#wait im out of space. continuing in next post. im just rambling dont mind me

[tsukasa-and-hikaru]

((A quick SubaTsuka fanfic I wrote at dinner, under the cut. Post MMSF1 fluff.))

A quiet and muggy atmosphere seemed to settle all over Dream Island. Tsukasa gripped his Wave Scanner tightly, staring intently at the blinking vertical line in the message box. He had tried to sum up his emotions in a quick three word message, an “i love you”, but that left too much to the imagination. He’d had to delete paragraphs of rambling text that was clearly trying too hard to be casual. It was nearing his fifth attempt to compose a love letter of sorts that could stand on it’s own and get across everything he wanted to say.

“hey subaru, i just wanted to get something off my chest ive been meaning to tell you for a while”

Tsukasa stared for a moment, before Hikaru spoke up. “Are you gonna go through with it? If you aren’t willing to go through with sending it, then there’s no point in writing it.”

“im sorry im not able to tell you in person, but i dont know when i’ll have the courage to tell you again”

Pausing, Tsukasa looked over it again. Everything seemed okay so far. “I’m going to tell him, Hikaru. I have to tell him.”

“i dont know how you feel about me, i know we havent been on the best terms since hikaru and i betrayed you”

Tsukasa flinched, there had to be a way to say that less explicitly. “It’s true, though.” Hikaru chimed in. Tsukasa erased that part and tried again.

“i dont know how you feel about me. i know we havent spoke much since you came back from space, but i wasnt lying back then about wanting to stay friends.”

“Friends, huh?” Hikaru teased, to Tsukasa’s embarrassment. “You wanna be friends with him, right? Friends that happen to bang sometimes?” Tsukasa felt his face grow warm, and tried to ignore him and focus on the text.

“but for a while now ive realized that ive been misunderstanding my own emotions, and i dont want you to feel pressured to reciprocate, but”

Tsukasa hesitated. Almost done. Just spell it out, then hit send. Nothing more.

“im in love with you, subaru”

His thumb hesitated over the “Send” button. Maybe this wasn’t the right time. Maybe..

Tsukasa blinked, and looked down. He had sent it. What..? “You can’t back out now, Tsu.” Hikaru said, grinning.

“N-no..” Tsukasa felt a chill run up his spine, and his stomach turned. “Hikaru, I wasn’t ready! What if he ignores us from now on?!” Tears were forming against his will, and he threw his wave scanner onto his bed.

Tsukasa sat in silence for a few minutes before slowly picking his wave scanner back up and checking his notifications. The ‘sent’ message next to his text was replaced with ‘seen’. He felt as if his heart stopped. “Oh my god.” He whispered, a hand over his mouth.

He watched the three dots along the bottom of the screen, signifying that Subaru was replying. “Oh god, oh god. You shouldn’t have sent it. Oh my god, he’s gonna hate us.”

“Stop asking for me. I’m right here.” Gemini replied, though Tsukasa wasn’t in the mood to deal with his awful humor.

This continued for over twenty minutes, with occasionally the three dots popping back up, then disappearing again at random intervals. This had to be the worst kind of torture imaginable, Tsukasa confirmed. His stomach was twisted into a knot, and he felt his heart rate increase every time he got a notification, only for it to be a spam email or news alert.

He didn’t know how he’d done it, but apparently, he had nodded off during his waiting period, and slept through the night. The moment he awoke, he immediately realized his mistake. It was morning, a half hour before class started, and Subaru..

Tsukasa checked his wave scanner, but to his horror, it only showed ‘no battery’ on a black screen. “No..” He bit his lip, he didn’t know what to do, he had to see if Subaru had responded. He plugged in the scanner, but the light that usually indicated it was charging didn’t turn on. The damn cord had frayed.

“Agh.. I don’t have time for this! Gemini, i’m going to school!” He slung his bag over his shoulder and crammed his MP3 player into his pocket before hurrying out, leaving the FMian behind.

He sprinted to the nearest bus stop, barely managing to catch the bus to get to school on time. He began to get lost in thought during the ride, with the weight of both potential romance and Hikaru’s constant teasing on his mind. When the bus reached the stop, he hurried off, nerves frayed. He checked his MP3 player.. 12 minutes until homeroom. He felt some relief at not being late on top of it all, though he hadn’t yet found the one reason he even bothered coming to school.

“Ah-! Tsukasa!” Of course. Tsukasa tensed up instinctively and turned around, only to see Subaru jogging toward him. He felt himself blush, and steeled himself. “Showtime.” Hikaru mumbled, no longer joking.

“Subaru… Um..” Tsukasa began, but Subaru held a hand up to stop him.

“I’m sorry for whatever I said.” Subaru spoke, looking away, anxiously.  Tsukasa could only stare, confused. Seeing this, Subaru elaborated. “You never replied back, so I panicked.. I didn’t know if I said something wrong.”

Tsukasa stared another moment before snapping out of it. “No, I.. I fell asleep waiting for your reply. And my wave scanner died overnight.” He laughed nervously, and looked down. “But.. Um.. What did you think? I.. Didn’t see your reply. So…”

Subaru’s eyes widened, and Tsukasa noted that he must have been walking with Luna and her ‘friends’, since they were slowly approaching now, watching the two curiously. “You didn’t? Oh, well..” Subaru reached over, grabbing Tsukasa’s hand and smiling. “I feel the same way, Tsukasa.” He noted a faint blush on Subaru’s face and grinned, still in disbelief.

“R-Really? I.. I’m glad..” He replied weakly, now suddenly too embarrassed to speak. Subaru laughed gently and tugged Tsukasa along. “Let’s head to class.. You wanna come to my place after school?”

Unable to speak at the sudden offer, Tsukasa nodded quickly, squeezing Subaru’s hand gently and smiling. Hikaru was making some sort of lewd joke about the two, but somehow, it was easier to ignore him now.