#you're always the most supportive and helpful to everyone in this community ❤︎

[dazaiscum]

I can't help but think of a scenario full of angst. Like, let's say the reader has been with Chuuya through a lot, been there when everyone left, was ready to drop everything when everyone made him the second choice. But the reader is quite unreachable at the same time because she's been into a relationship for as long as Chuuya can remember (bonus points if the reader is a bit older than him and very infliential in PM) and he quite had the crush on her for a long time. But the reader has a big fight with their s/o ("Oh, how ironic, You can't stand when I'm holding the gun, But baby, you drew first blood, The way you cursed us and then you had the nerve to call it love") and it's messy but they end up together? I hope it makes sense.

(again, I ENJOY YOUR WRITING TOO MUCH, YOU GOT ME ADDICTED, IT'S UNFAIR)

There for me

A/n note: I'm so glad you liked my writing, you always make my day! Im opening my requests so feel free to send in asks! ❤

Warnings: Cussing

Genre: Hurt/Comfort

Chuuya and you were very close. You were there for him when he needed you the most and he was there at your doorstep when you were in need of comfort.

Chuuya was grateful for you. He was thankful when you managed his subordinates in his absence, he was thankful when you handled Mori when he was in a bad mood, he was thankful when you stood up for him while everyone else made him the inferior.

Chuuya had a crush on you ever since he could remember but couldn't confess since you had a boyfriend.

It was safe to say that Chuuya hated your boyfriend with a burning passion. He hated you he was so controlling, he hated how he disrespected you, he hated how he isolated you from him, hated how he was always jealous, hated how he held grudges against you and would dismiss them after any act of intimacy.

Most importantly he hated how you would run infront of his house, tears streaming down your face all because of him. And he hated how this was one of those nights.

You and your boyfriend got into a huge, messy fight a few hours ago which explained your presence infront of chuuya's house.

"Where are you going?"

"Out with Chuuya and the others"

"No you're not, get inside"

"Uh, yes I am."

"Y/n I said this before and I will say it again, Get. Back. Inside."

"I will repeate what I said again too. I am going out with Chuuya and my friends and no I won't get inside. I already haven't seen them in a week cause of you,"

"Why do you even wanna go out with him? What are you gonna do, suck him off? Didn't know you were such a slut!"

At this point tears were pricking at the corner of your eyes after remembering every rude thing your boyfriend had said to you within the span of a month and then it hit you.

He was toxic.

You remembered every single toxic communication you to had, you remembered the lack of support, the resentment, patterns of disrespect, dishonesty and negetive financial behavior.

"You know what? Fuck you! Chuuya was there for me every single time I needed! He made me the way way I am today! He made me regain my composure when it went down because of you!! So go fuck yourself 'cause Chuuya has been more of a boyfriend then you will ever be!!"

Just like that you left the house, slamming the door shut when you were leaving, tears gushing down your beautiful pools of e/c.

Out in the streets in midnight, you went to the only place that came to your mind, the place you called home since forever and fortunately that place happened to be Chuuya's residence.

There you were, on his porch, crying and in the state hated you to be.

As soon as he opened the door you engulfed him in a hug, melting in his arms.

"Y--Y/n what happened?!"

"Had a fight with bf/n." You answer him truthfully.

Chuuya's jaw clenches as he wraps his arms around your torso, returning your hug.

Angry. Chuuya felt angry. Angry at your boyfriend for making you cry and angry at himself for not confessing to you sooner.

He sat you on the couch, went in his kitchen to heat some left overs and bought them to you.

"Here, open your mouth"

"I can eat by myself Chu" You say softly as he smiles at the nickname.

"Just open your mouth y/n"

With a sigh you complied to what he said as he began feeding you.

After finishing your food you leaned against Chuuya. Heat reached his cheeks and his heart rate increased as he wrapped his arm around you.

Chuuya felt upset seeing you like that. He just couldn't see the person he loved all sad.

"Y/n I don't know if this is the right time but" he began, still unsure.

"I like you. No. I love you and I hate seeing you like this all because of him and-" he continued but you interrupted him by placing your lips on his.

You both kissed under the dim light illuminating from the moon, beside the T.V that no one payed attention, cursing yourselves for not realizing this sooner, knowing that this was love.

Because Chuuya was the one there for you from the start...

@kushinadragneel idk if you wanted reader to end up with Chuuya or her boyfriend. If you see any mistakes pls message me and I'll change the fic :)

[fatqueerstyle]

I have a question. What advice would you have for someone trying to start making YouTube videos? I've been wanting to for awhile, but I don't know where to even start. I love you're stuff and have been following your blog for a couple of years now. I'm so happy you decided to start making videos again. ❤

I’m going to make this public to share with everyone! I find it so lovely that you mentioned I’ve starting making videos again- I have sooo many videos I’ve hidden after a rebranding of sorts, but I appreciate you being with me for so long!! I dont know how many people can say the same!

Anyway, onto videos! The absolute hardest part for me wasn’t the equipment, or the time, although those were important barriers for a while. Once I started a full time job I bought this camera which is popular among vloggers but I use it as my main video camera and it does a fine job! I also have Adobe Creative Cloud bc I can afford it and use Premiere Pro for editing, but honestly you can use an iPhone and Windows Movie Maker or iMovie and still make awesome vids!

The absolute hardest part, for me, was feeling like people cared about what I had to say. I really didn’t think my voice mattered or that making videos would make a difference or be successful. Getting over that fear of failure was basically saying “fuck it” in regards to what people thought ab my channel. I really started channeling my videos into helping others and being an active part of the fat positive community! Having a less scary goal made the fear of failing melt away- I always say, if my video helps one person, that’s all that matters. Same with my blog! If my photos can inspire one person to love themselves a little more that day, it’s worth it. 

Logistically, having a posting schedule is good. Decide how often you want to make videos, what days you want to post, etc. Then schedule that shit out! Get a video planner or use Google calendar and plan time/days to film, edit and upload. I often film 2-3 videos on one day and plan out time to edit them. It helps to get ahead. For filming, try to find a nice window to sit in front of to get good lighting. Natural lighting is always the best! But you can buy a ring light for filming in the evening. Make your channel art look nice too! Canva is great for that bc they have templates for that stuff. 

As for content, think about what you love doing/talking about, what’s important to you and your viewers, and what you are capable of! In my experience, plus size fashion videos are the most popular. I don’t have the money to buy half a wardrobe every month nor do I have any sponsors. In the Dressing Room videos are SO GOOD FOR THIS because you don’t have to buy anything! Use the resources you have, and try to be smart about it. Make an on-going list of video ideas somewhere you’ll always have, like on your phone or in a notebook by your bed. You might not use all of the ideas but it’s awesome to have something to look back on if you feel uninspired. 

It’s also great to follow other people in your niche group and be active on their videos and in social media. When you support people, they’ll most likely support you back! 

Okay that’s a very long introduction but these are the things that I wish someone else told me when I started making videos again! I studied video production in school and it’s part of my current job, so I love doing this stuff and I know a good bit about it. 

Have fun, don’t stop posting even if you feel sad or like you don’t matter, and be active in your community!

If you have any other questions, let me know! If you end up making a channel, I can’t wait to see it!