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This is SO AWESOME and I cannot say enough what this means!! Thank you so much @luce-speaks 🥹🥹

Yay @beancret-santa

Happy @beancret-santa to @bad-beans !! I present to you: one of my favorite moments from the Legally Blonde musical :D

plus a full-page picture and the final art next to my first and second sketch

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Ok was not expecting to start crying before 8am 🥹🫶

(I miss my sister you guyssss)

a sister is forever

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Happy first full day of friendship

Nick and Jay meet tonight :)

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OMGGG

Fuuta kajiyama but uhhh he's Jeremy heere?

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I think I’ve realized that subconsciously one of the reasons I think Wait For Me from Hadestown is one of the greatest love songs for me is because a lot of people who are really important to me always end up leaving. Not like leaving me/ending the specified relationship we have but either the Event that connect us has ended or they must move on to a different time of their life while I’m at a different part of mine so we are physically separated by a life that we cannot be mutually apart of for the time being. But it feels more often than not that I’m the one “left behind” and when im the one leaving it feels really crappy.

But in WFM even tho they both left each other to fix what they needed (he left during the storm, she left with hades) he knew that his life wouldn’t be fulfilled if she wasn’t with him so he asked her to wait until he could join her again and promised he was doing everything in his power to be there. As the “left behind” , the idea that someone would go through hell to CATCH UP to you because their “I have to move on in life” means moving on to where you are is the most beautiful and comforting thing.

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EVERYBODY SHUT UP ABT ANYTHING ELSE AND GO TELL BEANS HOW COOL ROSE IS RIGHT NOW JDNJXNCJSJCNKSJXKXKC

Massive Milgramsona art/info dump as a treat to myself!! Alas, my fatal flaw is being unable to shut up about anything even while simultaneously embarrassed/nervous to share, so here's literally all the info I have on her 😅

Profile:

Name: For the sake of posting online I’ll call her Rose!

Number: 012

Color: #E7355B

Age: She’d be 20 when Milgram started

Status: Milgram Staff, Machine Technician

Song genre: Pop/theater (a mix of Mahiru and Kazui's vibes)

Backstory: She is studying abroad in Japan to work on technology related to the mv machine when she stumbles into top secret info about the trials. Horrified at the lack of prior testing, she demands to be included in the experiment to make sure the brand new tech runs smoothly and doesn't harm anyone in the process. To prevent her leaking info to the public and deciding an extra participant wouldn't hurt, Milgram agrees.

Role: Rose performs routine maintenance and updates on the extraction machine, and checks in with prisoners' health to make sure it's not having any adverse effects. She listens in on the interrogations, ringing the bell to signal Es when the machine is ready for use (re: my theory on how it works >:3). She then watches the mvs after Es to make sure there are no glitches.

(Though she is a personal milgramsona, her role in the story is supposed to reflect the audience's experience overall when it comes to how much info we know, emotions we experiencing regarding guilt/responsibility, and how much power over events we actually have given the voting system and trial breaks.)

Trial 1

Jackalope's comments during trial commencement: Oh, I almost forgot participant 012, Rose. We've never had more than one staff member before, so we figured that sort of numbering would be fine. Hey, don't look at me, it's not like it was our idea to include her. She's not a prisoner -- the only crime she's committed is sticking her nose where it didn't belong... You can ask her for the details, but she's just here for maintenance on our extraction machine. It's not easy keeping that thing running smoothly, you know? As part of her duties, she'll be privy to all the same information as you, but don't let her be any more of a busybody than she already is -- she has absolutely no authority when it comes to your verdict decisions, got it?

MV: Mic Check - “Can anyone hear me?”

VD: Positive Feedback

Cover: Pathological Facade - Ghost

Her album would release last in line. The VDs aren't interrogations since there's been no crime -- Es asks about her duties and observations of the prison. In them, she admits her predictions that she and Es will eventually be on trial for their involvement in the prisoner's fates.

Thus, her mvs are focused on her emotions towards the prisoners, her pride in helping bring justice, and her guilt at providing Milgram a means to pass judgement on people she cared about. I'm going to Goncharov the actual mvs/songs, but Mic Check is generally an introduction to her job behind the scenes prepping the equipment that will allow the prisoners' songs to be heard, as well kick off symbolism of her as a performer herself. She'll make a comment about how the experiment is leading to tragedy, "as if someone said Macbeth" (then covers her mouth, as she's standing in a theater herself).

I kept getting tripped up looking for Deco*27 songs that worked and weren't already taken, so I decided to go with some favorites and vibe-matching songs from other artists!

Comments during trial closing: It's good to hear you weren't a pushover when Rose gave her thoughts on the verdicts -- you guys disagreed on quite a few of them, eh? Ah... so she's not the type to pick fights, is that it? I guess that explains how she's managed to get along with everyone. (sigh) Even you knew better than to get attached like that. Well, at least she's kept our machine up and running the whole time.

