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Will feels like forever have a chapter 7?!

Yes! Haha I'm dealing with a small case of writers block, but I will definitely finish and put up Chapter 7 as soon as I can. Thank all you guys for reading, it makes me sooo happy that you are enjoying Ellie and Austin's story (: <3

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Feels Like Forever: Austin Carlile Fic

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

It wont let me link chapter 5 for some reason…haha it’s on my blog though!

Chapter 6~~

It was almost ridiculous the way the huge tour bus trucked through the adorable little neighborhood we were making our way through. It was the most beautiful place I’d seen, and the houses in this neighborhood were small, and modest. Nothing like a neighborhood you would expect the lead singer of a metalcore band to reside in. “This is where you live?” I asked looking up at him with a surprised smile on my face. He just smiled back and nodded at me, as I continued to watch out the bus window, waiting to see which house we would stop in front of. Finally we got to the very end of the street where there was a cul de sac with a gorgeous little baby blue house just a bit bigger and nicer looking, in between two other houses. I knew even before we pulled up in front of it that it was his.

The bus stopped and Austin brought his bags and my suitcase up to the front and we stopped to say goodbye (at least for now) to the rest of the guys. I hugged Tino, Phil and Aaron and told them I’d see them soon, as did Austin. Austin looked around for Alan who he found back by the bunks on the phone, it sounded like he was talking to (actually a little more like arguing with) his girlfriend. I stayed up with our bags at the front of the bus while Austin went back to see Alan. I heard Austin and Alan mumbling back and forth to each other and Phil sighed, “Hear we go again..” He grumbled. Tino shook his head and kind of chuckled. “What?” I asked curiously. “Sounds to me like Alan and her are breaking up…again.” Aaron concluded. “Do they break up a lot?” I asked kind of laughing. Aaron stifled a smile and nodded just as Austin came walking back up front. He sighed and kissed my head, grabbing our bags and leading me out the door of the bus. We walked up the pavement leading to the white front door and Austin unlocked it and walked in. “Home sweet home.” He laughed dropping the bags and wrapping his arms around me from behind. I stood there wrapped in the first (and probably last) man I would ever love, looking around at our home. It was small, but big at the same time. The dinning room, kitchen, and living room were all located right inside the door, in one spacious sort of room. You walk in the front door and you could sort of see the entire house. A nice large kitchen area was located off to the side next to a glass wall of window that had a sliding glass door leading to the backyard, and the living area just straight across from the kitchen on the other side of the spacious room. The living area stretched back into a hallway with doors to what I assumed to be bedrooms, next to the winding staircase in between the kitchen and living room, that lead up to a balcony stretching back into another short hallway with a couple more doors. It was perfect. “Would you like a tour of your knew house?” He asked trying to sound like a realtor. I giggled, “Yes. Yes please.” He grabbed my hand and started dragging me all over the house. “So obviously this is the kitchen, empty kitchen actually. We’ll need to get some groceries…” I laughed looking in the fridge and cupboards. He led me into the living room next. “Living room, with enormous sectional couch and flat screen above the fire place and our little movie and video game shelf here off to the side.” We then walked into the hallway, “Two tiny guest rooms and an even tinier bathroom.” He laughed as we came to a door at the end of the hall that had a couple steps leading down to it. He opened it and we walked inside of what I had already had a feeling the room might be might be. A studio. “Now this is my newest most expensive addition to the house. The guys and I all pooled our money together to establish this little place. All the extra instruments, a recording booth, amps, equipment etc.” he smiled over at me, proud of his music room. I beamed back at him. It reminded me of the places I grew up all around and I told him that. He smiled and bent down two kiss me. “Wanna see our room?” He asked softly. I nodded and followed him out of the room through the hallway and up the stairs. The balcony looked over the entire house and the hallway was very short. Just two bedrooms, an extra and the master bedroom. Austin opened the door and walked me into our bedroom. A huge bed with a black comforter, pillows, and sheets sat in the room, with two closets, and a door leading into the master bathroom, with a large glass shower, sink area and big deep bathtub. I looked over at Austin who was just watching me explore it all. I sauntered over to him and pulled his neck down so I could kiss him. “Are you serious?” I whispered against his lips. “More than I’ve ever been about anything in my whole life.” He said back, then kissing me. I wanted to break in our new room. I wanted him. It was just so sexy, being a grown up and the idea of fucking in our house. He caught on to my hunger and reciprocated. Pulling me up so that I could wrap my legs around him. He walked us over to the bed, and laid me down in front of him. He stood over me and just gazed down at me, his eyes all lit up like a kid in a sexy candy store. “Take your clothes off.” He said softly a smirk spreading across his face. I smiled biting down on my lip and obeyed. I lifted my shirt over my head and threw it to the side. I lifted my hips off of the bed provocatively and slid my pants down slowly. I left my underwear on for him to remove. He suddenly ripped his shirt off and over his head and stood there. I let my eyes wander over his beautiful chest and stopped at his belt. I lifted myself off the bed and onto my knees deciding what I wanted first. I undid his belt and unbuttoned his pants, yanking them down a ways (including his boxer briefs) so that his erection was free. I looked at him and smiled as I took it into my hand and started moving my hand up and down its length. He sighed, and I lowered my myself so that I could take him into my mouth. I moved my hand and sucked as he threw his head back and moaned. He put his hands in my hair and started moving my head for me, he pushed himself deep into my throat and groaned while I held my breath trying not to gag. Suddenly he pulled out of my mouth and pushed me back so that I was laying on the bed again. He crawled up to me, kicking out of his pants and brought his face to mine, kissing me hard. He moved from my lips down my jaw line, my chest, my stomach, and moved down to the bottom of my thigh having already removed all my underwear. He kissed and bit down on my thigh the closer he got to my core. He finally made it there and looked up at my with a sly little smirk before trailing his tongue over my entrance. I gasped and gripped the sheets as he slid his tongue up stopping there to circle his tongue over my clit over and over. I moaned his name and moved one of my hands up over his head and tugged at his hair. He stopped suddenly kissing back up my stomach, leaving me throbbing down there, I wanted him so damn bad. He kissed me and I tasted myself on his lips and tongue. He groaned into my ear, “God I want to be inside you so much right now baby.” And bit down on my shoulder. “Yes. Austin….please.” I whimpered wanting him to do it already. He snickered, “How bad do you want it Ellie? Beg for me.” He whispered. I groaned not wanting to wait any longer. “Oh god please Austin. Please just fuck me now. I can’t wait anymore. Please baby.” I begged as softly and sweetly as I could. He moaned and positioned himself at my entrance. He finally pushed himself inside me, I cried out and bit down on his shoulder as he started thrusting himself in and out of me. I felt him brushing up against my G-spot with ever move he made, and to make matters worse he moved his hand up to start rubbing my clit at the same time. “Fuck Austin…” I whimpered as he aggressively moved inside me and I came closer and closer. He moaned, and I noticed his movements becoming more sloppy as he came closer to his release. “Austin…!” I cried panting waiting for the sweet sensation to take me over. He climaxed then and emptied himself inside of me, pressing his face into my neck, sending me over the edge and into my orgasm, I screamed his name. “Good girl, scream baby. Don’t worry no one can here you.” He assured. I shook and rode out my orgasm, probably the best one I’d ever had as we came down from our sexual highs, and looked at each other giggling. “That was the best we’ve ever done.” I laughed. “God babe, you’re so fucking hot all the damn time. Even after fucking the shit out of me you’re still the most adorable thing I’ve laid eyes on.” We laughed and I blushed turning over to hide my face in the sheets.

