addiefeather

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This scientist crafts stunning visual art through chemistry.

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in another universe i am not a burden to be loved

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Today I had a realization.

I haven't been acting like a main character in my own life lately. Time flies fast. Days pass by me in a blur and I have very little control or agency over my own life. I wake up, I go to work, I eat, I sleep, I start over.

I do things in my downtime! I crochet and I watch TV and I play DnD and I play with my birds and I cook and clean and I LIVE. But. Mostly, I just exist.

And that's not bad.

They tell you that growing up is going to be a whirlwind. You're 13 one day and you blink and suddenly you're 37 with a mortgage, a wife, and kids and you're whole life has been a grind. Working towards a career, a family, some kind of fulfillment that you'll only ever get if you work your ass off day after day and never quit.

What they don't tell you, what they might not understand, is that those years between 13 and 37 don't evaporate. You still live them.

I haven't wanted to die in a very long time. But there have been many occasions where, if I had the opportunity, I would press a pause button and rest. Just... rest. Sleep for a year or two and let the world pass by while I recuperate and recover from everything that's ever happened in my entire life. Just let my life wash over me and give me a minute to digest.

But life doesn't get a pause button and time doesn't stop for anyone or anything.

But there's no reason that I can't take a break from writing my own story.

We fantasize about being the main character. We imagine our lives as a book or a movie. We stand in front of the mirror and pretend we're being interviewed about nothing more than the life we live. But that's exhausting!

I don't wake up every morning and feel like I can change the world. I wake up and take a breath and count to ten. And just feel those ten seconds pass. That's what time does. It passes. If all we do is focus on changing the world, we'll never take time to enjoy the world we were given.

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Behold my sorrows, but feel you no pity.

Though bountiful they may be, and many the result of actions not my own, still- I pray you. Save thy pity.

I do not present to you my sorrows with hope in my heart that you take them upon yourself. Nor do I wish for recompense.

I show you my sorrows and ask but one thing.

Understanding.

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a list of 100+ buildings to put in your fantasy town

academy

adventurer's guild

alchemist

apiary

apothecary

aquarium

armory

art gallery

bakery

bank

barber

barracks

bathhouse

blacksmith

boathouse

book store

bookbinder

botanical garden

brothel

butcher

carpenter

cartographer

casino

castle

cobbler

coffee shop

council chamber

court house

crypt for the noble family

dentist

distillery

docks

dovecot

dyer

embassy

farmer's market

fighting pit

fishmonger

fortune teller

gallows

gatehouse

general store

graveyard

greenhouses

guard post

guildhall

gymnasium

haberdashery

haunted house

hedge maze

herbalist

hospice

hospital

house for sale

inn

jail

jeweller

kindergarten

leatherworker

library

locksmith

mail courier

manor house

market

mayor's house

monastery

morgue

museum

music shop

observatory

orchard

orphanage

outhouse

paper maker

pawnshop

pet shop

potion shop

potter

printmaker

quest board

residence

restricted zone

sawmill

school

scribe

sewer entrance

sheriff's office

shrine

silversmith

spa

speakeasy

spice merchant

sports stadium

stables

street market

tailor

tannery

tavern

tax collector

tea house

temple

textile shop

theatre

thieves guild

thrift store

tinker's workshop

town crier post

town square

townhall

toy store

trinket shop

warehouse

watchtower

water mill

weaver

well

windmill

wishing well

wizard tower

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"haunting the narrative" is one of those phrases i wanna put up on a shelf. not all characters that are dead haunt the narrative. not all characters that are dead haunt the narrative. not all characters that haunt the narrative are dead.

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Prompt (132)

"Get in."

That was the only thing the villain said, after they pulled their car up next to the hero and rolled the window down. The hero squinted.

"Why would I do that?"

"We're in trouble." the villain said casually, leaning their elbow on the window frame.

"Oh no, what did you do?"

