#on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on (and on)

[breadallburnt]

the clarity is worse than the fuzz when it brings about aches aches aches and i cant even pin down what for but its so strong it almost burns, a never ending fire made personal hell without any source or drive or motive or point, no way to end it only to start it as i melt down down hot burning burning and just like that its gone but it lingers and waits and i can still feel it in my chest and i just cant figure out why. the blurring makes it all so difficult to recall cant even remember yesterday or the day before or the day before and before and before and the fuzz is warm and pulling but it is painful to think of when not encased in it and so i lay alone in a bed too big for just me and i dont know what to do