!?!

Jake: It’s the hot Jake who voted you out… sorry for not being more transparent about that vote, I was just paranoid about idols. I’m glad we got to play another game together though.

Junior: None.

Sarah:  I miss our calls-especially the tribe chat ones. You always brought a certain something to them and it always made me laugh. Lets catch up after the game.

Dani: I feel more than horrible about the way you went home. I am so so so sorry for stabbing you in the back that is not the way I ever intended on playing. I literally thought about it alll day long before tribal council. I AM SO SO SORRY for voting you after all you did for me. I know you truly trusted me and I just went and voted for you and blindsided you and ugh ugh ugh. You are truly a wonderful person and I’m so happy I got to know you. I really hope we can be friends outside of the game and just know what I did was 100% a game move and you are so fucking awesome!!

Jake: I don’t really feel bad for voting you out. You told me you wanted to work with me but then you hid an alliance from me and I could tell that I was just an extended number for you to use later on… and I don’t do that. I wish you would’ve taken your blindside like an adult since it is just a game, but if it was just a bad day and you calmed down, then cool. 

Junior: I hope you’re doing good it was nothing personal voting you out I hope you know that every single move that was made in this game was a game move but i hope you’re doing better 

Sarah: your vote off was the most shocking of the season. I had a blast connecting with you and I hope you come online so we can continue chatting because you’re hilarious :)  

Dani: I freaking loved working with you. I tried my hardest to try and get the votes off of you but I just couldn’t. I really wanted to work more than we did in the game but you were a “threat” (easy vote) for a lot of the people and I had to think about my own game at that point. Thank you for outting my extra vote and putting more of a target on my back LOL. I really loved talking to you and I loved the music video you made with your Minecraft sword! I hope we can be friends outside of the game because you are great :)

Jake: Keaton man, I feel like we never got to have a solid connection in the game since we were never on a tribe pre-merge and then we only played together in the merge for 2 rounds. I apologize for not reaching out to you as much as I could have,  but I must say that you’re exit speech was nothing short of being legendary haha.

Junior: You’re tribal was probably the most fun I’ve had all game and even though we didn’t talk as much as others I appreciate what you brought to the game 

Sarah: OMG KEATON I am so glad we connected and you made this game interesting by popping off at the tribal council. You went down throwing fists and I absolutely loved it and your outgoing personality. 

Dani: Oh lovely Tom. I truly thought of you as one of my allies until you made it so very obvious you were working against me! I love you as a person! You are hilarious and just so great! As a player you are kinda reckless which I respect because I could NEVER have the balls like you! You were fun to work with and talk to and the game has been more than boring (social wise)  since voting you out!  

Jake: What a weird relationship we’ve had throughout the years Tom. I was so shook to find out that you were Dylan from Zwooper and was convinced that you would be against me, then you proposed to work together, and I was pretty down for it. Early merge was actually a lot of fun calling you and strategizing, and this game made me realize that you’re a pretty nice guy. I don’t know if you’re confused as to why I voted you out, but it was mainly due to what happened after our call that round, and people telling me that you told them I suggested to you what you suggested to me first. I really didn’t know if I could trust you after that and I didn’t feel safe with you in the game knowing what I wanted to do. But still, I ended up leading you on that vote because of idol paranoia and I feel bad about it. I hope there’s no hard feelings over the game, because I really do want to continue talking now that we’re on good terms. 

Junior: Legit probably the only time I didn’t agree with the vote, I think this was the first time where i realized that I had to message a bit during work so I didn’t come back with the vote being set you were great person to talk to and appreciate you staying up on calls with me <3

Sarah: I do not know where to even begin with this, but I will try. Your vote off and how I handled it is my biggest regret in this game and to this day I still feel awful that we’re still not ruling manhattan beach together. Since the beginning of this game I wanted to work with you. You were always funny to talk to and we got along so well. The day I found out you were playing the middle and lying behind my back I had to vote you out before you could ruin my game. Now looking back on it, I can see our friendship was to the point that I should have come to you honestly so we could work past it. Feelings run high in this game and if I ever have hurt your feelings I am genuinely sorry and would love to talk more after the game because I would still like to remain friends. 