The villain rolled their eyes. "They found out I'm in love with you. Get in, now."

"You're. . .what?" the hero raised an eyebrow.

"I said get in. Hurry up, they're not far behind."

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@writing-prompts-musically I love it so much! Thank you for the inspiration!

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She's my best friend. She has been since the first day of fourth grade.

You grew into such a beautiful woman. Outgoing and extroverted, I knew it wouldn't be long until everybody else discovered your beauty as well.

I grew into such a strange person, if I'm being honest with myself. I laugh at my own jokes, my clothes never match, and I'm somehow simultaneously too quiet and too loud at all times.

It would make sense, if we had grown apart. Hell, I expected it. But no. You held onto me no matter what. When it was the first homecoming game and you were on the cheer team, you caught my gaze whenever you could. And up in the bleachers, my eyes never left yours.

Your sweet 16, a huge party where at least a hundred people were invited, the seat next to mine is where you sat most often. You would traverse the crowd gracefully, like you were meant to be there. But you would always return to my side. I was honored.

You must have been asked to Prom five or six different times. But your answer was always no. "No," you said, "I'm going with my best friend." And that was the first time that you addressing me as your "best friend" hurt. You were crowned that night, while I snuck out the back.

You have your whole life ahead of you. We both do. I suppose this is me realizing that our lives are destined to be so vastly different, that maybe "Best Friends" is all we'll ever be.

I'm crushed by that. But in the end. It's still an honor that I will carry with pride.

Song Prompt #20

Wonder - Lauren Aquilina

You're in love with the most popular person in school.

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The Everton Updates

Yes, it’s been 10 months. No, I don’t have an excuse.

I recently scanned through this tumblr page- something I dread doing with any of my other blogs. I look at this post and laugh. I was so determined, so strict. I’m proud of myself, in hindsight. As depressed as I was, I was still optimistic. Those two things put together is not something you see every day.

I’m not sure there’s much more to say than “That didn’t happen.” Or at least- it hasn’t yet. 

I truly had not touched that document in months. Suddenly, though, I had an overwhelming urge to write. To put pencil to paper literally. I filled a few sheets of paper, front and back, with a short story about falling in love. And a scene from this book. My book.

When I looked up from the page and saw that I had been writing when I was supposed to be taking calls for work for the past twenty minutes, I knew it was time.

So I opened the document on my laptop and got to work.

Session 2

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When I look into her eyes, the rest of the world fades away. I know that there are moments beyond the ones we share, that the days where I don't see her happen and are important. But, when I hear her laugh? Or feel her hold me? None of that matters.

I love her. So deeply.

And she loves me. Just not as much.

Oh, she's going to break my heart some day...

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You’ve been sentenced to 400 years for multiple murders. It’s been 399 years and your jailers are starting to get nervous.

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HAND ON MY HEART. HAND ON MY STUPID HEART

ross gay / susan sontag / unknown / richard siken / warsan shire / lana del ray / tturing / hera lindsay bird / richard siken

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Homesickness

1. Louise Glück

2. Franz Kafka

3. limer3nce

4. Miriam Adeney

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You are a supervillain who has just captured your rival’s child. Rather than being afraid, they’re begging you to let them stay.

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I love in eternities.

In happily ever Afters.

And for every smile of hers I see,

Each time I hear her laughter,

The love that I have for her

Stretches on, more and more

And though I try my very best

I can't help but keep score.

Of every "I love you" I give to her,

Each one she gives to me.

How tragically one-sided

My affections seem to be.

It's takes this especially skilled heart of mine

To consistently fall in a trap

Of always giving my love away,

Only to receive so little back.

Cuz I love in enternities

And she loves in tomorrows

So on the outside we'll swim in the sea of love.

On the inside, I'll drown in my sorrows.

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Remember, you will always be growing as a writer. There is no peak, only improvement. It’s a continual learning curve and you can only go up from here. So keep writing lovelies.