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10/05/2017

I guess I will further the story of the past almost two years soon. I will just talk about the past few days. 

Charmander text me yesterday as I was about to get into the shower. He said that he was interviewed by one of my friends and had forgotten that she even worked there. Then said something about how he didn’t ask me if I wanted any smoke since he knew that I was trying to slow down. I told him that I probably wouldn’t get any since I am still diligently job hunting. He said he wanted to come over tomorrow and smoke with me and of course, fuck. I was all for it, duh. Then he was like, you know, you always give me shit when I just say lets do it. & I was like, what do you mean? lol & he was like well we always usually plan a day and when I suggest just meeting up real quick, you give me shit. & I was like yeah well our situation calls for planning. Then he’s just like, what are you doing right now? and I told him that I was getting in the shower and he said well good, come over then? & I of course always say yes. How can I not?

He always kisses me so passionately when he first sees me, I love it. His lips are always so soft and he has this shaggy soft hair that I love to put my hands through. He’s so cute because he’s always so eager. He loves my tits. He loves to suck on them and play with them, he called them big magnificent bastards yesterday. lol.

To be continued.

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How it started

Today is 10/4/2017.

Like I said before, my memory is really bad sometimes so I am going to do my best to explain everything like I remember and fill in any gaps on knowledge of the story along the way. 

Now, I started my then job back in June of 2015 and ended up only staying a few months because the company laid me off. In that time, I had reconnected with an old friends fwb from back in the day. Him (Who I am going to call Charmander) and I were never really “close” but we saw each other at parties and occasionally hung out when my old friend was messing around with him. I always found him incredibly attractive, but obviously never acted on it bc he was with my friend. Well, fast forward to June 2015 and I see that he’s going to be, what I will call my “support” for my job, if I had any questions or pretty much needed anything, he was who I had to go to. At this point, he’s with some girl, for a few years now and they have a little girl together & live together. In the time of my employment with the company, him and girlfriend (who I’ve never liked to begin with, even before knowing it was his gf) would come to our parties at the house. Charmander and Husband (obv my husband) are friends from when they used to work together in high school. So, we both knew Charmander and didn’t know we both knew him, until he showed up with his gf at our party. 

After I was laid off, we briefly fell out of touch and then I got my job back around Oct 2015. He was again, my “support.” We usually worked the later shift together, so it was usually just us and a few other people at work, so we got close, started to really get to know each other and of course, flirt.

One night, while chatting at work, like actual chat on the computer, he told me he wanted to party with me again sometime and of course I was like, well duh bc it was always a good time. He kept bringing up the past about how wild I was when he was with my old friend when we parties. Then he asked me if I ever thought that he was good looking, so me, being me and the biggest flirt, I told him that I absolutely do, not “had.” He reacted as most men do and had an ego boost the size of the room, hes an Aquarius, so he loves the attention and ego boosts. Anyway, we flirted for a few more weeks and it came down to... we think we wanna act on this physical curiosity and desire.

We decided that we were going to meet after work later in the week. Thursday 12/13/2015 we got off work, got in our vehicles and I followed him to a church a few miles down the road from his old house. I remember being giddy, (because Husband and I had been on rough terms and we eventually do split for a few months and get back together but we’ll get there) because I wasn’t used to the attention. I wasn’t used to someone being so into me. We got out of the vehicles and I leaned up against his truck. He came right up to me and looked me dead in the eyes. He embraced me with one arm and grabbed my face with the other and gently but passionately kissed me. It took my breathe away and he was grinning when he pulled away. “I’ve been wanting to do that for a while,” He said. I think he tried to convince me to go to this darker area with picnic tables and wanted to do it right then and there, but I wanted to play hard to get, even though I wanted to fuck him into next week. I grinned and just told him we couldn’t tonight and we made out for about 20 minutes and he had to go.

We met again, a few days after that and I gave him head. He loved it, he loved every minute of it. (He always says I leave him speechless with it :p) Finally, we did... ya know, do it. I think it was in the back of either my car or maybe his? Its been almost two years, I honestly can’t remember. It was good and he acted like he really wanted me, it turned me on so much and gave a confidence boost. 

I was so distraught with Husband and already on the verge of wanting a divorce that I was like pudding in Charmanders hands. I fell in lust and hard. However, he wasn’t going to leave his gf or his little girl, and I totally understood. We made the agreement to just be friends, who maybe sometimes meet up and fuck or whatever. I was so vulnerable at that point that it tore me open. Obviously I knew what I was doing was wrong, I was still married, he had a family. I couldn’t understand why I was letting myself do this. Why was I becoming attached to a man who was not mine to begin with? We backed off the intimate shit for a while, just strictly hanging out and smoking as friends.

That’s it for this post, since it’s so long. I will pick back up later.

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Introduction/ What to expect

I guess I can start out by stating that this blog is everything that has to do with me. I probably wont post my real name or any photos of me. I will use filler names or pet names, you’ll catch on eventually as to who is who and I will explain further as everything progresses. I am going to get a backstory together probably tonight, just so you all will know how and why certain things have or will happen. 

My memory is terrible, my punctuation will more than likely be terrible and my sentences will never be full or complete in most cases. However, I will probably have some run on sentences too.

Please, if you are here to read, I ask that you don’t judge me. These scenarios are my real life and things that are actually happening or have happened. I know what I do is wrong, but we’ll get to all of that later. I will answer questions if needed, but I ask that you are kind or I will block you.

At this point, I am going to treat this as somewhat of a diary and to document certain things that happen on certain days, how I feel and what’s happening to me, most of which (*Spoiler*) will be referring to the person that I am sleeping with, who is not my husband.