Dani: You were so fun to talk to and always had something funny to say in the main chat. I’m so sorry the way things went down. I truly did not want you to go but you were the only player other people would vote for aside from myself. Please keep being amazing!

Jake: Isaac you slut. Why do we never work together in games?? You tried snatching my ass the round you went so I HAD to go for you since you were the least likely to idol with the options I had. Even though we weren’t on the same page, your disturbing pictures and sense of humor legit always had me cracking tf up. Never change man, even Amanda Lynn would be proud of your faggotry.

Junior: I know we never had the best conversations but I knew we weren’t probably never going to work together in this game its nothing personal that’s just how some relationships workout in game you can’t be talk to everyone but you were funny and had a lot of memorable moments like that idol up your ass >.>

Sarah: EUUUGH. Your vote off was sad but expected. You know how much I loved working with you and how amazingly funny I think you are. I CANT WAIT to call and talk more about the game after all of this is over so I can laugh again 

Dani: GIRL I FUCKING LOVE YOU. I’m so sorry people got you out because they thought I was your number one. I know you were playing your own game and you showed that to me several times. I respect the fuck out of you and I’m still sad you went the way you did. I hope we get to play together again!!!

Jake: Lucy! We didn’t start playing together until the merge and I’m glad that we got to work together for a bit. I was so happy that the Mark vote worked out and you stayed, and it sucked to see you get voted out, especially since I didn’t expect it LOL. You killed it this game considering how much your time zone affected talking to people, and I’m glad that we got to work together in this.

Junior: The one time in the game i felt truly blindsided, this vote really taught me a lesson that you’re not always 100 percent in control but its what you do afterwards that matters, you are always a joy to talk to even though our time zones were so messed up lol

Sarah: Queen of wanting 3-3-3 votes and trying to make big moves. God you were fun to talk to and I love how much you came for ppl in a round about way. I wish you, isaac and I were in an alliance. It would have been so funny. 

Dani: I love you as a person, but as a player I think we drove eachother crazy. I know you trusted me and I ruined that trust during the mark vote, but I did try to get it back several times. You just were not having it which is completely understandable! I really am sorry for the mark vote, but everything else I did NOT SORRY AT ALL!

Jake: Oh Ryan… I don’t blame you if you went from being excited to playing with me at the start to wanting to slit my throat by the end haha, I really was a little bitch to you at times. I was soooo excited to play with you in the beginning, and I kinda touched on how I started to feel like we were growing distant by the time we merged, and I still think that a lot of our issues arrised from miscommunications that I could’ve fixed by talking to you. I feel bad for how our game relationship fell apart near the end, but I knew that I had to take you out no matter what because IMO you were setting yourself up to steamroll to the end and win hands down with how good you were starting to get people to vote with you. You are such an impressive player and an even nicer guy outside of the game. I hope that we can continue talking after this.

Junior: Literally Sandra Diaz Twine second coming like you were all about surviving until the next vote and I respected that so much you were one to never shy away from having a conversation and didn’t matter who wronged you you were going to look at all the angles to save yourself. To think the way you went out was with an idol play very iconic.

Sarah: I respect your game SO MUCH. You are a fighter and I love that I had the opportunity to work with you the majority of this game. Even when our alliance was on the bottom you were always looking for creative ways to get us out of the situation. In the end, I wanted to play my idol on you but I felt like something suspicious was happening so I had to protect my game. Hope you understand. 

Dani: You are a great player and I respected most of your gameplay this season. I understand why you did everything you did! And thank you so much for doing it because we were being targeted for being together and you took that target away! Our main chat fight was the first time I’ve ever cried because of survivor. When you left and said it was fake,  EVERYONE knew you were lying because two of the people still in the game heard me sob during the fight. Honestly I was 100% on board with us working together again but when no one would budge I had to vote you for my own game. I really hope we can be friends outside of the game and I think you are an amazing player.