Suddenly Austin’s phone started to ring. He got up out of the bed and walked over to the dresser where his phone had been sitting and looked to see who was calling. “It’s Allan,” he informed me before answering, “Hey man what’s going on?” He suddenly got a concerned look on his face. “Seriously? She can’t do that, that’s your guys’ apartment.” He stopped to listen again and rolled his eyes. “Well tell her to have fun trying to make the rent on that fucking place all by herself every month. Jesus.” Alan started talking again. Austin sighed, “I don’t know man. I’ll see what I can do, it’s kind of the worst time for that if you know what I mean, we just got home.” He listened to Alan again, “Alright bro, I’ll get back to ya. Alright, bye.” He hung up and sighed. He walked back over to the bed and climbed back in next to me. “What was all that about?’ I asked curiously crawling over and on top of him to rest my chin on his chest, tangling our legs together. He sighed again brushing the hair out of my face this both his hands, “Well… Alan’s girlfriend is kicking him out of their apartment apparently, and he can’t do anything about it because apparently the lease is in her name.” I was starting to realize what was going on. “Oh I see. And it’s the worst time for… what?” I asked smirking up at him showing him I already knew. “Him to stay here.” He mumbled. I kind of chuckled and nodded, waiting for him to go on, “I told him it wasn’t the best time for it, I mean we just got here today. He can find somewhere else.” He reassured. But I didn’t mind. I knew how Austin felt about Alan, how much he loved him, and I knew how happy it would probably make him to have his girlfriend and his best friend living with him. “Nah let him stay here. I don’t care, I love Alan, he’ll be fun to have around.” I encouraged. Austin just stared at me for a few minutes. “Are you even slightly aware of how fucking amazing you are? Like honestly you should come with a warning label that says something like ‘beware this girl will blow your mind in various different ways every single day of your life.’” I laughed and rolled my eyes at him. “Please,” I said, “Im the lucky one here. I get all this,” I said gesturing all around to the house, “And I get you.” I said softly, looking down at his chest and tattoos, tracing them with my finger. I made my way over to his heart surgery scar and ran my finger down it before pressing a kiss to it. He sighed, “Ellie, you know your the first girl to kiss, or even touch that scar?” He smiled. I smiled back and kissed it again, “We’ll then I guess it’s my scar now.” I concluded. He laughed, “That gives me an idea for a tattoo down the road. Since the scars in the middle of the red rose, I could have you put on black lipstick, and kiss it. Then have the tattoo artist tattoo it on there permanently.” He said. I smiled up at him again, “I’d like that.”

