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as an audhd.. yes.

my life with ADHD

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oh boy, what a lovely piece of media I have just consumed! I can’t wait to be completely normal about it!

*…cracks open Notion*

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items i have in my wr :P

wanted to show you guys... i love my wr <3

CANES.

i fucking love canes so much, and there isnt one near me in my or.

Stardew Valley!

Stardew is one of my favorite games ever. I will not elaborate, it is simply perfect.

i cant think of anything else.... help

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"its 3 in the fucking morning.. what are you doing?" - a dr scenario

a/n ;; saw a post with this photo of matthew gray gubler, so im using it as inspo for a silly little scenario. i lost the photo. im crying

content ;; fluffy. just fluffy. slight insomnia mention if u squint

It's late. very late. I realize that when I roll over and look at the clock: 2:59 am. groaning softly, I toss and turn, only to find that Spencer's side of the bed is empty.

huh?

Rubbing the sleepiness out of my eyes, I head down the stairs of our shared apartment when light begins to blind me. Is the kitchen light on? Am I crazy? Did I die? My first question is proved correct when I step into the kitchen to find my boyfriend, grinning. He’s standing there, just.. Staring. Like a weirdo.

“Love..” I practically whisper, as if afraid to wake someone. Maybe he’s sleep walking? “What the hell are you doing?” 

He giggles. It’s soft, mischievous. “I wanted cheese.”

Cheese?

The admission catches me off guard. It is three o’clock in the morning, and my boyfriend got out of bed for cheese? “Ookay.. Well, why are you standing there now?” I ask, folding my arms over my chest. He’s still grinning. Half of me thinks I’m fucking dreaming. “Because, I was waiting to see if you’d come down.”

Of course he was.

“Well, you got me.” As I walk towards him, his hands find their solace on my waist. My eyes find his– I can see the sleepiness in those hazel depths. “You couldn’t sleep, could you?” He shakes his head. “No.”

Stretching up to kiss him is an easy enough feat. He practically melts against my lips. “Why didn’t you tell me?” I murmur against them. He just shakes his head again, like I’ve said something I already know the answer to. “You need sleep.”

“So do you.” 

Spencer playfully rolls his eyes. “Then we’ll not-sleep together.”

It’s my turn to shake my head. “Nuh-huh. You’re going back up those stairs and into bed.” He pouts, looking even more like the 16 year old boy I met with puppy-dog eyes too big for his face. I still remember it– eidetic memory to thank. “Don’t give me that look, Reid.”

He scoffs at the use of his last name. “Are we going to play that game, James?” My surname sounds so odd coming from his lips; we’ve never used it outside of the field. Even so, he always calls me Ross. 

“I guess not..” I say, lacing my fingers through his. Sleep will come eventually, I assume. “We can go to the couch. Doctor Who should still be on the DVR.”

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when ur drself is 🎧♟️📓☕🖋️ but also 💼🕰️🤎🚪🥾 and also TOO MANY MORE UGH

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my smarty pants <3

Criminal Minds - One Quote per Episode ↳ s06e22 - Out of the Light

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GET IT. shiftblr does not deal with this yall!

Message to @alphaltrainreflection

First of all, bitch, where did I ever say anything about "eroticizing inferiority"? Like, be fucking for real. Show me the receipts. Because unless you’re reading between lines that don’t exist, nothing in my post said anything about power dynamics, submission, or “inferiority.” It sounds like you’re projecting some judgmental bullshit that I didn’t even invite into the conversation. So let’s start there—check yourself before you come into my space twisting my words to fit your weird little agenda.

Second of all, and I mean this with every ounce of sincerity, shut the fuck up. Genuinely, if you don’t like what you see, don’t interact. It’s that simple. Not everyone has to match your narrow idea of what shifting is “supposed” to be. Shifting isn’t some gated community where you get to play security guard and decide who’s allowed in. So do us all a favor, take that rigid-ass energy, and keep it to yourself, bitch.

Let’s be real for a second. You said, “sex freaks who insist on eroticizing inferiority are ruining shifting.” Bitch, nobody’s ruining anything—especially not me. All I said was that I want to get fucked. Plain and simple. If my desire to shift for a good time offends you, you’re free to move along. Shifting means different things to different people, and if sex is part of that, it’s totally valid. If I want to shift to a reality for some damn good dick, who the fuck are you to get all sanctimonious about it? Newsflash: your opinion on what’s “appropriate” doesn’t apply here, darling.

