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ive found that partially treated mental illness can sometimes look to uninvolved onlookers like faked mental illness.

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Does your therapist ever figure something out and you have to go be dramatic about it for several days because she just explained the last ten years in like ten seconds and what the fuck This is what I pay her for but like. What the fuck. You can’t make it that simple because you’re actually completely right it really has been that simple for ten years omfg

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thinking again about vampirism as disability

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someone explain to me why I bought an arthritis-friendly pill case, don't have arthritis, and still can't fucking open it.

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i should wake up and automatically be restored to full health, that's how sleeping should work, what is this horseshit

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Wait what's a buildings fire evacuation plan if you aren't supposed to use the elevator to get down

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i think you should be able to emoji react to MyChart lab results

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Medical trauma is valid and real. You aren't weak or being dramatic if you have medical trauma.

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idk who needs to hear this rn but suffering is not noble. take the tylenol

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as someone who nearly died at 22 due to serious health issues, society's obsession with youth and hatred of the signs of aging really gargles my goyles. not everyone gets to grow old, it's such a privilege and yet we treat it like a disease, or a curse, something to avoid for as long as possible. it truly it strangles the soul to witness

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Be kind to yourself. That’s it. That’s the tip. Let yourself feel whatever you’re feeling. Stay in bed if you want, it’s okay. Have ice cream for dinner, you’ve earned it. Treat yourself to something nice. Tell everyone to fuck off and leave you alone so you can rewatch your favorite show for the hundredth time. Make some passive aggressive stickers.

Let out the breath you didn’t realize you were holding, and say “I win.”

Whatever happened is in the past, and every single breath you take is a victory against those who hurt you, because surviving, even barely, is to spite them. Instead of commemorating the pain, celebrate every day you’ve lived since.

You’re alive, so they lose, and they will keep losing.

does anyone have any actual legitimate anniversary reaction tips? Like not google's "commemorate it" because there's nothing I want to commemorate, or "talk about it" because there aren't people in my life I want to talk to about it, or "stay offline" because it's not like anyone is going to post about it. All the search results I found were really irrelevant. I just want to know how to not have an awful week.

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Listen pal, the subtitles stay ON.

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"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

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The worst thing is that there is so much potential for exploring the horror of psych wards from the angle of medical abuse, ableism, forced treatment/drugging, loss of autonomy, power imbalance, demonization, dehumanization, etc, and YET the horror genre keeps defaulting to "insane asylums and psych wards are scary because there are mentally ill people in there"

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I don’t think anyone realizes how much energy it takes just to scroll through my phone.

people who aren’t in pain all the time don’t understand how much being in constant pain makes it so much harder to do everything… bc pain is so draining and it takes so much more energy/effort to push through it to do anything

so if you have chronic pain and manage to do anything at all today i am proud of you ✨✨

sometimes even just getting out of bed deserves a good star 🌟

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I really think about that “arms hurt? Saw them off” post every single fucking day