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Today I got told off at work, my crappy part time job where you have to rush everything to get it done, for not doing something I did do and didn't even realise was optional

For the 6 months I've had this job I've mopped the floor every single day, thinking it was mandatory. Apparently not, because I was told off because I hadn't been doing it. That's right, someone who doesn't know me, doesn't work for my company, has reported me for not doing something they didn't watch me do. And I'm pretty sure if they check the cameras they'll see me mopping it.

But I haven't done it. No. I've not mopped an area I didn't realise was optional.

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It's always nerve wracking to know I have to call in sick to work again. 4 months working for the company and I've had 13 days off already.

I live with chronic pain that gets so bad I can't walk. I can't lose my job, but sometimes I'm physically unable to go in and do it (it's cleaning so it's physical). It's a dilemma, and I'm trying to fix it by 1. Pushing myself too far which I shouldn't because it makes things worse and 2. Trying to find an accessible job.

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It's a little bit awkward when you're talking to a group of friends and they start talking about this new tv show where the protagonist is Autistic and the show is very much glamorising autism

Because, in my lived experience as an autistic person, it's not like that. And for me I know that some of the people in my life their idea of autism and me by extension comes from seeing these shows where the main character is working as a police investigator or a doctor and it's just.. it makes me sad because the realise is that many autistic people can't do that. I can't. There isn't enough education around autism for people to understand it more than what they see in the media, but the media doesn't have good representation for autistic people in many cases

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Cut about 2 inches off my hair that reached the bottom of my back, it feels completely different despite the fact I really didn't take much off

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It's one thing to be a bully at 42, causing people to quit their job on a regular basis. It's another to also be a hypocrite.

You are a grown adult, 3 kids, tell me why exactly you enjoy telling other people they can't sit down for a second or talk to their colleagues or they can't go to the staffroom once they finish shift when you spend your entire shift sat in the staffroom making fun of your staff to the other supervisor

What is so appealing about being a nasty person?

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Sometimes I still hear the haunting sound of the scanner beeping from my time in retail

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Actually, yes, I could go for a little nap right about now.

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Whoever said I can't soup?

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It's October which means people look past the alternative clothes and just see the autism. Scary.

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Oh, this? My foldable cane? It collapses so I do not.