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ronon-dex · 6 months

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b'elanna hugging janeway in barge of the dead r u fcking kidding me......... this desperation for a mother, for someone who loves her with the unconditional adoration of a parent........ she says in the beginning after putting her life in danger to retrieve machinery "we only have one multi-spatial probe" and janeway retorts "we only have one b'elanna torres"...... screaming TELL ME WHO YOU WANT ME TO BE and janeway says "we only want you"

#why does every b'elanna ep have me in the fetal position #b'elanna torres #kathryn janeway #st voy #star trek: voyager #star trek #star trek voyager #st voyager #voyager #b'elanna is fascinating to me bc she is the greyest character in the show in terms of who she is and what she wants #she goes to 'hell' and ends up in a version of voyager #and the hell versions of her friends taunt her for that and she says she doesn't think of the ship as hell #and fake neelix laughs and says are you sure?#she loves tom but in this ep harry is the one defending him from b'elanna's emotional distance not himself #she trusts chakotay with the details of her spiritual chaos over tom. he's the one she trusts with everything. not tom #she would give up her life and soul for her klingon mother but spouts racist comments about klingons that make everyone else uncomfortable #idolises the human father who left her. identifies herself as a klingon. self harms when grieving.#claims to not speak klingon but knows culturally significant phrases.#there's this immense gulf between what she wants and what she's doing most of the time. it's wild #like she loves tom but is she in love with him?#does she despise klingons or just herself?#the whole crew i think has some hatred for voyager somewhere in the back of their minds. even faintly. even secretly. bc it's their prison #but I think b'elanna in particular has a slight itching revulsion for it because she can't run away from it like she did everything else #a quality. interestingly enough. that she shares with tom #like it's abt the parallels. the contrasts.#like lemme break out a word document real quick...........

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