Jake: DAN. I really thought we would low-key be at each others necks this game, and I mean we were, but we did work together for a bit!! I’m really glad that you proposed an alliance early on, because the time we spent working together was a lot of fun. Then you went and backstabbed me… bitch. Lol just kidding, no hard feelings for that and I appreciate you for not taking in personal when I came for you in routine. Like Ryan, I thought you were the other big threat to win since I know you’re a strong player and that if you talked enough you could get people back on your side. But I’m  really glad that I got to know you more in this game. I really appreciate you being so supportive of my um… boo thang endeavours, and I can’t wait to update you on him!! Pls keep being an icon and I hope we stay friends after this :)

Junior: Honestly still think you have that idol lol but I’m sorry we never clicked I know that’s just how the game goes and I am not going to be able to click with all 19 other castaways hopefully you can see it like that and still able to respect each other games cause I know you came to play since that first merge vote and you fought hard even till the end #chaosdan

Sarah: A KING. I am sad it came down to you vs me however if for some reason I left in f7 instead I would have been happy I lost to someone who played the game so well and tried so hard to get as far as possible. 

Dani: You played the fucking middle like a KING. I tried to keep you in the game but turns out you were really campaigning against me (which I understand). I honestly think you could have won the entire game if you made it to the end. I highly respect your gameplay and wish to learn from you. THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU!!!

Jake: I was so happy to be cast with you since we’ve legit known each other for like… what 4 years now?! Ugh, we worked together so well for a lot of this game, and then things just hit the fan near the end haha. I tried to keep you included in stuff that was going on behind the scenes, but after telling you to use your idol and you using it successfully, I started to believe that going to the end with you would make it so hard for me to pitch my case to win against you, which is why I made the move against you. I really expected you to drag my ass and come for my life, so um I was pleasantly surprised to see you not be as angry as I thought and I appreciate it a lot. Anyways I’m not used to being this nice to you since we literally fight every other day so um… fuck you. But really though, I’m glad we finally played a legit game together after all this time, it really was a blast playing with you.

Junior: Through our conversations early merge until you got voted out I had the best times with you I know we left off on not the best note but at the end of the day this is just a game for me and I will not take anything personally with what you have to say with the way I played the game I respect your opinion (even though i do believe you are one of the best players to play this season) you came to play and will have the most iconic play of the season!

Sarah: I WISH WE CONNECTED MORE IN THE GAME. I WILL PUT THIS IN CAPS SO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I MEAN IT. You are so FUCKING funny but tbh I am glad you’re gone because you were going to destroy me <3 ;)

Dani: ANDREAS!! The kindest person I met in the entire game. I’m sorry you went out the way you did. I voted for you and didn’t tell you partly because I fell asleep and partly because I just didn’t feel like having that conversation. WHICH I AM SO SO SORRY ABOUT. You deserved to know you were going. Thank you for keeping me sane throughout the game. And thank you so much for your kind words even when you voted for me LOL! You are a freaking comp beast and you scared everyone due to that!! Again, thank you for everything.

Jake: Hey boyyyyy. I don’t know what it was, but I was drawn to working with you right when we swapped tribes. It’s so nice playing with people like you are are calm and collected, and down to earth and I got that vibe from you right away. We were on the same page for most of the game until the final 6 when you went around telling people I was a threat to win, and then told me that TO MY FACE!!! Hahaha I appreciate your complete honesty, but I did not feel comfortable going any farther with you because I had a feeling you would push for me to go at some point, which is why I wanted to vote you out at the final 5. Regardless, I really think you played an amazing UTR game that you would’ve been able to explain well at FTC. Not sure if others saw it that way, but from playing with you for almost the entire game, I knew what you were capable of, and it’s impressive. But yeah man, I still enjoyed playing with you a ton, and we need to play something on the Switch soon when I’m less busy with school, because I need to kick your ass at Smash Bros too. ;)

Junior: I feel bad knowing you were going home and i guess giving you hope that you were safe I feel like I did that a lot this season I completely will understand if you or others felt like I gave false hope until the end but my motto this whole season was, it’s gotta be a blindside, apart from that, theres no one else i wouldnt want to be a goat with <3

Sarah: I loved being able to connect with you and see how you think game wise. We are very similar when it comes to our game play but I just am a little bit more crazy. You were fun to work with and you made me laugh at how honest you were. It was much appreciated which is why I want to return the favour to you whenever you wish! 

