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I would watch the shit out of this

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New ink. *big grin*

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Presented without commentary.

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Don't usually get excited about Christmas really. But, getting these ornaments for my nephews put a smile on my face. ❤️

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To have someone understand your mind is a different kind of intimacy.

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Everyone's freaking out about clowns now and Sam's just like

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Have you been reading lately?

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*hugs* I'm so sorry for your loss. Ask box and pm is always open if you need to talk.

Thank you so much. I will keep that in mind. Right now I am at a crisis centre for a few days because I wasn't coping well and they have counsellors onsite and ready to listen 24/7. Thank you again I really appreciate it.

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If you don’t get this ur dead to me

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Lmfao

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I know this isn’t spn related. I just wanted to share a poem with you all that I wrote about how I’m feeling right now and who knows? Someone else may feel this way and hopefully they won’t feel alone. 💜

The Creature

Back when this began,

When all the colours began to fade,

And a sense of self-loathing and hatred made their home in my heart and mind.

Back when I first stopped seeing beauty.

Seeing only darkness and self-directed anger.

Back then,

I didn’t realize.

I didn’t realize that I’d be shackled,

Tethered to this miscreated and mutated variation of myself.

A creature suddenly unrecognizable to me.

My inner demons twisting and savaging all good in my life.

Leaving me a rattled mess of confusion and confliction.

Years later she still taunts me.

Sleep a long time thing of the past.

For she punishes me for simple acts.

For thinking things might get better.

She cackles, a haunting sound.

Today I will not fuck up.

Snickers and derisive clapping.

Because she knows.

This abomination of myself knows that I will fail.

She waits for the day,

The day I’ve had enough.

The with my hand bound in chains to a disfigured version itself,

Will malevolently abet my final ruin.

Written by Shay (another.stupid.ape)

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Just a quick thank you

I just wanted to say a quick but sincere thank you to everyone who has been there for me during this extremely hard time. A special shout out to @i-like-your-assbutt who never gets annoyed when I ramble on about anything that I'm feeling and is super supportive. Love you baby sis. ❤️💜💙 I really appreciate it. More than you know.