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I didn't say anything to anyone, Haz. It wasn't like against you or anything. I just couldn't. I wanted to just forget about it and I thought that keeping it inside would make it a lot easier. Yeah, it's extremely unlucky. It'd be different if it was just some other person who fell for him, but it's Liam.. I can't hurt him. What- what do you mean? How could this work? What? Harry.. are you being serious? Cause I don't- Do people actually do that?

You can’t help having feelings for someone — trust me, I know. Why didn’t you say something to me? You know you can trust me, Zayn. I’d have been there for you to try and help you understand your feelings a bit better. As for Niall finding out, you couldn’t help that. You had to tell him. It’s not ridiculous at all, it’s just unlucky that both of you fell in love with the same guy. This could work, y’know. Do you have any feelings for Liam? Any at all? Don’t think on the bad side, this could all be okay.

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The actual beginning happened a while back though, always knew I felt more for Niall but it scared the fuck out of me.. and then there was Perrie. I've been fighting with it for a while, Haz. But sometime last month me and Ni were cuddling and they said something on t.v. and I can't even fucking remember what it was and suddenly I realized that I was in love with him.. Which is stupid, it's all stupid. I was just gonna hold it in, never wanted to say anything to anyone because I didn't want to risk it. Maybe everything would have been okay that way, but now he knows and I know Liam feels the same way about Niall and Niall knows that too. And I don't want to hurt either of them. And this fucking ridiculous.

Start from the beginning. If you don’t tell me what’s happened  I won’t be able to help Z.

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Yeah, yeah.. Probably wouldn't be the worst idea. Not even sure where to start though, Haz. How did everything manage to get this fucked up?

Zaynie, we need a chat so it seems.

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Not even putting this under a readmore because what was just said was absolute fucking bullshit. DO NOT ATTACK ANYONE FOR STARTERS. Fucking asshole hiding behind an anon button on the Internet. Secondly, did anyone in this rp say that they weren’t okay with/didn’t like what was going on? No, no we fucking didn’t. So mind your own business. God you spineless cunt. Do not attack any of our players. Drama is totally good ic but once you turn into a piece of shit and attack people ooc…. That’s the shit I don’t like. Kindly go fuck yourself and leave our Liam and all of our other players alone.

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MAKE THE PAIN STOP.

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Okay, Niall. Take all the time you need, alright? And don't worry about us.. We'll be okay. We'll all be okay. You're usually the one that says that.. Just make this decision for yourself, no matter what it is. You don't have to be with either of us.. We both just care about you and want you to be happy more than anything, okay? I love you, Nialler.

Fuck the both of you because this changes everything now. I don’t hate you guys. I still love you. I love you both so much, I just…I need time to think, okay?

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Liam... told you? I- fuck Niall. Yeah, I am. I've loved you for a while now, just couldn't admit it. M'sorry. Didn't want to do this to you.. Don't want to upset you or hurt Liam.. I just, forget it Niall. Okay? I don't want us to not be best mates anymore because I can't control how I feel.

….Are you in love with me too? Like Liam is…?

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You are though, Niall. Completely perfect. I don't think I can.. As much as I want too. I could hurt some other people pretty badly and maybe lose at least one of you guys and I don't want that.. I don't want to be the downfall of not just One Direction but our friendships. It is important to me, it's so important to me.. But there are things a lot more important than how I feel.

M’not perfect, silly. Oh, come on..tell me then! It was obviously important if you were willing to bring it up, Z…

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Yeah, Niall. You'll always be my Shawn, okay? I- .. What? No. No there's nothing on your face.. Uh.. Nothing, Ni. You're perfect. Don't worry about it... It's just.. it was stupid. M'sorry. Just I'm really glad to have you back.

Yeah, nobody likes watching something like Psych alone. It’s like something you watch with your best mate, y’know? You’re like…You’re like my Gus, Zayn. My own personal Gus, and I love that. Me? What about me? Do I got something on my chin or summin’? 