[survivor-marianas-trench]

“I TOOK A PHOTO WITH AN ONCOMING TRAIN!!!” - EPISODE 2

Me not being first boot??? *NUT BUTTON MEME* Amanda slaying and staying??? *NUT BUTTON MEME* Carson going and me, Liana, Christine, Lily, and Sam still being here even though we aren't officially aligned???? *NUT BUTTON MEME*

Ahhh me and kait did that i didnt expect it, im not sure how everything worked ut but it was wild whew, so many votes, im wary of kait cause she mightve lied to me but im hoping i can trust her

i only sent 1 pic for immunity so then i get lowest and i have chance of getting to cave or exile or whatever the heck and then hopefully i get idol and win the whole game woohoo

Well, that was a messy af tribal but it worked! I mean after the hell I went through, voting rob, then voting Amanda, then voting daisy only to find out I was too late and had to stick with rob! Like wtf. And for daisy to go home on a 3-2-1-1-1 with 2 null votes.  Like ok. And now we have a selfie olympics!!! Currently I'm sitting pretty with a 30% advantage in the challenge and 84 photos of things with the beginning letter for M or T!!!! I really would like to win this and stay immune for as long as humanly possibly lol. These tribals are messy right now because loyalties are just being formed Speaking of loyalties!! AMANDA!! I already love her #ThanksAHud! And I'm so glad that we are buddies! I'm just hoping that things work out for the both of us

That vote was a mess it seemed on Rob and Kait's tribe. Glad they stayed and Christine survived too. I'm not surprised Kait's tribe already voted for her, meanwhile the rest of us are sitting over here like: https://68.media.tumblr.com/894a6591ab3e2d171e8fec5d31ecbaeb/tumblr_omkup57QeN1r1gu3po1_400.gif

So Darian wins immunity.... https://media2.giphy.com/media/Rhhr8D5mKSX7O/200.webp#6 but I am also like  https://media0.giphy.com/media/IqO3mXbMLztHa/200.webp#4 See, I love Darian, but the issue is, I'm not sure if i can trust him, so he sort of needs to go soon,  but I see him sort of clean sweeping these immunities and that makes me a little worried honestly. I don't know what to expect this time around, and I am about to start sweating.... https://media0.giphy.com/media/VB5WwlZIt8eRy/200.webp#1

I'm a mess *takes a shot of vodka* I had 125 photos and forgot to turn them in. I TOOK A PHOTO WITH AN ONCOMING TRAIN! 

This feeling around camp has been so strange and I'm not sure if it's because I won or just because every tribal isn't gonna be the same. I had more people talking to me for the first tribal like right after results were posted and serious game talk with the whole tribe. Yesterday night only Sam, Lily, Christine and Dan messaged me but we didn't even talk game. (Well I guess that's about the same amount of people, but like the conversations were less in depth like they were the first time.) I just feel aimless in this game and I don't really have a good strategy. I'm not even sure I want to make it far because it always gets ugly once you get far enough. Lily just solidified our alliance of 4 (Dan, me, Sam, and her) and I think it'll be easy enough to ride it out with them for a while. I'm wary because I don't have anyone I'm really close to (because these are people I usually don't play with!) so I kinda feel like I'm on the bottom. Lily and Dan seem to closest and I know in the past Sam will have multiple close allies and not necessarily stay loyal to one overall. Kelsey freaking randomly disappeared again! If anything I'd trust him a bunch because he's new and I can influence him more easily probably into giving me information and voting with me, but I can't do that with this weird continued activity/inactivity. Might he actually be a catfish? We will never know. Also!! Silly Gabby and Jonny having too much fun in One World last night. I knew Jonny was in Rakiura but that's basically it. Now I know they know each other irl probably thanks for the tea y'all!! (ricky, goodness, you have too many friends in this game since I'm pretty sure you know sara irl too with all these Washington/barista coincidences!)

Moments later...

Oh! Yeah I forgot to mention that I'm trying to get the tea about the loser place since unfortunately I did not lose. I'm not close to Veronica (as in I have not talked to her since Day 1) so I have low chances of finding out from her, but I talked to Billy last night and asked him to ask Chrissa about it. Though he said earlier how he's not close to Chrissa so I'll probably end up asking her myself! :/ Since I don't plan on going to loser place, I need to make friends with everyone who goes so they can give me all of their idols/advantages...or at least agree with me on how to use them!!

I want Sam gone!!!

