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Im actually excited for my kalimba to get here

I dont usually feel excitement for things like this

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going to attempt to dismantle some parts of my life through journalling to figure out why i’m so avoidant of reality

i kinda… refuse to believe that i’m just “like this”

i also believe myself to suffer from anhedonia outside of daydreaming, which is difficult.

i just impulse bought an electric guitar and a kalimba. the kalimba arrives earlier so i can start having fun with it pretty much immediately. the guitar will only arrive in june, it’s a full set to get started. i have a lot of energy to daydream and i suppose i have a theory that… listening to music is a pleasurable experience that triggers daydreams, so logically if i was playing the music myself then the daydream outlet could hopefully be cut off because of my focus whilst the satisfaction of music remains. it might be a stretch but i think we’ve all heard stories of the predominantly hyperactive adhders getting into music which helps them channel some restlessness. i have predominantly inattentive so i just hope it works the same.

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hi, welcome to undaydream

please read this rentry if you plan on following

basics:

#undaydream.txt is my personal thoughts/journal

#undaydream.guide is my plan to stop the severity of MaDD’s impact on my life

#undaydream.mp3 is anything relating to music

#undaydream.pdf is anything relating to language learning