pttucker · 1 year ago
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He realized that, if he were to get to the end of all the scenarios, he needed to kill off his emotions, that he must not live his life. And so, he decided to become not 'Yoo Joonghyuk', but the 'Regressor', instead. The fourth time, fifth… The timelines that he might've had experienced, but a certain someone's unexpected words stopped him from regressing again. – Being able to regress at any time is the same as having no meaning in 'dying' anymore. However, there being no meaning in dying is the same thing as the value of living disappearing, too. – Yoo Joonghyuk, you need to wake up. What I'm saying here is that, don't mistakenly believe that things will get better by repeating them over and over again. That was why Yoo Joonghyuk chose not to regress. He gave up on several new 'lives' where he could've started off from a higher vantage point while possessing more useful information than before.
The Yoo Joonghyuk of the 3rd turn knew all those information of the future he hadn't yet lived already. 『Han Sooyoung – Records of the 1863rd turn (First)』 『Han Sooyoung – Records of the 1863rd turn (Last)』 It was all thanks to the records from the 1863rd turn in the distant future that he might have gotten to experience if he lived as the story originally intended for him.
[Demon King of… Sal… va… tion!] Indeed, he'd have left this place were it not for those words. Yoo Joonghyuk hesitated for a little bit, before approaching the half-open cocoon. Michael, still not fully alive yet, lay in a defenseless sleep inside the shell.
Yoo Joonghyuk faced off against the gaze falling from the sky and spoke. "…I've told you this before, haven't I? I shall be the one to kill Kim Dokja. Stop your unnecessary actions." The sky didn't say anything else in return. Yoo Joonghyuk sheathed his sword and his steps hurried after the trail of fragments scattered around the forest.
Unfortunately, even before I could fully open my mouth, someone else's voice interrupted me. "His goal is to see the end of a certain insignificant story." Icy-cold rage thickly permeated that voice. And I knew that voice better than anyone.
I'm getting such weird vibes from these.
Like, I do think that Joonghyuk is angry and upset. He's thinking about all of the information that would have made everyone's lives easier, would have made his life easier, if Dokja had shared everything right from the beginning (or as soon as he safely could without constellations spying on them), is thinking about the fact that it's all rightfully his information taken from his story and he would have eventually learned it if he'd allowed himself to regress and get better and better. He'd have been able to experience those things rather than Dokja getting a free pass and just reading about them and living them safely in his head.
But he's also thinking about how he decided to kill off his emotions and lose himself entirely to regression, and Dokja made him, Yoo Joonghyuk, not the Regressor, live again. Which is generally something that most people would consider to be a good thing???
And him killing Michael feels really strange. Like it says that he hesitated for a little bit, like he was thinking something over, and then he killed him and made this big show of saying it's because Dokja's death belongs to him? idk, "hesitation" doesn't really seem to fit Joonghyuk's personality, especially not angry Joonghyuk. In fact, everything in the entire novel has pointed to the exact opposite.
Like, the dude threw Dokja off a bridge into a monster within five minutes of meeting him, killed Sooyoung's avatar immediately after deciding she wasn't giving him the answers he wanted, has killed pretty much every other person the instant their death suited his goals, not to mention 1863rd Joonghyuk also immediately attempted to kill Dokja...
I might be overly hopeful and naive but I'm more getting the vibe that he's trying to stop Michael from coming after Dokja again as a form of protection and is lying to Eden about his motives to keep them away for now.
But at the same time he really does seem like he's seething over Dokja having secretly stolen his life from him. Especially when we think back on all the times Joonghyuk was willing to sacrifice himself to save Dokja because he thought Dokja was the one to save the world...and now he knows it's because Dokja was basically stealing his spot in the novel.
So... idk.
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