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Life

There are two types of single people 

desperately wants to be in a relationship

desperately wants to remain single for as long as possible 

I am both.

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If children of color have to be aware of the realities of racism, white children should too.

I’m tired of hearing that white children are too young to understand the consequence of their words or actions when for nonwhite kids they live with the impact of racism every day 

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Tinder Chronicles

I apologize for the delay in my posts about my experiences. Life has a funny way of distracting you, ya know. But I have not been keeping up with my many questions and thoughts as I go through the antics of tinder. My first one I have for you all is how, or why, does the age change on tinder? Or do these fellas change them on purpose? And if so, why? I'm still trying to figure out the match-up programming system tinder uses. I get a lot of military men, and I liked one young man who was fully tatted, and now more young, handsome, inked men have been popping up. It's probably based on your likes. I'm fascinated with this app. It's a great form of entertainment. Let's be honest, I do my best tindering at about 2-3 in the morning. And the best part about it, I don't have raunchy conversations. These guys are really trying to get to know me. It's sweet. Now if only I would step out of my bubble and go on a date with one of them. I'm working on stepping out of my comfort zone. Tinder made me realize I am shy when it comes to guys and I fear rejection. I never approach first, so I have been trying to spark the conversations with them first. Guys like girls who can take control and initiative sometimes too, right? Anyways...until next time tumblr - stay on the look out for more Tinder Chronicles ✌🏾️

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The Asian broom of life

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Tinder Chronicles 3

Now that it has been almost a week into my tinder experiences, I would like to take the time to evaluate the app as a whole. 

I do believe the app is a genius idea for connecting and dating. As a young woman in this day and age, dealing with the generation we live in, no one dates anymore. We all ‘talk’ to someone, but nothing is official. I spent my younger years looking forward to the moments I would share with young men where we laughed and talked on silly, fun date nights. Whether it was over dinner or doing something fun such as go-kart racing. But in most cases, we don’t hear about these experiences much anymore. Everyone is just ‘talking.’

Tinder does provide an opportunity to bring that back. Of course you get the crazy ones who want to ask ‘wana fuck,’ but I have had a significant amount of guys actually ask me what I would like to do on a date and how they can make that happen. Quite sweet. I love that there are people that are still looking to date and share in those experiences. 

Even if we come out as just being friends, or having an awful time (not quite possible, I’m too laid-back and cool of a girl to have a bad time with) is an experience we all need to take part in. They make the best stories for our lives. 

What tinder has also shown me about myself (I know... who would have thought that tinder was teaching me valuable aspects and revelations about my love life) is that I am fully capable of being the one to initiate a conversation with someone I find appealing. It is scary, and nerve-wrecking to put yourself out there. I do not know how men do it on a constant basis. But I am a confident and fun young woman, who is more than capable of going after what I would want - including my love interests. I don’t have to just sit around and wait for someone else to approach me or spark up the conversation and potential relationship that could thrive. 

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Tinder Chronicles 2⃣

I must know what is the appeal of asking a girl, woman, young lady 'wana fuck?' Does that really get you guys very far? Has it ever worked for you in the past? I feel like I cannot honestly be turned on or attracted to someone who answers my question of 'how long have you been living here' with 'wana fuck.' There's No way, for the pure fact of the matter is you have no class in your approach. At least stimulate the conversation with me first. Then you can throw that out there. Another inquiry I have, based today's tinder experience, is do you fellas have some sort of explanation as to why body pics with your penises in them. Where is the fascination? Unwarranted pics are not my idea of appealing or attracting either. On the other hand, I have had some great start up conversations. I was anticipating some really bad introductions to come flying at me in my messages with the matches I've made, but majority of the guys have been tame and nice. Casual conversation where we are able to get to know one another. I have found a couple of people I know on tinder. Quite entertaining to see their profiles pop up. Friends from classes I haven't seen in awhile I have been able to reconnect with. My real thought process on this whole tinder experience is has anyone actually found a solid relationship on tinder....

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No More Goodbyes

I am so tired of telling people and things I love and care about its ok to leave my life. Whether in death or relationships, friendships or pets. And then everything leaves me in shambles, I'm left to pick up pieces of me that fell apart while everyone and everything else moved on. I'm so tired of saying goodbye. Or see you later. Or whatever way you want to bid adieu to whatever it is that is leaving me. In the last year I have said so many goodbyes. Where are the hellos, the hey how's it going's, the welcome's? Maybe I just love too hard - which is why my goodbyes hurt so much. But if you're going to love and care, why only partially do it? What a waste of all you have to offer.

