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me when I go out wearing an outfit I wouldn’t usually wear: oh my god everyone knows this is an outfit I wouldn’t usually wear I’m so embarrassed

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was literally teary eyed because of how bittersweet it all felt and who am i even kidding with the idc pretend attitude might have reached a "tere dil ke sheher mein ghar mera hogya" kinda moment (the other way round) coz well it feels heavy everytime now like yea didn't realize it would matter but there we go again

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just completed when life gives you tangerines and I’ve figured even melos can’t make you tear up the way a slice of life does

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"time turned all things in our sight into watercolor" when life gives you tangerines | 2025

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"you need countless lifetimes of fate to meet even once in this life, so the third time should be the charm" when life gives you tangerines | 2025

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I've stopped feeling things too deeply I suppose, everything feels soulless now, even the parts of life I enjoyed in the chaos do not have the same weight anymore they just feel lifeless now like yeah *forced smile* that's all not feeling too deeply might be a gift in a few ways in the lives of most people but it had a significant role in mine, sure it amplified the meaningless parts for no reason but I wouldn't mind dealing with those as long I could take in the the meaningful ones with all my heart

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to not let the memory linger too long, we'll blame it all on the strong winds, the buzzsaw noise (music rather) of A320, the euphoria in the air or whatever you'd want to name it, the fireworks we couldn't make sense of, the glimmer of the runway, and just the hour.

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what in the hormonal imbalance is happening ya’ll “little women” is making me tear up ?

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“there are years that ask questions and years that answer”

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wow this is too intimate to share with my close friends or family let me put this on my tumblr blog for hundreds of strangers to see

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no offence but I hate when people my age start projecting their own fears and ideas about aging and youth onto me. girl sorry but I’m young and beautiful if you think women in their late 20s onwards are worthless old hags who have run out of time that’s a personal problem

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“the feeling after good conversation is unmatched. someone listened to your world and let you into theirs. the sweetness of good banter. the rareness of being heard”

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“She clapped so hard i never noticed who didn't”

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"Change is always scary, but you'll fall behind if you shy away from it"

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I hate hate to admit it but oh I missed this so much. I don't know if this is the bare minimum a human needs to survive or if it's a privilege I don't know and I don't want to know, because pondering over it requires you to deep dive into details and i don't have the brain space for it, or the courage but it's beautiful it makes life easier brighter 'a little ball of golden light' (lite) even through the uncomfness so yeah big deal call me selfish but I want to keep doing this