#which i do. i genuinely get that paranoid. and y'all have done that about sexuality and gender | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

wolf-skins · 7 years

Text

my favourite part about r/df/ms and their whole “liberal mogai tumblr stops lesbians from feeling good and proud about loving women!!!” is that their bs is 100% the reason why i feel so boxed in with my own labels and that i have a genuine fear to the point of being terrified about potentially using the lesbian label.

and it’s not bc i’m worried about being lumped in with them. it’s bc i wouldn’t be a “real lesbian” in their eyes and they would 1000% come in droves for my neck if i did so, and that’s a fact.

but okay it’s everyone not a gatekeeper that ruins identities and lives and pride

i want y’all to be aware that when i joined tumblr way back in 2010/2011 as a 16 year old just discovering that i really really was gay and might be kicked out for it that it was “””””libfem mogai/mogii whatever”””” tumblr that made me feel safe, and happy, and proud and completely comfortable trying on and changing labels as i discovered myself.... and it’s only now with the gatekeepers screeching so much that i feel shame and guilt and self-hate.

so jump the fuck off this bullshit

#nothing was more liberating than queer tumblr for me as a kid #it's y'all who ruin it for everyone/#and i only feel comfortable /saying/ this out loud bc i am livid rn #chances are i'll have a freakout in a few minutes or an hour and delete this bc i am that scared and confused about using the lesbian label #for myself even just referencing about it terrifies me SO MUCH like it's reached peak paranoia levels which is... extreme #when i say paranoia i mean like irrational anxiety attacks like the looking over the shoulder at every minute thing #which i do. i genuinely get that paranoid. and y'all have done that about sexuality and gender #which is supposed to be liberating among out community pls pat yourselves on the backs for taking that away #our*#paranoia in the diagnostic sense. you have caused that for me in this regard.#the only other person who i am that level paranoid about/gave me that was an abuser. good job

2 notes · View notes