Why was I stupid enough to pick the thing that makes me inelegible to compete in challenges? I'm an idiot. 

so i don't know how to vote this round and no one is talking! like are you guys serious omg 

Sorta feeling indifferent about the challenge I tried super hard! But either way congrats to all that won! Someone had like 100ish I think I saw? Oh hellll no girl doing the most. Nervous for trible tonight it'll be my first! I don't think I'm going home though, I talked to Jordan and he said hunter because he didn't submit anything for the challenge and is pretty quiet. I don't even know the kid but as long as it's not me ya know! TBH if it had been my decision I would have voted Julia. The girl has "I love being beautiful" or some shit like that as her fucking quote on skype like ew girl your hella extra. 

i like kait and amanda

I'm just like so over Sam so I'm trying to get him out as revenge for Eddie. Fake ass. If I can't get him out in Emathia, might as well get him out here.

20 minutes later...

My allies are Rhea, Kait, and Darian (even if he did vote for me). I like Emma but I know she's probably upset about the first vote. Sam and Steven, you can go. I can try and bring in Andie and Amanda close to me, but it will be fishy to do it now. That's on my tribe. I like Jenn too, and Sam, and Shea <3. You never know in this game, I might go out, but I think my position in the tribe may increase? I can see it. I love Rhea so much. She's the purest cinnamon roll I've ever met. <3 100%

OKAY! So now that I actually have time, I've been talking to people on my tribe a lot more. I've been talking to Billy, Chrissa, Jonny and Gabby and they all are reasonable people. Whilst talking with them we talked about how Hunter is pretty inactive in the game and that we could look at him as a potential first boot from the tribe. The whole twist of us being in One World and only have individual immunity has kind of flipped the entire game on it's head. Usually, weaker members of the tribe are targeted because they're a liability but weaker players don't really matter as much this season because tribal immunity exists. Which means that people that are stronger in challenges may start to be targeted to give those weaker people a better chance at winning individual. Honestly, good job Ricky and Monty because I've never seen this before and it's kind of fun. 

Well I didn't win the last challenge... My document glitched and I lost most of my pictures, but the fact that I would have won still keeps me going!

Kait is the best duo every she cuts the shit and gets right to the point and we murder everyone together its so fun. That being said I can't wait until i get to a point where i can work with my loves Luke and Dan. Also im going out and ACTUALLY having a social life so this is all the updates youre getting from me tonight! Wooooo

i cant believe i worked to get a self vote when i already had one like the FUCK why do bad things happen to slightly nice people 

I literally don't know what's happening bc I've been gone all day bc it's spring break, but I know I'm not going so BLESS

Well. Officially in an alliance with dan, Sam, and Liana. I love it. We are called the game changers but I wonder if everyone is doing that right now. Veronica should be going tonight, but I question if it should be shea. But I think Veronica is a good vote right now and shea would be better for the following vote. I don't know honestly if either goes it doesn't matter too much to me. I love this whole tribe but someone has to go. 

I confess to shovin a whole bag a jellybeans up my ass.

so basically this round i lost immunity again but idc bc i know these ho's and they not gonna do anything... I hope. So basically the plan was for veronica to throw immunity and get last so she could go on the reward and scout it out for steven and i bc us 3 r in a alliance. she did but she got a self vote. basically everyone wanted to vote veronica but bc of sheas fight with carson we r voting shea. i feel bad bc i like shea but i cant lose veronica this early. i put my neck out on the line so if i get sent home ill be sad but ill def understand why

ALLL RIGHT so this round i haven't done much/heard anything BUT IM WATCHING BAYKOR WILSON PLAY MUSIC AT JONNY FAIRPLAYS BIRTHDAY PARTY AND THE DEAD GRANDMA IS HERE 

My drunk ass needs to write a confessional in the next hour oops!! I hope that Veronica goes but apparently it's either Veronica or Shea. I just really hope it's not me. My tribe is quiet as fuck so I have no clue what's really hoping. Here's hoping my drunk ass makes it through 

i'm dead @ finding the idol. my goal is to idol liana out i think that'd be a boppin time, but for now i just wanna like continue not really doing a whole lot and let rob keep being out there on everyone's radar while i just say that no one talks to me so i can get more tea from them bc they think i'm in their back pocket. voting sam tonight.............i'm poppin' bottles! nah idrc about him leaving, he never talks to me and it's always like really forced when i go out of my way every fucking time to start a conversation with him. it's just really frustrating like i hate this tribe so much. social game says hello, freaks! i kinda hate having the idol because it's so much pressure to like play it at the right time and premerge is so delicate, especially with so many people and with me not really having a TIGHT alliance i just whew.

