#why would I add Taylor swift to my murder guys playlist even if the line you drew stars around my scars and now I'm bleeding fits so well | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

p0rchc0ll4ps3 · 1 year

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Suddenly faced with the overwhelming crushing truth that I both don't get along with a lot of people (most everyone I don't get along with) and also I think completely differently than most people and my headspace is completley somewhere else and wow no matter how hard I try to talk people no one's gonna want to fuxking listen to me or no one's gonna care for my opinions or I think way too differently than anyone for anyone to want to try and get along with me so fuck me guess

I got a handful of friends ig I don't need anyone else to fucjing .. talk to ig but it's still kinda crushing to realize yeah the majority of the world wouldn't like you

#I'm half asleep lol #thinking about that playlist post like wow yeah #everyone's like omg I do this I add fifty songs to my oc list #meanwhile I'm over here like. being very very specific about shit and curating shit and trying my damndest to make sure each story and #each oc in that story has their own sound #to the point where I'll literally listen to new albums and music if it's a genre the oc likes #coz it literalky bothers me so much if the music for the oc is .. not music they'd listen to #why would I add Taylor swift to my murder guys playlist even if the line you drew stars around my scars and now I'm bleeding fits so well #like yes it's perfect but you have to understand his vibe is completely Marilyn Manson and sacrifices have to be made #like I'm so fucking specific with shut and so accurate and so focused on realism and I want to try and make my men feel as real as possible #and that includes knowing carnally what kind of noise they'd surround themselves in #even if it's music I don't like it's music they like and that's important to me #Idk I put too much effort into everything and not only does it alienate me but I literally don't get interaction from people other than my #closest inner circle etc #which is tiny coz I literally don't have any other circle #anybody outside of this circle probably would hate me or think I'm too much or like idk. I'd get mad at them or soemthign who knows #I putt too much effort into everything and it doesn't even get appreciated #hate it here #c4rg0f1l3s #ok now I pass out coz I'm sleepy

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