Trial 2

Commencement: Now I need to wake Rose. We're going to need some extra upgrades to our machine if we want to get the most out of this round of extractions. I've got a sneaking suspicion that she and her bleeding heart are going to try and sway you during this trial. Her duty is specifically to look out for the prisoners' safety, but yours is only to judge them. Don't forget that.

MV: Changement - “Don’t say ‘break a leg,’ if it might just break.”

VD: Control Variable

Cover: TOXY - Kujiragi

I did my best to write out the title pronunciation out in katakana since I wanted it as the name of the dance move, not a direct translation of meaning. I went with シャジェモ "sha-je-mo" as the closest I could get to the "shanj-mou" sound, but feel free to correct me if there's a better way to write it. The door is based off of various set designs for Clara's home in The Nutcracker. (There's no deep meaning that this is the only one not opening -- I realized too late all the others are cracked open and my art app doesn't have the tools to easily fix that so I'm sticking with it 😭)

A changement is a small jump in ballet -- I thought it was fun to combine that (which means "to change") with Control Variable (refering to the variable in an experiment that never changes). The video shows conflicting emotions as her decisions/inaction caused so much to happen between trials, yet at the same time she feels like there's so much she'll be unable to change even if she really wants to intervene. Her mvs show the prisoners pretty regularly (since they are her crime, she's realized), and the teaser line is paired with references to Mahiru's broken leg.

The thumbnail combines different areas of study -- mechanical, medical, musical, mathematical (theater spotlight, muscles, Weakness notes, motion formulas). I think it's super cool how many areas of expertise are passed around the fanbase when discussing the characters. I've picked up new facts about plants, food, anatomy, geography, music, animals language, (sigh. color theory.), hobbies, professions, mythology, etc from fans with different fields of knowledge. While that's one of my favorite aspects of the project from the outside, I think it would be super intimidating to someone on the inside trying to tackle so much information at once.

Closing: As for Rose... (laughs) I thought she was dooming herself before--! Not only has she gotten hopelessly attached to everyone over the course of this trial, she's even started a relationship with one of the prisoners! And of all the people she could have chosen... Eh? Oh no, we have no policies against that for our staff. I mean, the whole point of Milgram is to explore human nature, the power of emotions, the complexities of connections, all that crap. I'm just grateful she shows a bit more common sense when she's operating the machine...

Trial 3

MV: Showstopper - “There won’t be applause, but I’ll take a bow, okay?”

VD: Please Exit Left

Cover: Ironina - Nilfruits

I don't know the album theme yet, but this is the tentative sprite and thumbnail design. The T2 sprite was kind of an "innocent" one, since at the beginning she still has faith in her role in the prison, excited to work with everyone there. (Plus, I joined the fandom a little after t2 started so that's peak excitement time lol). The T3 sprite has much more of a "guitly" feel to it because, at the end of T2 and after this hiatus, she'd harbor a lot more guilt about her position and fear about the experiment's conclusion. As a fun little detail, her pencil has been replaced with a more permanent utensil as final verdicts are locked in.

Now listen. My artist brain was constantly fighting my science brain when doing sprite designs -- I know gloves like that and nothing else isn't proper PPE. I know none of those are safety shoes (god forbid wearing just socks??? to the lab???). There should be no jewellery at all. The whole point of a lab coat is that you don't roll up the sleeves and expose your bare skin. However. It's anime character design. There can be compromise.

Referencing Rose's personal life as a performance and comparing Milgram's trials to one, I wanted the mv to play on "showstopper" as both a great show and a literal attempt to stop the project before it reaches its finale. There would be creepy comparisons in the mv between operating stage equipment and prison executions: curtain/set ropes and nooses, heavy duty lightswitches and electric chairs, etc.

Misc.

And lightening things up again -- birthday art and minigrams :3

Birth flower: Camellias. Pink camellias symbolize love but also longing. The fact that they bloom in winter, and have a quick death (the entire flower wilts at once, instead of individual petals falling off), have inspired different meanings in different cultures -- overcoming hard times, facing death in battle, inseparable lovers, and so on

Three minigrams featuring my own annoyance that her design is a bit close to Shidou's coat/gloves look, a mandatory short joke, and a pun that works so perfectly for my Put-In-Situations guy

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people will claim to be filled with whimsy and joy for life but then hate musicals……. the vile tongue of man will never cease lying

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My search history will NEVER be as incriminating as my fbi photo album.

I can rationally justify any google search- I’m a theatre major who occasionally pirates media- you can confront me about anything I’ve searched. HOWEVER I could never rationally justify why I have a screenshot of your tagged instagram photos from senior year of high school or why my latest picture is a side-by-side comparison of you and Napoleon Dynamite… 😙✌️

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Then I cannot and will not save you now. Womp Womp 🙏

Prisoner: @good-beans (main: @/good-beansdraws, alt: @/good-beanswrites)

Crimes:

Angsty fics ("Attraction Out of Service", "Enough (said)", "I prefer to not be disturbed"; granted, that last one is only sad in retrospect) and headcanons (7 guilties, LCSYS Amane, family reactions to disappearance)

Starting "Order of Attack" by putting out Amane's eye and writing two drabbles when I only asked for one. (If I had written it, Amane would've only been a bit scuffed.)