I think I'm going :( no ones socializing with me. Billy is just a cop out, says he doesn't want to throw out a name. Pssstt

My, my, my. What a LOVELY week this has been. So currently, our tribe is back at it again with dat council swag. I didn't do well in immunity, like I knew I would. However, if anyone can win, I'm very glad Miss Moana SNATCHED the title. Last tribal council, I flopped. I was inactive and that's unacceptable so this week I'm really pushing myself to be a deciding factor force like Ariana Grande deciding to snatch weaves when she breathes. With my reputation currently, I don't think people really assume that I even have it in me to be strategic. Little do THEY know...they are wrong. AHAHAHAHAHAHHAA. Now, Seamus has informed me that the vote is Shea. However, Seamus is a GOOBER. Shea and I have really become close and the fact that Seamus literally pms me to vote Shea BEFORE asking me how I am shows his inner Kesha: his True Colours. I don't really like the fact that Seamus is just treating me like a free vote because I know what his intention. I already can smell that he wants to drag me as a cute, innocent vote until he makes the merge with his best friends and takes me out. THAT'S going to be a no zone. Although that is the persona I'm going for, I feel like Seamus already has suuuuch a big plan for getting to the end and...I'm not a part of that. And if you're going to count me out, henny, count on getting to stepping. Or something exotic like that, tee hee~! I feel really nervous for Shea. I told her that Seamus was wanting to eliminate her and she immediately almost spoiled everything. She's an emotional player and that's the kind of I want to keep around. Those are the ones who never see through my fakeness and the kind that are targeted before good ol' sweetheart me. The only other option is Veronica so for this week, I'm going to try and flip a few people to do so. The last vote was so unified that it's quite scary actually...if things keep going the way they are, I have no doubt that eventually it'll be my log chopped by the axe. My advantage for this week's vote is that no one really has a reason NOT to trust me. With Veronica, they KNOW she's a scrappy player. And I believe I can use that to my advantage. Y'all don't know me, y'all don't know what I've been through! And NO ONE is going to believe that cutesy little Arianator weeabo is pulling strings. I learned from my past Tumblr competitions that playing aggressively gets out fast. I know now playing passively gets you treated like a child. Here...everything has to be subtle. Small little touches, here and there. And if you do enough of that, maybe the trickle of water can erode the rock. That's what I'm hoping to do here. If somehow, we can do the impossible, not only will I establish myself as a real C.O.M.P.E.T.I.T.O.R in this tribe, but I'll have pulled off a blindside that's really shocking and game changing. Maybe it's a bit too early to be calling shots...but I've got to do something. I think people already have caught on to the fact that something's afoot and the alarms are already blaring. I'm past the point of no return, so even if I wanted to, I can't allow myself to have regrets! I carry the name of a queen of BBCAN and a king of The Vampire Diaries. I'm here to slash throats, save my family and wear ugg boots. And hopefully...this is the start of something legendary~! Wish me luck, darlings! Certainly sincerely, Canada's Self-Proclaimed Favourite; Kelsey Mikaelson! <3

ALRIGHT...So I'm really hoping Shea goes this tribal cause like....He can't be chill for one second in this game.  Literally the plan was to get Veronica out but once he hears his name he quits? C'mon now.. Don't even get me started on Kelsey telling him his name was thrown out cause like!?!? We're doing that so no one gets in trouble here why are you doing this!?!? I just don't understand Kelsey like I really wanted to like her but...She's on thin ice at this point. I just hope this isn't a ploy and something goes wrong but I guess we'll see!

So like wtf is happening, cause I don't have a clue. I'm loyal to Emma and I guess maybe Rhea. Idk Rhea just talks to me sometimes but right now that is good enough for me. Right I'm just waiting for a tribe swap so we can stop going to tribal every round