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fucking zaniam needs to happen. like asap. just work on things with liam and you could all love eachother like you both love niall.

IDK  mannnn anons are feeling it too. hahahha

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everything huRTs.

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I know you would have been, Niall. S'okay, really. Uh.. Yeah, yeah. I finally talked to Lou about it today, but maybe.. maybe I won't take his advice, I'm not sure anymore. About anything. Fuck. No, I definitely did. Had to watch Psych all by myself, no body enjoys doing that when they should be cuddling.. You know we would have loved too, but we all had our own shit to deal with. Don't.. freak out, alright? Just you don't need to say anything okay? You, Niall... It's you.

Sorry, I would have been there if I could have been, you know that, right? Besides, s’not like you didn’t have Liam or something. You could have talked to any of the boys, or you coulda’ called me, Zayn. Alright, we don’t gotta talk about her, don’t worry. You missed me more? Hardy har har. Greg would have loved to have you there, but it ain’t my fault you little shits didn’t come. You didn’t have to say anything like that, it’s just the vibe I got from this? Who is it? Confused? ‘Bout what? Tell me! C’monnn. I won’t tell!

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I think- I think I have to tell him, Louis. Because he is worth the risk, and whatever happens I won't let this ruin all of us, okay? If he doesn't want this or if it really hurts Liam, I'll just let it go.. But I can't not tell him. I have to tell him..

Thanks for that I guess. I just can’t help, but think things would be easier if me and Harry got together earlier,you know.I don’t freak out that much. It’s going to be hard, but you  have to ask your self is it worth the risk. I promise you that if you tell him, shit will happen. Are you ready for that? You either hide it and find something that makes you forget about him or man up and tell him.

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Kind of. Didn't help that I didn't have my best mate around, ya know? It was definitely for the best.. Already told you how things were going. Don't really want to talk about her right now though. Same for you though, alright? Long as you're happy, I'm happy. Remember that, okay? I missed you more, Nialler. S'not the same without you around. Ha. Wish we could've been there, would have been fucking sick. You've always been important, Ni. Don't say you're not. What? I didn't.. say anything like that. I don't know. I'm just confused about everything...

Shit few days? Because of the break-up? I’m sorry, man. Maybe it was for the best though? I mean, didn’t even seem like you liked her much anyways, and I just want you happy, so like, do whatever makes you so. I missed you though. Greggy’s wedding was totally missing you and the boys. You dunno what you’d do without me? Come on, man — I ain’t that important. Confused? How come? There somebody else? Spilllllll it.

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Be honest, Zaynie.

You want me to be honest and everyone else wants me to lie. I don’t know what to do anymore.

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M'sorry Niall.. 'Course I'm happy to see you! Just had a shit past few days. No, you shouldn't have just stayed in Ireland. What would the four of us do without you? What would I do without you? Uhhh.. Me and Perrie broke up and I'm just really confused right now. 

..You don’t even look remotely happy to see me.. Should I have just…stayed in Ireland, or something?

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We couldn't rush you into anything, we knew you would figure it out yourself when you were ready. We were worried you would freak yourself out a bit, you're rather good at doing that. I-.. I know. You're right. I have to just forget it.. But I don't know if I can Lou. M'not fucking sure how to go about any of this. How can I act the same around him now that I know what I really feel and that I can't do anything about it?

So everyone knew! You guys should have told me. Things might have moved along a little bit faster. I guess I don’t know exactly how you are feeling, but I can help. Oh, and just so you know you guys are little fuckers for just sitting there and watching me and Harry fall in love and not saying anything. You don’t have to be gay. You are just in love. Don’t label it if you don’t want too….Shit! Niall, that’s interesting. I know I’m supposed to be the supportive best friend that tells you to go for it anyways, but I’m not going to tell you to do that. You do need to back off. This sucks and I am sorry,but please Zayn, I am begging you, move on. This will only  end up with someone getting hurt and shit, I am so sorry this is happening to you.