#so many thoughts this morning i'm scared of the near future too now cheers ✌️ | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

deadrlngers · 2 years

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literally losing it as we approach graduation day and while yea ofc i'm incredibly happy of reaching this point it still gives me some anxiety to do the presentation but mainly the concept itself that everything is going to change from that day on. i will not be a student anymore which is smth i've been all my life and i don't have a job and just,,what will i be then what's my place in the world what contribution i'm giving what's my identity what's-I'M LOSING IT SO BAD

#rena.txt #i know the main purpose of this upcoming year of break from uni is to actually find a job & hoard money so i can pay for my master degree #but idk idk i feel so... it's funny that i feel such a failure on the brink of owning a degree skfkskf it's just that. idk having a future #in italy feels like smth unreachable. my field is like the most pissed on in italy skfksk saying it straight. and finding a job in general #is so difficult and they never pay you enough and just the job world in italy is smth so scary and like fuck change fuck change fuck change #and i'll also meet my other best friend again since he's coming for my graduation and i'm a bit anxious..everyone is asking me so.. what's #going to happen this time..? BRO!! AS IF I KNOW!! as if i know that things finally changed with him!! would i just let myself go? i would #love to. and yet. and yet it feels like i don't have the right to do so after what i told him last time we met. UGHHH CHANGE MY DETESTED #so many thoughts this morning i'm scared of the near future too now cheers ✌️

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