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modern-alebrije · 1 year

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that last post reminded me that last week i wad thinking a lot about my grandma, and how her last words to me had been through the phone over thousands of miles apart. she'd been intubated, and i couldn't understand anything she said. i was 10 going on 11, and we'd been in the US for a few years by then, so when we spoke for that last time, it'd been a few years since we'd been in the same room together.

and so i kept thinking about how i never got the chance to get know her as an adult person, just as my grandma. everything new i've learned about her since has been through the people in my life who knew her. when i got my promotion at work, when i went to kansas for a work conference, i wish i could've told her about it.

i remember lying to her, that last time we spoke on the phone, saying "yes grandma" as if i knew what she was saying. i can't remember what her voice sounded like anymore. the last thing i ever said to her was how much i loved her.

#death mention #damn... grief really isn't something you ever get over #you just learn to live with it #and it sneaks up on you every now and then #anyways i hope this post isnt too much of a bummer #but i really wanted to share it because i know that i feel better when i read about how other people live on after the death of a loved one #she passed from thyroid cancer so her death wasn't unexpected #that phone call was made specifically to speak for the last time #and i kind of hate that i didnt get to understand her final words

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