And let’s get one thing fucking clear, because clearly, you need this spelled out: even if someone did want to shift to a reality where they take on a more passive, submissive role, what of it? Why the fuck does that bother you so much? Some people spend their whole lives having to be strong, holding shit together, constantly defending themselves, and staying in control just to survive. Maybe, just maybe, they want to create a reality where they can finally let go, surrender, and trust someone who respects them and won’t take advantage of them. Imagine that—feeling safe enough to let down your guard and explore a side of yourself you don’t get to express in this life. For some people, that’s healing. For others, it’s fun. Either way, it’s their choice, not yours. So back the fuck off.

So let’s talk about this “ruining shifting” nonsense you pulled out of nowhere. Bitch, the only thing “ruining” anything is people like you, stomping into conversations uninvited and acting like you’re the gatekeeper of how others should experience their desires. You’re clinging to this imaginary rulebook about what’s “appropriate” for shifting as if that makes you morally superior, but all it does is make you look insecure, judgmental, and way too invested in other people’s business. Spoiler alert: nobody gives a fuck about your approval or needs it to validate their experience.

Here’s the truth, since you seem to need a wake-up call: shifting is deeply personal. It’s about self-determination and freedom, not conforming to some rigid-ass code of conduct set by random bitches on the internet. If someone wants to shift for spiritual growth, self-discovery, sexual exploration, or all of the above, that’s their fucking prerogative. Shaming them because it doesn’t align with your limited, vanilla-ass view of what’s “appropriate” is straight-up pathetic.

And by the way, bitch, sex is a natural, beautiful, and completely valid part of life. If I want to shift for sex, or if someone else wants to shift to feel cherished, adored, or, yes, even submissive, that’s nobody’s fucking business but ours. Maybe instead of trying to drag others down to your level of insecurity, you could take a hard look in the mirror and figure out why other people’s sexual autonomy bothers you so damn much. Because this isn’t about “ruining shifting”; it’s about you being uncomfortable with the idea of someone enjoying themselves in a way that’s different from what you deem acceptable. Maybe some self-reflection would do you some good.

To every other shifter out there who’s ever been made to feel guilty or “lesser” for shifting for your own reasons, listen up: you don’t owe anyone an explanation, and you don’t need anyone’s approval. Your DR, your fucking rules. If shifting for you is about finding love, intimacy, exploration, or yes, even some good dick, that’s your choice. Don’t let some insecure bitch shame you or make you feel like you’re somehow ruining the experience just because it doesn’t fit into their narrow little box. Shifting is about creating the life and reality you want to live—whatever the fuck that looks like for you.

So, here’s a suggestion: take your unsolicited, holier-than-thou attitude and keep it to yourself. If you can’t handle seeing people talk openly about their desires and goals for shifting, then bitch, scroll past and save yourself the outrage. Because at the end of the day, I’m not here to please you, and neither is anyone else. We’re here to live our best lives, however we see fit, and if that’s too much for you, the door’s right over there.

To everyone who’s out here shifting for what they want, keep going. Own your desires, own your reality, and don’t let anyone’s outdated judgment make you feel like you’re doing it wrong. Shifting is your journey, and if that includes exploring intimacy, vulnerability, or sexuality, you’re not alone. You’re valid, and your experience is just as real and important as anyone else’s.

Consider this your reminder that no one’s begging for your approval. I’ll be over here, unbothered, shifting for exactly what I want, and loving every fucking second of it. ✨

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Manifesting. Using Loa. All of it. I’m using all of it to just relax and let go.

Let go of expectations in shifting. Letting go of this reality. Letting go the control of needing to see things in order to believe.

I’m letting go and trusting myself.

Trusting myself to get me the fuck out of this reality. Cuz that hasn’t changed. I need fucking out.

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Me every time I go to sleep, I think about whether I should shift, whether I'm going to be able to do it, because I don't know if I'll be able to continue waking up one more day in this reality.

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IS MY RECREATION ACCURATE

the only thing I'll use DTI for.

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the #REAL sexiest man alive if people’s magazine had a real bitch working for them :/

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When someone's most used apps are tumblr notion and pinterest

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So you only feel delusional when you assume good things about yourself

But when it comes to assuming negative things you don’t feel delusional?

Got it

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"not everything in your script will happen!! some things just wont be able to happen!" yes they will? get the fuck out of my script

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teehee im half deaf so i will never experience this

(in this reality)

its so crazy that headphones work. play the same sound in both ears and it sounds like its literally happening inside you

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no but on a side note? the song in this gif is an AMAZING song for shifting/pure consciousness inducing. just a thought.

I used to pray that somehow this reality would change one day so I could be with my ccs and then I discovered reality shifting