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"Chaotic Headspace" Digital, 2025

I decided to title this "Chaotic Headspace" because the whole process of this drawing was a chaotic mess. I didn't plan or sketch or make a layout for this. I just started drawing what "felt right" to me at the moment. I guess I called it a headspace simply because the faces/heads look like they are floating in space, and headspace means one's mental state, and it was chaotic to draw, so it represents a chaotic state of mind. Is it kind of a play on words? Not sure. Honestly, if it doesn't make sense, that's fine. I like the title.

This was a struggle to draw and actually finish. It started out as a pencil sketch of the face on the top right, and then I added the other faces after turning the pencil sketch into digital line art. I had trouble with figuring out what color palette/scheme to use for this, but it eventually came to me. I started out with this green, yellow, and red palette, but then I added blue and purple to the mix near the end.

It was difficult to focus on this. That's why it took a ridiculous amount of time to finish. I just decided today to "lock-in" and finish it, once and for all. I put on my earphones and went straight into it. I was sick and tired of looking at it and pondering on what to do with it. But, I don't know what happened today. My creative side of my brain just woke up and went with the flow.

It was almost automatic. The flow of the lines I drew were just drawn with intuition. I didn't think or plan to add all of those lines on the edges. It just came to me.

It was fun in the end. I am happy with this one.. I'm just glad and surprised I finished it today.

Now to start another one.

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"Smoke Feelings" Digital, 2025

A portrait this time.

I was not liking how it looked in the beginning, but as I kept working and experimenting on it, I ended up liking the results. So, here I am posting it here, on tumblr. I have been feeling sort of down since it has been colder than usual recently, so I drew something "edgy" like this. I have and always been aware that my art is kind of depressing or just sad looking, but it's just -- like I always say -- comforting and normal for me to draw these type of things.

Today, I did not feel like talking much. This tends to happen from time to time with me. So, at times like these, I draw. I write. I type.

I draw the feelings, write the feelings, and type the feelings away.

I guess I smoke the feelings away too.

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"Comfort" Digital, 2025

First post of 2025!

I'm really satisfied with this piece actually. It gives me this comforting feeling for some reason. Not sure why. Probably cause the rat is curled up like that, hugging its tail, or maybe cause the colors I chose to use are very muted and not too bright.

It is kind of sad looking, but since it is, I like it more. I guess that is the comforting feeling I was thinking of.

I need to get out of my comfort zone though, but slowly. Not quickly. I learned and realized that I am a slow person. I don't like being rushed. I can be rushed and do well, but most of the time, I cannot. I didn't like how I am like this at first, but now I am just accepting and embracing it. There will be people who think I am stupid because of it, but it should not matter. This is just who I am, and I can't really change it right now. If it affects someone else in a negative way then I guess that will be the time to change, but that is not an issue right now. So, it's alright.

Everything will be alright.

Happy New Year.

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"Untitled Flower Painting" Digital, Late December 2024

It's been quite sometime since I have posted on or even used tumblr. Finally decided to just post here as well as write some of my thoughts here. I haven't been feeling happy with my posts on IG, so I'll just post my thoughts and art here more often. Well.. at least I will try to post more often here. I don't feel as comfortable anymore with posting on IG since there are some people I don't really talk with anymore that are still following me. I could just delete them from my followers list, but I don't know. I don't know why I'm not doing it. I guess it just feels so easy to just erase someone from your life like that, so I don't feel right. Well, they probably don't care, but I care, so there's that. Unless they did something bad to me, I just won't do anything about it.

Since I don't have anyone that really cares about my art or thoughts, I might as well just type away on here. Maybe, something will happen, maybe nothing will. I won't know unless I just do it, so here I am.

I am happy with this digital piece. Honestly, I would love to have it as a print and put it on my wall. So, in the near future, I am planning to create more work that will satisfy me enough to make into prints.

Flowers, leaves, and loose lines are just so therapeutic to draw. They feel automatic to me, which makes me feel calm. I end up feeling some sort of peace within myself while drawing automatically like this. I just let it all go.

I want to let it all go. I want to let it all fade away. Fade away into the unknown.

The unknown might be nice, you never know.

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"winter girl"

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gloomy, foggy day

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“Library”

acrylic, watercolor, ink

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“Sea Lion City”

watercolor

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“Life in Rewind”

watercolor, ink                                                           

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“Items from the Past”

Pencil, watercolor, postercolor