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Today was a rough day.

I saw a picture of you doting on him. It made my toes curl. I wish it was me, I wish we were still in each others lives.

I noticed you unblocked me on your social media. I guess that’s a step in a positive direction.

I wish I just kept my cool so it didn’t have to come to this.

I feel like i spent so much energy towards you. And now I have all of this negativity in my head that’s directly leading me to want to permanently escape.

I’m not so special. I’ve always felt this way about myself. It’s never serious, it’s never intense, it’s always just a shrug.

I miss you so fucking much. I heard your laugh in my head and it made me cry.

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Oh you.

“I’m gonna say something crazy… Wanna marry me instead?”

– San Junipero (2016) dir. Owen Harris

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I’m back, tumblr! Nothing like a 3 year break to leave y’all on a cliff hanger.

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Indian food is tied for my favorite food as of late. Who would have thought that Georgia would have decent street bites? 🕉 Namaste y'all. 🕉 #indianfood #southern #atlanta (at Chai Pani Decatur)

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You can't see it, but I'm sitting next to a fire pit because I miss all those bonfires on the beach. You can take the girl outta California but you can't take California outta the girl. #california #south #beach #bonfire #drinks #life #southern (at Decatur, Georgia)

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My FIL painted this for me and my hubby's new home! We move in T-2 days!!!! #life #family #art #marriage (at Atlanta, Georgia)

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Shalom, y'all ✌🏼 (at Mellow Mushroom)

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🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞 (at Atlanta, Georgia)

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I think we have an emergency 🍻 (at Ponce City Market)

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I'm a #georgia driver y'all 🍑 (at Eastside, Atlanta, Georgia)

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You know everything about me, even my deepest darkest parts. 💘 #love #marriage #grandcanyon #couple (at Grand Canyon National Park)

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My pasty ass is hiding in the shade because I'll crisp if I step into the sunlight

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🌊🐚🌞 (at La Jolla Cove, Ca)

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🌴🌴 #palmtrees #marriage #love #adventure ❌⭕️❌⭕️ (at Aliso Viejo Country Club)

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#pch #roadtrip #ca #golden #carmelbythesea (at China Cove)

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I finally get to be girly 24/7 again! #blonde #girlsrule #spaday #pdx #roadtrip #sunshine #hairdid

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I just realized that this is the last night in my Alaskan house. 😳 also, I really like my hair in this pic 😋 #moving #alaska #army #ets