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i jerk off till my penis scrweam

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welcome... to Nothing Park

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Sometimes you have a tranny, right? She tries to be good. She really does. Problem is, see? She has her mother's bleeding heart and her father's venom. And that's fine when she's a he. Boys have tempers. Aw he's sensitive. But then the tits come in and the pronouns change and suddenly her anger is a loaded gun. It's as much a threat of violence as what's between her legs. She has become a weapon and she has to dull the edges because everyone is scared of getting cut. But then there's that bleeding heart, right? She's soft. She wants to be soft. God... she wants so very badly to be soft. It knows it can't be a mother. It knows it can't be a father. But fuck does it try to love hard enough to feel those gaps. Weird math happens when you transition though. You get the anger ripped out of your hands, people lap up the bleeding compassion from the hole left in its wake. The people who love you only want you neutered. They want you defanged. They stab you with your own teeth every time you bare them. They commit the rape of social expectation to keep you in line. And then one day that tranny? It recognizes the gapes. It notices the empty spaces between molar and incisor where canine is replaced by raw nerve and bleeding gums. She feels hollow and empty. Pour liquor into the pit doll. Fill it up with smoke and smokeshows and stranger's semen. Eventually you'll realize the horrible truth. You have to fill it yourself. You have to make new you. That's the worst injustice. The emptiness that others made you have to fill.

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This post gives me not having a cunt dysphoria but in a good way

I'm going to fuck someone so deep and rough that I see the bulge my strap is making. I want to press down on your lower abdomen, feeling how deep I'm inside you.

"Yeah? How deep am I in you? Right there? Oh fuck, mommy is soo deep in your needy cunt."

I want to fucking ravage your cunt. Maybe take before and after photos of it. I know it will look so loose and open once I'm done with it. Possibly red if I feel you deserve cunt slappings a few times.

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What? Do you want me to have gay voices?

KIM KITSURAGI – “It is pride month, detective. I trust you understand what this implies.”

KIM KITSURAGI – He walks ahead of you, without another word.

LOGIC [Impossible: Failure] – You have no idea what he means.

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Authoritarian regime In America people dying in peaceful protest

WE HAVE EXPIRIENCED THIS HERE (Czechia) ASK OUR GRANDPARENTS

They have seen it

MÁME HOLÉ RUCE

Outrage someone should stop them unfortunately they have the worlds biggest military

I’m waiting for the civil war

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I think when you're disabled and you're used to how your life works, the familiar monotony of everyday tasks, taking meds, food and hygiene and toileting being a Task. if you don't work or study either. like it becomes normal. and you only realise how different you're living your life when you encounter other people up close for a while and they act like you're living a nightmare or something. and then you remember.

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How many physically disabled people are also living malnourished due to their disabilities? How many disabled people have worsening symptoms due to being unable to consistently eat? I'd say it's likely more than you'd think

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You're too horny to think clearly.

Reblog this post just because some woman on the internet told you to.

Good girl.

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Also

You can be transfem with all of this too

The fact your trans doesn’t mean you have to try harder

You can be femme without makeup

You can be femme without shaving

You can be femme without wearing skirts

You can be femme without wearing jewelry

You can be femme while dating a femme

You can be femme literally anyway you want, please don't feel you have to submit to certain stereotypes

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another amazing thing about adult autism is learning that the answer to 'why does this social cue/expectation fucking suck?' is most often either 'because society is very racist' or 'because society hates women' or 'because society hates disabled people'

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hi i have no one understands me disorder. in order to get accomodations and government assistance, i have to get them to understand me. i also have easily confused disorder, which means i need to do a lot of confusing paperwork. am i in hell.

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Me fr I’m filtered by school

its maddening to me when people discusss school issues and you can tell they dont give a single thought to disabled kids, institutionalised kids, untold scores of dead kids whose graves are etched with fantasies written by their parents. it's always appeal to some median presentable child stripped of interiority, inherently oppositional against learning for no motive, transformed into property which must be totally controlled for their own good. i don't care about your imagined construct of the median child. the system should be built for the most vulnerable children who are stripped of their voices and erased from reality. i think we should sacrifice bureaucratic efficiency if it means less kids get killed and institutionalised. i think standardised testing should be stripped bare (less frequent, results completely anonymised to parents and schools so they have no individual incentives for results). i think homework should be minimised even if it meant worse learning outcomes (which it doesnt in the majority of cases) so that less kids get killed and institutionalised. these are sacrifices which should be uncontroversial to anyone who isn't a eugenicist, and who recognises that the current education system is a disability filter

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Fuckkk I love that 5 people told me I’m a bitch and manipulator and cut me off for being myself

I love pride

I need more doll friends only ones I trust at this point

I was bullied in school and this just feels like the same fucking thing it has exactly the same vibe

If I've learned anything from my years being out as a trans woman, it is that the "queer community" is not my community. I am reminded, daily, that the community at large wants nothing to do with gals like me. Happy fucking Pride Month I guess.

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If I've learned anything from my years being out as a trans woman, it is that the "queer community" is not my community. I am reminded, daily, that the community at large wants nothing to do with gals like me. Happy fucking Pride Month I guess.

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If I've learned anything from my years being out as a trans woman, it is that the "queer community" is not my community. I am reminded, daily, that the community at large wants nothing to do with gals like me. Happy fucking Pride Month I guess.

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I'm just moving a dead body, pretending to be alive.