amyourkryzzzyyyy

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

Don't even know if a ring will excite me anymore.

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

No books neither a poem told me about this part of love.

Never thought that one should protect the years of struggles to build thyself.

From being ruined by the person you thought'd be your protection.

While staying to protect the connection .

Trying to hold on to everything, while breaking, while healing,

while trying to figure out how to go back to before.

What a fvking delusion.

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

Immediate success builds ego, gradual success builds character. There's no need to rush as long as you're learning from your journey.

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

Sabi mo, "Ang daya" because it's already affecting you. Well it already ruined me and I'm barely hanging. You're just waiting for me to forgive you and forget everything. For things to go back the way they used to be. While everyday I'm suffocating from pain, overthinking, and insecurities. Knowing she's better than me in a lot of ways. Crying my heart out every night, desperately begging myself to forget everything and be that bubbly girl again. Ang daya nga talaga. I'm the one who's hurt and I'm also the one who's becoming toxic. So I'm sorry kung masyadong madaya. I'm sorry if this pain is causing me to lose my sanity.

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

Akala ko dati basta nasa healthy relationship, ligtas ka na dun sa mga nakaka trauma na sakit.

Hindi pa rin pala.

Meron at meron pala talagang susubok sa relasyon nyo.

And I wasn't ready for that.

Now I don't know how to bounce back just so I won't lose the relationship.

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

Mom told me, "Palaging mas matimbang ang babaeng pinaghirapan ng lalake. Kapag pinaghirapan ka ng lalake, mamahalin ka ng totoo nyan." And that made me realize I should stop worrying. Because this man has been taking care and loving me with all his heart since day one.

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

I was too jealous, I forgot.

He drank himself to forget when she hurt him.

He wrote me a song to win me back.

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

I found myself doing the same things I did when I was miserable. Drowning with questions, doubts, and suffering. I'm losing my mind again.

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

Tangina sakit pa din

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

Now I feel like I never want to explain myself again. I saw what you can do, how you can hurt me and still focus on looking for your way out. Now I know, you'll just hurt me like they do. Now I know my place and what to do. Thank you for bringing the old me. Enjoy the chaos.

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

Update: Hindi naman daw sya nagsinungaling, tinago nya lang HAHHAHAHAHA Gago nagsulat pa 'ko ng tula😂😂😂

You feel like my first love

First love

Not because you're the first one to make me smile

Or the first one to make me cry

You feel like my first love

My safe place

You're the smell of the ground after the rain

The mist every morning

You're the soup in my rainy days

You feel like my first love

You make me remember everything that I adore

You're not my first love

But you beat everyone that I've loved

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

All of you bullshit me and don't want me to die. Mga putanginang sadista

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

He acts like he doesn't care. Kapag nagsabi ako na hindi may ayaw ako, na nasasaktan ako sa ganito, nagagalit sya. People always make me feeel like I should be sorry about my emotions

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

I feel like I don't have a boyfriend

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

I feel so lonely rn

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

You feel like my first love

First love

Not because you're the first one to make me smile

Or the first one to make me cry

You feel like my first love

My safe place

You're the smell of the ground after the rain

The mist every morning

You're the soup in my rainy days

You feel like my first love

You make me remember everything that I adore

You're not my first love

But you beat everyone that I've loved

[amyourkryzzzyyyy]

I thought I'm strong,

That I don't need saving.

But not when you sat with me,

Held my hand, shared my rains and thunders.

You're the one I call when I'm crying from nightmares.

You calm the storm,

Bring me to reality,

And especially,

Walk with me like I've never been alone.