5-minutes-at-a-time

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Gonna take a break because tumblr just isn’t a good addition to my life rn and it’s kind of keeping me stagnant.

Stay rad, followers. Stay strong. Stay alive.

✌️❤️💪

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So tired of the Internet and how hypocritical it is.

Just makes me discouraged. Need to cut down on it without losing a business-y presence.

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pls listen

take a break and stretch your back !!! 🙌

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someone: you do not annoy me at all i actually like having you around dont worry

me: okay…..that definitely sounds fake but okay

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Family: Why are you in a bad mood?

Family: *acts like jerks for no reason*

Family: *gangs up on me*

Family: *lectures me for being upset because I should be happy at all times*

Family: I think you just have a bad attitude

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I don’t know if I should leave my therapist. I felt so good til I got in there then just felt so gross today and I feel like she doesn’t hear me about dissociation and my LACK OF CONTROL OVER IT.

Or maybe it’s the hormones who fucking knows.

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*walks into pharmacy*

hello yes i would like to purchase 1 mental health please 

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“Don’t abuse a kind heart. You may never be offered one again.”

— Pokello Nare

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Do not “wait to get worse”.

I don’t care if you’ve “been worse”

Your body is tired of this.

You deserve help in this moment.

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“Childhood trauma can affect a person so greatly because of its prescence in the time of developmemt. Events that would normally change a person become embedded in every fiber of one’s identity. It is this time of life which is so crucial to your entire future. This is the unique nature of C-PTSD, which doesn’t merely change a person, it creates them. It builds every trait, interest, and understanding of the world with this toxin. Nothing is unaffected or unaltered because all there is to alter was created by the trauma. Moving forward is not moving back to before the trauma, it is in every essence a rebirth and reeducation of life itself. To move on we can not erase, because to erase trauma’s effect we in theory erase ourselves.”

— Understanding Childhood C-PTSD

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All of us dumb gay fucks love Queer Eye so much, because it’s the closest thing we’ve ever seen to Mental Stability. Like, these bitches are teaching us how to cook, and how to dress like we didn’t just roll out of a 6 month Depression Session, and I think that’s truly A Gift. Oh, also, I think we all just want Karamo to look into our eyes and be like, “God, you’re a mess, but I’ll be damned if ur not Valid”, like,,, I’m in tears 

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Okay so I made it without being TOO weird but for the last hour when I couldn’t shutup.

I doubt they suspect but I was definitely weird.

My cramps are legit SO BAD right now that I finally had some Chocolate.

My sober in all ways, straight laced pal is coming over soon.

Pray to Jesus I don’t actually act HIGH while they’re over. 👀

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My cramps are legit SO BAD right now that I finally had some Chocolate.

My sober in all ways, straight laced pal is coming over soon.

Pray to Jesus I don’t actually act HIGH while they’re over. 👀

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Aromantic Songs

Pretend Love – The Avett Brothers

Never Been In Love – Will Jay

No Lover – Jetty Bones

For Me – Dearlie

Not In Love – Natalia Kills

They Don’t Know US – Borgeous

Deeper – Ella Eyre

Love Love Love — Of Monsters And Men

Aromantic — Lee Porteous (On YouTube)

Lollipop — MIKA

“Aromantic” — FonzaRelli

I Don’t Wanna Be In Love – Good Charlotte 

Oh No! – Marina and the Diamonds 

Everybody’s Got Somebody But Me – Hunter Hays, Jason Mraz

I Am Not A Robot – Marina and the Diamonds

Smoke – Didrick 

Tiny Vessels – Death Cab For Cutie

Counterpart – Wander

Here – Alessia Cara 

We Don’t Have To Take Our Clothes Off – Ella Eyre

Don’t Fall In Love – Danko Jones

I’ll probably do an update sometime in the future, but you can find my aromantic Spotify playlist (Aromantic Anthems) on my Spotify.

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create non-sexual queer spaces 2k15

create alcohol&drug-free* queer spaces 2k15

create actively trans-inclusive queer spaces 2k15

create actively anti-racist queer spaces 2k15

create anti-ableist queer spaces 2k15

create better, stronger safe queer spaces all around

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It just hit me tonight. My celebrity woman crush turns out to be Jodie Sweetin. That...explains a lot, actually.

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Exposure therapy

First of all, no one can give you exposure therapy except yourself, and a therapist/doctor you trust. Let’s just get that out of the way for anyone who thinks “dragging my socially anxious friend to a big party” is a big help. (It’s not.)

There was this boy I LOVED in high school. Asked him to my homeschool prom (and it was the shit, don’t knock homeschooling) and was just totally enamored. Wrote letters when neither of us was local anymore, fun stuff like that.

Anyway he married someone (13 years ago) and it’s been the Most Painful Thing to even see him on social media or pictures of him in others social medias, etc. My favorite song 2002, one we danced to, became one that made me ugly cry. The last time I saw him in person (close to 8 years ago?) he was workin at the local grocery store and I felt so uncomfortable I wanted to climb into the seafood freezer and just die there.

But he’s states away now, and he found my insta, and because my shit isn’t set to private 🤷‍♀️ I felt more like a heel just blocking him. So I didn’t, and I followed him back.

It still hurts a little, but it gets less sting-y every day. It’s been 13 years since The Dream ended (tho perhaps longer since it truly ended when he told me upfront he was gonna propose) and it’s time I worked on this.

I love the way he loves his kids and I love that he’s happy. I have to remind myself if my life ended a different way and we actually worked out, I don’t know if I would be the kick ass butch-femme mental illness warrior I am now. Maybe I wouldn’t have found my 12 step meetings. Maybe I would still be dysfunctional (since a partner can’t cure us of that stuff anyway.)

Anyway exposing myself to his life that doesn’t include me in any big way is a baby step and also a damn big step because I haven’t wallowed in a depression over it (so far) and I think that deserves congratulatory emojis so I would gladly accept any that you all have. 👍