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Fuck that anon jesus christ. I'm following you now for your art because of that guy, what the fuck is their issue. Depressed artists used to be a whole thing back in the days now mfs can't even be a little sad or contemplate their relationship with their art without people losing their minds

that was certainly a strange interaction but whatever. thank you for the follow? i hope you enjoy the stuff i serve here

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Just delete your blog and don't post your art if you hate getting attention so much. There are many other artists out there who would actually appreciate receiving praise on their art for half the skill you have. Ungrateful fucking pig.

damn. did my briefly touching on the subject of how my current mental state doesn't allow me to easily accept praise from random people on the internet strike a nerve? get outta here.

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he's pissing me offfff

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First post on a new blog! I got into Control both really late and really cheap and it's so my thing that I had to make a poster for it!

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dum dog

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a piece I drew for the Remedy Entertainment zine last year

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hedhog

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I'm sorry, I just want to make sure I understand so I don't do something that upsets you. What did you mean that asks like the one from the previous anon drive you nuts?

oh none of this upsets me, it's just that the amount of attention i get sometimes unsettles me, especially when people send me such long asks trying to support/encourage me. i'm not in a good place mentally so it's kind of. i don't want to say "unnerving" but i can't think of a better word right now. usually it doesn't get this bad but like i said, not feeling too good

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hey! i just saw the posts that you're struggling with mental health – well, aren't we all, – so i kinda wanted to do a good thing. i first saw your art even before the hermitcraft stuff, i think it was the doctor who fanart i saw, or maybe some other show, not v sure?? and i've been loving your work ever since. your art style just inspires me so much, scratches my brain in the right way yk, and the way you capture emotions, textures, everything, in your artworks, is so amazing to me. we all struggle, but we all get better (well, that's a lie, but 90% of us get better eventually and i sincerely hope you are in the 90), and you will get better, too. sure, i'm just an anon who knows nothing about your life, so i don't want to invalidate your troubles, but whatever it is – i wish you strength, patience and resilience to get through it all. you have gone so far with your art, so many people like me hold it dear to them, and i think making so many people feel warm and fuzzy about dr darling is an accomplishment in itself. appreciate yourself like we do, mans, it's hard, but sometimes you gotta consider that even though you might think you're shit, there's a ton of people around who think you are a genius and an art god basically.

sending much love

not sure how to respond to all this... thank you for the kind words <3

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HE SAID "WHISKEY"

firebreak time: did anyone else get a dialogue between hank and jerry with hank mentioning "lizzy"? or something like that. i couldn't record it but. anyone. i'm just curious

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oh my dear friend self isolation you've tricked me once again :(

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🌀 Some say that it loops forever, This road that I lose you on every time🌀

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black calla lilies for the Director

black calla lilies are often associated, among other things, with mystery, mourning and transformation

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(Dis)connect

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Me, the mighty director of the FBC: [whiffs yet another shot on a stationary Hiss] The Board: ...

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sometimes when i'm having a down day i just scroll your darling drawings and admire how you draw matthew porretta's weird but also handsome face. it's my zen zone, thank you for contributing to my peace and mental health 💛

oh, i'm glad someone enjoys him as much as i do <3

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misc sketches i abandoned and never bothered to show. just cleaned em up a bit and decided to post so they don't get lost among many other wips