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"Those awful things are survivable, because we are as indestructable as we believe ourselves to be. ... We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail." •John Green (at Mumbai - मुंबई) https://www.instagram.com/p/CYtmlVOPfxH/?utm_medium=tumblr

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//Front and side render// - Follow up post . . . . . . . . #3dfashion #3D #illustration #digitalfashion #leather #fashionweek #fashionillustration #runway #streetfashion #streetstyle #clo3D #3Dfashion #virtualfashion #blender #blackandwhite #photoshop #daz3d #digitalgarments #sports #sportswear #fashion #sustainablefashion #knitwear #digitalclothing #marvelousdesigner #nike #virtualfashion #activewear #adidas #metaverse #clocotw (at Mumbai - मुंबई) https://www.instagram.com/p/CYQwxGLPUWG/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Giving digital life to rough sketches is kinda my favourite passtime nowadays. Really liked the way this windcheater and cargo combo turned out. Will give it a try on real fabrics soon. Will post more renders later. . . . . . . . . . #3dfashion #3D #illustration #digitalfashion #leather #fashionweek #fashionillustration #runway #streetfashion #streetstyle #clo3D #3Dfashion #virtualfashion #blender #blackandwhite #photoshop #daz3d #digitalgarments #sports #sportswear #fashion #sustainablefashion #knitwear #digitalclothing #marvelousdesigner #nike #virtualfashion #activewear #adidas #metaverse #clocotw (at Mumbai - मुंबई) https://www.instagram.com/p/CYMaWoNvtLb/?utm_medium=tumblr

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// I crave for silence // https://www.instagram.com/zika_kito/p/CXbG10wPOKM/?utm_medium=tumblr

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//Today was productive// . . . #sketching #fashionillustration #illustration #fashion (at Army Public Shool Ranikhet) https://www.instagram.com/p/CW5l6ROPHUE/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Maybe, you have been in love and one day the world have suddenly fallen apart. No, I'm not talking about the love that seeks lust. I'm talking about real love. The one where you open up your souls before revealing up your faces. The one where every moment felt like a part taken up from a fairy tail. I was lucky enough to touch up that kind of love but immature enough to keep it. My love always felt like a breeze passing through the surface of my skin in hot summer afternoon. You remember the feeling when you are running cross-country?? Yes….. No….. Maybe ….!! You run and run hoping the track to end. Your fists are clenched, your eyes are dizzy, your lips are covered with white dried up layer of saliva. All you could think about is one more step and one sip of water. After crossing the finish line there's nothing you desire more than a cold breeze and water. You look up towards the sky and at that very moment the wind blew through chimes and caresses your tender skin. You take a sip of water and you could feel it passing through your esophagus. And within a moment you are reborn. Can you recall the feeling now ??? Yes……..No…..Maybe…!! Try running cross-country if you haven't until now. So, the thing about true love is it will take you to the verge of exhaustion and will pull you back just at the right time. -@an.introverts.disguise . . . . . . . . . #oneliners #quotes #drawing #streetstyle #illustration #aesthetic #draw #artwork #depression #anime #digitalart #dark #lonely #poetry #inspirationalquotes #illustrator #lovequotes #drawings #manga #portraitsketch #lineart #introvert #inspiration #poem #sketches #blackandwhite #couple #sayings #anxiety (at New York City) https://www.instagram.com/p/CUX6o33B9-6/?utm_medium=tumblr

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//Trigger warning// I don't really have emotions/feelings anymore, I know how I have become like this and I saw that I was going in this direction but I thought it was for the best and just kept pushing, pushing and pushing for it. I thought that being emotionless was the way forward so the things the bullies and others around me who were saying not so nice things to me wouldn't hurt me anymore and I would get out of the dark deep hole that is depression; I was right, the things people were saying didn't hurt me. A year later I got out of my depression but still my emotionless self is still here, it made me weird; I don't really have the feeling of right and wrong which is quite worrying in quick situations because sometimes I do have to give it some thought if it is right or wrong. Obviously I know what things are right and wrong but I just don't have the feeling filter that people has so I tend to say a lot of shit. -@an.introverts.disguise . . . . . . . . . #oneliners #quotes #drawing #streetstyle #illustration #aesthetic #draw #artwork #depression #anime #digitalart #dark #lonely #poetry #inspirationalquotes #illustrator #lovequotes #drawings #manga #portraitsketch #lineart #introvert #inspiration #poem #sketches #blackandwhite #couple #sayings #anxiety (at New York City) https://www.instagram.com/p/CUNlz05BxC-/?utm_medium=tumblr

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//It fucking hurts so good// All of this pain I've been feeling has steadily been growing worse. It's like I'm suffocating in an abyss of sorry and despair. I want to cry. I feel the NEED to cry. But I can't. I've been suppressing my emotions most of my life to get through the SHIT that it has been that I genuinely do not understand them. The only true emotions I feel are sadness and rage. It's all so tiring. This life is just struggle, pain, more struggle. And it hurts so fucking good. -@an.introverts.disguise . . . . . . . . . #oneliners #quotes  #drawing #streetstyle #illustration #aesthetic #draw #artwork #vectorart #anime #digitalart #dark  #muse #poetry #inspirationalquotes  #illustrator #lovequotes #drawings #manga #portraitsketch  #lineart #introvert  #inspiration #poem #sketches #blackandwhite #couple  #sayings #abstract. (at New York City) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTVAdhuvpcG/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I don't remember the last time I was truly happy. Yes, I have those moments where someone makes me laugh or smile or I feel good because I don't get this aching feeling when I wake up because I don't feel worthless. But it never lasts, you know? Whatever good feeling I have kind of justs fades away and is feeling with this fucking pain and feeling that I'm just not worth anything anymore. I just feel lileni will never amount to anything. But anyways this is just some stupid vent.

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I have a scar on my upper lip and side of my nose. I tell people it's from tripping and faceplanting in some gravel while walking home late at night.

Ok, the gravel part is true. But what actually happened is I was tripping on acid, wandering around in the middle of the night, and began pounding on a neighbor's front door thinking it was my house. The neighbors flipped and called the cops. Cops found me wandering around a short distance away.

The cops got out of their patrol car and happened to stand directly under a street light. In my hallucinating state, I believed they were angels. So I approached them and tried to give one of them a hug.

Cop took me to the ground hard as hell, ripping my face open. Cops will do that when you give them a bear hug. They propped me up against the side of the patrol car, I was bleeding all over the fucking place. Ambulance took me to the hospital, they pumped me full of thorazine, and I woke up the next day in my bed at home.

The cops were awesome about it, really worried about me and almost apologetic for fucking up my face. A couple days later they called my mother and asked if I'd be willing to talk to them about where I got the acid. I said I didn't want to say, and they let the matter drop. No criminal charges were ever involved. I wrote them a thank-you letter a couple of months later for not shooting me.