We went downstairs to hang out in the living room and play COD on the Xbox. Austin’s kicked my ass, but I certainly gave him a run for his money. We just hung out enjoying each other in our house, not having to go anywhere or be in a different place anytime soon. I loved tour life, but this was heaven. Knowing that I could be doing these things with him for a very very long time made me excited to build a life with him. I got hungry around 9 that night and went over to my empty kitchen while Austin called Alan to tell him he could stay here. I decided to add a condition and yelled, “Only if you bring some fucking groceries!” Austin cracked up laughing and repeated it to Alan.

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Hia c: I was just wondering if you will be doing another chapter of Feels Like Forever ? I really loved it ;-;

Yes! I'm working on it right now. I've been super super busy and I'm so sorry guys. I'll make it up to you all in this next chapter (:

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Hey guys! Sorry I haven't been real active, I've been a little busy. Are you guys interested in another chapter of Feels Like Forever? Thinking about getting chapter six out there pretty soon. What do you think?(:

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Unfortunately I have requests closed for the time being because I'm really busy with my ongoing fic (Feels Like Forever) and I don't want to overwhelm myself by putting too much on my plate...Sorry! :/

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Feels Like Forever: Austin Carlile Fic

Okay so you guys will probably notice that I gave the female character a name. I did so because I felt like if this was going to be be an ongoing fic that I should do so. I hope you guys are ok with it!

See:

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5~~

The next few weeks were a blast. The rest of the guys in the band had all welcomed me with open arms, and Austin and I couldn’t get enough of each other. He moved us into the back bedroom where we spent nights on our way to the next city just laughing, learning about one another, and honestly just falling more and more in love (did I mention that most of this took place after having mind blowing sex..?) It was safe to say that working together on shows and seeing a whole bunch of different cities with each other was a really incredible way to start our relationship. Now it was late July, and it just so happened that Of Mice & Men was only on the tour through the end of the month, meaning that for us, the tour was about to end. The city we were headed to was our last stop before going home. Except I wasn’t completely sure what home meant for me. To be completely honest I was really concerned and confused about what would happen after Warped ended. Would I go back to Ventura, and be with my mom like I usually did after touring, and maintain a long distance relationship with Austin? Or would we just end up breaking up? Just thinking about either possibility made me want to cry, and as I sat there at 1am in the living area of the bus sipping some tea hoping the Valerian root in it would calm me down enough to go and join Austin back in bed, I wondered if he had thought about any of this.

