#trying not to have anger issues too bc i'm frustrated af!!!!

[butchwheels]

feeling. like a nuisance. relying on ppl a lot right now physically and financially til my carpal tunnel surgery in november (hopefully) bc obv as a wheelchair person i can't do much w/o my hands. i feel like i keep fawning and going all meek and having to be extra grateful and be as small as possible and as pleasing as i can be all the fcking time and it's so exhausting. feeling like a burden. and when someone helps me but is visibly grumpy about it i literally want to explode. like my self worth falls down the drain and i want to disappear. i just want my autonomy back so bad. i'm losing my mind