#so now we're back at square 1 bc theyre monogamous akdhdhsjfj | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

moonlust-demon · 1 year

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My desire for sex rn isnt even out of horniness, it's out of longing for someone to desire me and want to engage with my sexuality and care about me in that way. I've had trouble embracing my own pleasure in the past and every time I see a post or movie or story about people having good sex I am filled with wistfulness. I want to be wanted, and I want someone to care about my pleasure as much as I'd care about theirs.

#dust speaks #delete later #maybe?#idk lol #anyways i am feeling feelings #ive contemplated downloading grinder but that place is apparently a genuine hellscape #ya boy is fuckin tired #and my anxiety is Not helpful when it comes to talking to people and making friends #also im like 99.9% sure that im just full blown aromantic at this point #and i really dont wanna get into a relationship #but in the past thats what people have wanted from me #ik there are people out there who will be fine with just being fwb #ive done that before it was great but then they both got in a relationship with each other lol #so now we're back at square 1 bc theyre monogamous akdhdhsjfj #and im ace and i need to be friends with someone before i'd be even remotely comfortable fucking them #so that's another obstacle bc making friends takes so long and is exhausting #i hate dating apps bc i always chicken out of going on dates for some reason or another #i get so fuckin nervous

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