#venti-tsari(unpiety). you're going to soak up lies; and spit out new ones; aren't you?

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-- the insult hurts more than it should. she’s more upset about him insulting Rosa though. “ don’t speak to me of taste from your throne of dirty rats. you’re much uglier - in appearance and personality. “ 

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-- why not!!! she wants Klee!!

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@unpiety

-- I only stole yours because you deserved the kick in the stomach. the rest I got fairly. they’re not stolen.

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“ am i real or am i dying ? “ lyubov !

inside | x

“ You’re real, Venti. And you’re everything I adore. “ She speaks, tone soft, loving, caring. She knows it’s not mutual, but that’s okay. She can come to terms with that. She just wishes they were as close as they used to be again.

“ Can I.. help you? Somehow? “ She really wishes she was of help to Venti. But she always feels like she made it worse.

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❝ i wouldn’t take it personal. it’s just that they don’t like you. ❞   talking about the wind @ lyubov cjskxmszm

our flag means death | x

“ ... that feels very personal. Considering they’re yours. “ She frowns, looking down, crossing her arms. That was very personal. And it really shouldn’t be something her country should have to suffer under. The winds are so cruel in Snezhnaya, and sometimes she doesn’t understand why.

“ You’re awful. “

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[  KISS  ]  for  venti  to  kiss  lyubov ( even though it doesn’t mean anything to him. for the drama … pls don’t beat me up cnsnxnsnd )  

Pinned against the wall | x

[ KISS ]:     sender pins receiver against the wall and kisses them passionately.

She--, oh, she’s suddenly forgotten all her anger. All the anger that bubbled inside of her simmered down immediately, instantly more tears slip down her cheeks, and she remembers why she missed kissing him so bad. 

But it tastes so bitter, like it’s poisoned, she knows Venti doesn’t mean it, and he’s just playing with her, isn’t he? He enjoyed toying with her heart, he never took it seriously when she broke down and cried because he was all that ever brought her happiness anymore, yet she made him feel nothing of such.

Lyubov sobs into the kiss, small fingers trembling as they ball, her legs suddenly feel so weak, sure that the only reason she’s still standing is because Venti is pressing her against the wall.

Despite all this, she can’t resist kissing back, her face doesn’t stop getting redder, and she can’t push him away, she loves him too much, she loves him too much, she loves him too much.

The taste of his lips was nothing but bitter through her tears, but maybe, for a moment, she could pretend it was genuine. Maybe, for a moment, she could believe that Venti actually loved her, and she’d finally no longer be alone.

It’s a futile hope, she knows too, but when she’s being kissed so passionately, all she wishes was that it was true. She wishes, she wishes she wasn’t tasting tears in the kiss, she wishes that if there were tears, they were happy. 

It feels like an eternity until Venti pulls away again. And she cries. She gasps, staring at him with big eyes “ V-ven? “, before tears overwhelm her, and she buries her face in her hands, cheeks a burning red, and she finally falls, sliding down the wall to curl up.

Lyubov wipes at her eyes frantically, sobbing like a child. She can’t do this. She can’t do this why does he do this to her. Why does he do this to her. Everytime she thinks she’s over him, he comes back, and he exists, and all he needs to do is smile and her heart is intoxicated all anew.

He’s so cruel. No, he’s not cruel, it’s not- It’s- she- oh she’s such a mess. She’s crying so much. She hugs her knees, burying her face in them, wishes it’d stop her tears. Wishes it’d make her disappear. “ W--aa... ah, v-venti.. “ She finally gasps out inbetween sobs, desperately running her fingers through her hair, as she manages to look up at him again. “ W-what are you doing.. “ Does he just enjoy breaking her heart so much? 

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“ what do you expect from me? ” tsaritsa!

Failure to comply | x

“ All I ever wanted was an explanation. A clear answer. “ Venti never stopped speaking in riddles, and rhymes, and it pissed her off. Never did she genuinely feel taken seriously by him, even when she’s crying and breaking down and demanding a honest answer, it’s like he doesn’t know himself. ( and he probably doesn’t. )

But she’s given up on that. “ But I don’t care anymore. I don’t want anything from you anymore. I don’t even want you dead anymore. Just leave me alone. “ It’s not that easy, she knows that. She can’t even leave him alone either, she always comes back for more, she always keeps crying and clinging, because she doesn’t know who she is without him. She needs him so bad, and she hates that she does. 

Maybe one day she’ll get over him. Today isn’t the day, and tomorrow won’t be either. And it’s okay.

“ Я тебя ненавижу. I’m done with you. “

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❝  you dangle on the leash of your own longing; your need grows teeth.  ❞ tsaritsaa

Misc poetry | x

“ Poetic. “ She laughs mockingly, hands balling into fists angrily. She’s so tired of his dumb, poetic rhymes. He’s never taking anything serious - or if he is, it always feels like he’s making fun of her. 

“ Not for you. “ Not for him - not for Venti any longer. She’s tired of allowing herself to be controlled by her feelings for him. She’s not over him, she doesn’t think she’ll ever be capable of doing that, but at the very least she’s capable of putting her foot down. 

“ Never for you. “ Lyubov scowls. “ I don’t need you. I wanted you. “

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❛ i’m here to drink alone. ❜ / a drunk venti for lyubov ;-;

random dialogue | x

“ When aren’t you? “ She sighs, playing with her glass in her hand. She really wishes they could stop running into each other, but she also keeps doing it to herself. So she didn’t really hope they’d stop running into each other, she just hopes that next time she met him he’d be different. Maybe he’d change.

He doesn’t. But Lyubov always wishes.

“ So am I. Drink your drink. I didn’t even talk to you. “

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mains tag drop?

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“ it’s  a  little  more  complicated  than  that . “ tsaritsa ! sorry if i’m sending too much cjsnxmsm

Moon knight | x

He keeps saying that, but she doesn’t get it. She doesn’t get it. She doesn’t get why it’s so complicated to him. He completes her, and yet it’s not mutual, and she doesn’t understand why that’s the case, at all. She doesn’t get it.

“ .. -- okay. “ She says, she’s trembling. But she-- doesn’t argue? She balls her fists, she can’t stand still with how much she’s trembling, and she can’t look at him, but it’s okay. It’s okay.

It’s okay. She doesn’t need to get it. And he-- he doesn’t need to love her.

“ okay. I’m sorry. “ She says, her voice so small, like she just shrunk. But it’s okay. It’s okay. Her chest is heaving, she can’t breathe. It’s obviously not okay. But she doesn’t want to cause him any more harm.