Writing another OoA drabble with zero prompting from me

Being scandalous on Valentine's Day.

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LOOK WHAT YALL DID! THIS IS WHY I VOTED @good-beans GUILTY! SHE TOLD ME SHE WOULD GO BATSHIT AND NOW ITS YALL’S FAULT.

@good-beans DONT EVEN THINK ABT IT.

Prisoner: @good-beans (main: @/good-beansdraws, alt: @/good-beanswrites)

Crimes:

Angsty fics ("Attraction Out of Service", "Enough (said)", "I prefer to not be disturbed"; granted, that last one is only sad in retrospect) and headcanons (7 guilties, LCSYS Amane, family reactions to disappearance)

Starting "Order of Attack" by putting out Amane's eye and writing two drabbles when I only asked for one. (If I had written it, Amane would've only been a bit scuffed.)

Writing another OoA drabble with zero prompting from me

Being scandalous on Valentine's Day.

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Whomp whomp @good-beans was forgiven :(

Prisoner: @good-beans (main: @/good-beansdraws, alt: @/good-beanswrites)

Crimes:

Angsty fics ("Attraction Out of Service", "Enough (said)", "I prefer to not be disturbed"; granted, that last one is only sad in retrospect) and headcanons (7 guilties, LCSYS Amane, family reactions to disappearance)

Starting "Order of Attack" by putting out Amane's eye and writing two drabbles when I only asked for one. (If I had written it, Amane would've only been a bit scuffed.)

Writing another OoA drabble with zero prompting from me

Being scandalous on Valentine's Day.

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The only actual people you should be wishing happy new year to. CERTAINLY NOT to Jason funderburker.

Best wishes for the new year!

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OUT HERE SPITTING FACTS

careless whisper fucks so insanely hard and i will never forgive the internet for making it a "meme song." tonight the music seems so loud i wish that we could lose this crowd maybe its better this way we'd hurt each other with the things we want to say. if you even care.

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My lyrics for Double!! I really loved this song and became like a thousand times more impressed by Deco27 and Natsuki Hanae after working with it for so long 😅 I chickened out of recording this one in the apartment but if anyone wants to cover it... lmk.... 👀 I can definitely put something together to help hear how the rhythms work, because I got it all to line up very nicely! (Lyrics under the cut and my little commentary in the tags)

(I’ve got you, leave it to me!)

Welcome home, it's another day, keeping things at bay, you see no change

Not a smile in this mess, you're doing your best, you say (wake up)

"Don't need a break" as you proceed to start breaking, both sleeping and waking makes you bleed

And now, reborn anew -- I'll take in on for you

Not your plan? Who gives a damn, I'm here and here is where I'll stay

It's just the two of us, nothing left to run from. You're safe now, your hero's come.

All I did was dream, is that a crime? Is that enough to name me guilty by?

"He can't be trusted, he lied," you cried. Made me out as the bad guy. But why?

Ah, I'm the one that saved you, don't you see? So tell me why the hell you cry to me!

Let me hear you revel, grateful, cling to me with "savior," "adore" -- oh, sing to me.

Welcome home, it's another day, keeping things at bay, you see no change

Too late, your limits passed. Too late, yourself has cracked (goodnight)

If you persist I'll assist with releasing, keeping your peace is why I exist

And now reborn anew -- I'll take it on for you

(Oh, hello? Mom? It’s been a while. Yeah.. well, I mean, some days are hard but I’m doing alright, don’t worry. How’ve you been? I’ll go home next time I get some time off...)

The reason I'm alive, must be making sure that you survive

"He can't be trusted, he lied," you cried. Made me out as the bad guy. But why?

All I did was dream, did you forget? Go on and forgive me, I'm no threat.

Listen to me confess, honest. Eat your words and I bet, regret

Ah, I just tried to help, tried to be strong. So tell me why the hell it's all gone wrong

Let me hear you revel, grateful, cling to me with "savior," "adore" -- don't sing me this song

Lost my memory

I'm double, it was unavoidable

Living painfully

I'm trying, as hard as possible

Tell me, tell me.

If I wasn't born, maybe this trouble --

Tell me, tell me.

It's all my fault

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psych is the show of all time because the entire plot is commit to the bit

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Rumor has it this is a slay……

It's done aahhh 👏👏👏 Here's my edit of @astarryserenade 's English covers in the Jailbreak Mix! The covers are incredible, and she was so helpful putting it together :) I also got some necessary audio editing help from @kyanako5972, thank you so much!

I hope you enjoy ✨

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WE👏SLIDIN👏ALL👏THE👏WAY👏