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Tinder Chronicles 1

So far, in my 18 or so hours on tinder I have thoroughly enjoyed myself. It is quite an entertaining social experience. As of now, what I have found to be my catching factors are: intriguing pictures, Vegas locals only, must be over the age of 21 (really at least 23, but if you can't buy me a drink there's no reason for us to even speak), and interesting profile description. I find play on words and silly sayings in profile descriptions to be the most capturing. As a young lady who loves to read and write, intellectual stimulation is what attracts me to someone more than physicality (this is probably why nudes do not appeal to me in any aspect whatsoever). The messages are very tame. Not as outrageous as most people like to make them seem - but it's still early. I've only matched with 20+ young men. The experience is still young. Let us continue........

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Tinderly Linderly Doo

On a relaxing Friday night, as I sit and type a case note about the diversification of Google and its business strategy, I allow some friends of mine to convince me it's a wonderful idea to join tinder. You all know tinder - that wonderful social networking site where you swipe left or swipe right to determine if you want to like or pass on someone. My initial reaction is 'hell no' for the pure fact that I have purposefully stayed off of tinder because the things that come out of the male species' mouths just walking around at work shows me there's such a lack of decency in their brains that a social networking site can only warrant worse interactions. That and past experiences have shown me I'm right. This morning for example - I had the fantastic pleasure of waking up to a shower nude from a young man whom I have not shared a full length conversation with in years. Yet, that stopped him not from allowing his pretentious shower selfie to enter my inbox via snapchat. So although I would have liked to refrain from the site, I found that it would be a fun time to experiment and see what I get. And in that time, I want to chronicle the experiences I am lucky to share with so many others on this here tinder of love. Stay tuned..........

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If I don’t remember who I am, then who’s to say I’m not a princess or a duchess, right?

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Protect & Serve To Instill Fear?

In most instances, when I’m pulled over by an officer of the law, I get annoyed or irritated. I’m sure I did something wrong I wasn’t fully focusing on, but I’m mad that I got caught. However, in light of many uncanny events, when I was pulled over last night, I was scared. Terrified for the events that would follow. Would I have a good cop who did what he was supposed to? Would I get an asshole who would take one look at me and decide I was the one person to screw with? Would I be injured? Would I be dead by the end of all of this? I find it quite disturbing that those are the emotions, thoughts, and questions that ran through my mind as I sat in my driver’s seat waiting for the officer to approach my car. The fact is we see it - everyday there is a new instance, a new event of someone being brutally beaten or killed by those we pay to protect our lives. I do not work this hard for my tax dollars to pay for that type of behavior; for me to feel so much fear when I see read and blue lights flashing behind me. I was not given a ticket, the officer was kind enough to just inform me to watch my speed and that my taillight was out. But that does not take away from the feelings I felt as I sat there. Wondering what would happen next; would I be the next face on the front page of the newspapers for wrongful death? That is the world we now live in.

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one time i actually thought i had a chance with someone 

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Knowing What You Want

People always ask "what do you want to be when you grow up," "what's your dream job?" I give the same answer every time - I don't know. And I always say it with full confidence - knowing that every day I'm learning something new about myself. Therefore, what I want to do with my life, my end career goal, constantly changes as I learn more about me and what I want out of life. There is no end of the staircase for me. I have not a single idea about what that top floor looks like, or where my stairs lead to. I go through things, events, circumstances that change my every thought. Life gives me insight, and it has taught me that I do not go through my situations to not use them to help others. And I can do that at any point in time (thanks social media!). Growing up in the Harry Potter generation, I have realized the stairs I'm climbing are the ones that move as you are trying to get to your dormitory. Never know where you will end up. You just hope that at some point at the end of the day, you get to that destined location safely - your bed. You can reboot, and deal with the changing stairs all over again tomorrow. Embrace not knowing what you want to do. The more you learn about yourself, the easier that answer will come to you.

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Originality of Hating the Mainstream

I believe everyone is so caught up in trying to be the first to like something or know about something. Then when it becomes "mainstream" you hate it, JUST because it has become popular. But why? It almost seems as if you only liked it because no one else did and you felt as if you were "original." Well let's start off with you're not. If you found it, there's at least 1,000 others who know about it as well. Even if it does become a mainstream aspect of culture, you should still enjoy whatever it is because you truly enjoy it. Does it lose its value just because everyone else started to like it too? Why is it that you feel like it's something that should have stayed secret? But we are constantly sharing this information with our friends, and family, and coworkers. Because if we don't, we have no one to connect with on what we may like. Then you're stuck feeling alone. So what is it? You want people to now about it? But not too many people? Because too many people may tarnish YOUR enjoyment? Or do you just want to be known as someone 'who liked it before it was popular?' (Don't be that guy.) But alas, who cares if everyone else catches on or not. You either enjoy it on the solo, or have a million folks to enjoy it with you. It is still yours to enjoy.

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When it goes down, & you have the urge to cry. But you don't. Because the situation is undeserving of your tears. #Strength