atharvsandeshjadhav

[atharvsandeshjadhav]

Dairy

I am keep failing, failing and failing. I just can't do anything, I am still obese, useless and mess. All I have is just confusion. I am not meant to be in this world. There is nothing I can change inside me or in my body. I don't blame this on anyone. It's that I am weak and I have failed the Gods. There is nothing I can do. I just want to end this.

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8 April 2023,

Today nothing really happened, I was in my house with my parents. I was losing my hopes for not overcome my addiction towards my phone. Then Sidak helped me to just not give up and try again if you fail. It really motivated me. So I have decided not to use my phone, only read books or go for a walk.

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6 April 2023

Nothing happened yesterday and nothing happened today I just can't remove this procrastination and laziness. I have decided this everytime but I always fail. I am just helpless here.

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4 April 2023

Woke up in the morning, decided to not use my phone but I failed, I just want to just remove this addiction. I want to focus on my health, on my studies, I want to gain more knowledge. I gone for my internship, I told before and was doing my job. And came to home at 3pm and was just checking my phone playing some games and watching videos on YouTube. And my fat body, I don't like this body I want to go to gym but there many expenses my parents has to face. I Skipped the typing class coz I was tired. I want to invite my friends for party in barbecue nation, but there is always a problem. I can't invite my recent friends Sidak and Neel because Sidak is vegetarian and Neel is busy, and I can't even call my old friends like Soham Sumeet coz it's like they have forgotten about me and it's just me who not let them go. Only I was there to text them first, they never talk to, no old friends. I want to keep up by being alone, you know it hurts so much. Then when I ate my dinner, I visited my Uncle's house to meet my grandmother, I really miss her. She was the one who made me fat because of her love. Then gone for walking, again listening to BHAGAVAD GITA. Came home with milk and ice Cream. So the day was just normal not bad.

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3rd April 2023

So today, I gone to my father's business for internship. The company is about advertising of business and designing of posters and stuff to decorate the interior of the office. I meet a lady, she was so sweet, she explained everything about the company and how many clients we have in our company, so it was a better learning experience than being in school for 15 years. They taught me about the work, I have to just make a report in Excel, and then I go to home by train. Rest for couple of hours. And then at 5 I went to my typing class for Marathi Typing, I have taken admission, by the way I am really fast in typing. Then go to my home and ate the dinner and gone for walk listening BHAGAVAD GITA Chapter 2. And now I am going to sleep and wake up fast in the morning. And my aim for today is not to use any social media tomorrow, means no YouTube, no Instagram, I will either read book or sleep. So overall today was the great day.

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2nd April 2023

Nothing much happened today in morning, I tried to meditate but I can't, my parents were at home I spend some time with them at home watching movies and gone for a walk. I also watched my phone. Me and father went to Baber to cut my hair. I read some pages of the book I recently told THE POWER OF HABIT. And tomorrow I am going for my job, not tell it as a job, it's my father's friend's office, they will teach me about finance and accounting. So I am so excited for tomorrow. This day was good.

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1st April 2023

It was a good day for me. Why? Because I controlled myself and didn't watch my phone. And for a day I was not using my phone but it lasted no longer and for lunched, I had the strong urge to use my phone and at last I used it and failed, but I didn't watch my phone for over long duration and I fell really confident about. So during this, The period of not using phone, on morning I controlled myself and then meditate for some couple of minutes. Gone for a walk without my earbuds, I have a habit of taking my earbuds and listen to songs but I didn't take it. I was just walking freely observing everything on my way, the nature, the building, roads, trees, butterflies, flowers and then I took a shower and made a filter coffee. After that I read a book I brought in my birthday THE POWER OF HABIT, it is a really important book for a person who wants to change a destructive behaving like smoking, Drinking alcohol or obsessive eating. It gives a study about habit, how it is formed, how it can be changed. Overall it's the best books I have ever taken. And I completed the prologue chapter. And then I played with my tennis ball, you know the throwing it to the wall and it bounce back to you, Yeah I was playing that. At lunch time, you know I got the strong urge and took my phone. Disappointing but I will not fail again I guarantee that. I have build a confidence. So, at night after dinner at 9pm, me and dad go for a walk. So I took my phone and listen to the audiobook of BHAGAVAD GITA, and I have completed the 1st chapter Arjun Vishad Yog. Where Arjun telling Krishna that he can't fight the war because he was in a delusion same as me, he is a really skilled archer but yeat he was afraid and coward to not do his duty like me. I can relate to Arjun too, I have addiction of social media and I am in a comfort zone, I should break free from this comfort zone and be a strong men. And overall it was a good 😊 👍 day.

[atharvsandeshjadhav]

Hello Dairy

I am Atharv Sandesh Jadhav

I am from India

My Interest are Finance, Politics, Games, Movies

I am a shy, introvert guy, and I am obese so I have decided to improve myself. I got freedom from my school after 15 years of suffering. I have phone or social media addiction. So I post everyday my experience as if it is my dairy. So I would post my first day of this dairy

H31st March 2023,

I had my last board exam accounts, it was really difficult paper, and that paper didn't go well. But I was not very upset because I felt like a huge burden has been taken off in my life. I was sad that I would not meet my friends again Sidak and Neel. My parents are not expecting high marks. They want me to just pass the exam. My parents were really happy, we watched John Wick 4 movie in theatre, and the movie was really awesome and just fascinating, the fighting is just so brilliant. Then we go to restaurant for dinner and then came back home. It was the best day of my life.