#til that it's heeseung not heesung

[escapizm]

“죽지 못한 괴물이 돼가

하지만 이젠 내가 뭘 해야 하는지 알아, 알아”

“Becoming a monster that can't die

But now I know what I have to do, I know"

- Enhypen, “Fate”

[junko-and-riri-domain]

im just a fan | l.hs

“I stayed up 'til five in the morning Couldn't sleep in case you would reply I'm sorry for the missed calls Loved the nights, and all your secrets Stuck in bed but soarin' through the sky I wish that we would still talk”

“ur just a fan” by suggi

❦ genre: lee heeseung x reader, angst 

❦ warnings: this is sad? (if there are any other warnings that I missed and need to be placed please let me know!)

❦ note: this is written in the reader’s side, Heeseung’s side linked @ bottom 

Looking at your phone, the time marked 5:42 am greeted your sight. With a slight sigh, you couldn’t sleep with what felt like the millions of thoughts running through your mind. As you looked up at the ceiling, a sort of buzz filled your body due to the combination of exhaustion and slight fear. It had been a long time since you last saw your now ex-boyfriend and things didn’t exactly end on the best of terms. Was it 2 months since you broke up now? You were happy for him, you really were. But with his newfound success and busy schedule that came with it, you didn’t fit in anymore. The breakup with Heeseung was a sort of mutual agreement between the two of you and while it was neither of your faults, that didn’t make it hurt any less. A month ago, when your ENHYPEN album gifted to you by Heeseung, came, the reality of your break up truly settled in you,

Flashback

Looking at the package now sitting on your desk,

“Staring at it isn’t going to open it,” you muttered to yourself with a slight sigh. Knowing who it was from, you didn’t expect for it to actually show up here yet here it was like a bomb waiting to blow up. Heeseung had gifted you both the dusk and dawn versions of border: day one and while it’s been a month since the two of you last talked and Heeseung’s existence wasn’t exactly avoidable when it was all over your social media feeds and on ads. You opened the album, expecting randomized photocards since that was how all albums were. What you saw wasn’t what you were expecting when the two photocards were of Heeseung, both with a message written on the back, dated exactly a day before you broke up.

The Dusk Version:

Dear y/n,

Hey babe, when you see this it means that our album came out (obviously) and this one is yours. The staff let us choose someone to send an album to with photos we specifically picked out and I choose my photos for yours so you don’t forget me >:) As you’re reading this, I’m probably in the practice room with the other guys practicing for the concert that I put 3 tickets at the bottom of the album too. I’m sorry that I couldn’t be here with you but know that I love you.

The Dawn Version.

Your one and only,

Heedungie

P.s. if I am here and you’re reading this just pretend I didn’t write that whole paragraph, please and thank you.

Tears streamed down your face before you even knew it and you knew that you and Heesung didn’t have a chance of getting back together when you were the one who shut him out.

End flashback

A notification banner showed up on your phone to an event that you forgot you even typed into your phone.

“hee’s concert <3” you titled the event. It was later tonight and you set the notification to remind you early in the morning. Deciding that it wouldn’t do any good to waste the concert tickets and you previously decided to go with best friends, they didn’t know that you had any connection to Heeseung and you were going to honor the agreement. They came over, all of you getting dressed up and ready to head to the concert. Once there and in the front right section thanks to the tickets Heeseung got for you just before you broke up. You couldn’t help yourself when you sang along to the songs because you knew all the lyrics as if they were second nature. When the “Let Me In” performance started, things were going ok until Heeseung’s eyes met your own as you heard him sing the very line you were dreading,

“I’ll be your boyfriend,” his voice filled the arena and your heart sank to the bottom of the Pacific Ocean. There was no way he was looking at you, not when there were thousands of people surrounding you.

“I’m just a fan,” you thought to yourself.

|❦ story end, written by riri| |heeseung’s side| |blog master list|