Just as I was starting to give up on the tea I heard someone get out of their bunk and come into the living area. It was Alan, and when he noticed me sitting there he laughed. “Can’t sleep?” He asked going over to the fridge and grabbing an apple. I laughed and replied, ” Nope. Hungry?…At nearly 2am?” I asked. He threw the apple up in the air and caught it, “Starving.” He confirmed. Out of all the guys on the bus, I’d probably gotten closest to Alan. He was just really easygoing and super fun to talk to. “So why are you still up? What’s keeping you awake?” He asked curiously. I shrugged, knowing I probably shouldn’t talk to Alan about Austin and I, but then figured why not? Wasn’t like he was gonna run and tell Austin anyway, and even if he did, maybe then Austin would just have to acknowledge my concerns and I wouldn’t have to express them myself, something I was awful at. “Well tours almost over…” I said dragging out my unfinished sentence. “Aahhh,” he nodded, ” and ya don’t know what’s gonna happen with you guys after?” He guessed. I nodded looking down at my tea and taking a sip. He sighed, “Well I’m not gonna try to tell you what I think is gonna happen because, although I have my suspicions, I really don’t know anymore than you do. I will say this though: I’ve been friends with Austin a loonngg time. Seen him go through a lot of the shit he’s gone through, and I know the way he operates with people, and girls. He doesn’t trust girls. In fact he hasn’t been in an official relationship since his divorce from his ex-wife. Because let me tell you he fucking loved her, I mean I really thought it was the real fucking deal. He gave her a gorgeous wedding, gave her the whole damn world and she fucked him over HUGE.” He said taking a bite of his apple visibly irritated my the thought of her. Austin had told me about his ex-wife, but didn’t stay on the subject long. I didn’t really even want him to because I could see that just talking about it really upset him. I sighed and nodded. “Anyway,” Alan started again, “It was the kind of love that it was sickening to be in the same room with them. Because you knew how fucking head over heals he was for her and that she just ate that shit up, like she expected it or felt entitled to it or something. Up until a fee weeks ago I hadn’t ever seen him look at a girl the way he looked at her. But truthfully Ellie, I see that look every day now. When he’s with you.” I blushed and looked back down at my tea again stifling a smile, when he added, “Only it’s better now. Because you look at him the exact same way. So I really don’t think you have anything to worry about. Austin doesn’t let anything get in the way of what he wants. That also means he moves things along fast, y’know doesn’t waist anytime. You only need to be worried when it seems like he’s slowed down.” That made perfect sense to me, considering how we met, started dating, and he moved me into the same bus as him all in a matter of a little over 2 days. I felt better now, knowing that even Alan could see how much we cared about each other, that it wasn’t just a figment of my imagination and that I now knew that if things were going fast they were going well. I finished my tea and stood up to put my cup in the little bus sink and then turned back to Alan. “Thanks man. I really needed to know all that and to be honest I feel a lot better now.” I said smiling and looking down at my feet. “No worries Ellie. I’m glad I could put your mind a little more at ease. My only request is that you persuade that asshole to make me his best man at your wedding.” He said pointing back towards where Austin was sleeping. I rolled my eyes at the fact that he was even talking about a wedding. ” No I’m fucking serious. Aaron got it last time and its my turn.” I laughed and shook my head walking back to Austin and I’s room to join him back in bed. I tiptoed quietly into the little room and crawled into bed next to him, resting my head on his chest. He seemed to be still sleeping so it must have been subconscious when he wrapped his arms around me. I slept through the rest of the night without any interruptions.

The next morning I woke up looking over next to me to see that Austin had already gotten up. I grabbed my phone to look at the time and it was almost about to be noon which meant the guys had gone down to their signing this morning at their tent. I got up and got dressed in my black and pink flower printed romper and my red vans. I fixed my bed head and grabbed a banana to eat and my pass lanyard, then headed out to the merch/tent village. I made my way through the crowds and to the bands tent where there was a huge line of fans getting things signed and taking pictures with all the guys. I started to walk by Austin’s side of the table, he smiled when he saw me and reached out to grab my hand, kissing it then letting go while I went back behind them and sat in one of the fold out chairs with the assistants, employees, and some of the guys friends from this city. A few of the girls towards the front of the line had seen our tiny little moment of affection and were watching me now. I smiled to myself staring back at them from behind my sunglasses knowing they couldn’t see where I was looking. I heard a few of them ask Austin who I was and if I was his girlfriend. He replied excitedly, “Oh her? Yeah that’s Ellie. She is my girlfriend.” He explained, just beaming with a smile. That was the other thing that I loved about him, how honest he was with his fans. It also amused me that he was as honest as he was about this subject in particular, because he had to know that his having a girlfriend would irritate his female fans a little bit, but it was like reverse psychology. He was honest with them and so happy about the information he was sharing that they had no choice but to be, or at least act, happy for him as well. I ate my banana and for the next hour or so just watched him and how generous and understanding he was with the fans. It made my heart ache it was so sweet. They gave him and the rest of the guys gifts and a lot of them even cried. I felt really lucky to be able to watch, knowing that the amazingly loving man I was looking at was mine. Sooner or later they finished up and Austin walked up in front of me and stood there towering over me. “Well good afternoon sleepyhead.” He laughed and grabbed my hands to pull me up and kiss me. We let the kiss linger a little before I pulled away. “Hi gorgeous.” He smiled. “Hi superman,” I giggled back. He laughed, “Hardly! I wish though that’d be sick.“ I laughed and said, “But seriously though, that was the sweetest stuff I’ve ever seen.” “They’re pretty great huh?” He asked referring to the fans. I nodded agreeing. “But uh, we have about an hour before our show, do you want to go down to the beach for a little while?” He asked running his hands down my arms. “Definitely.” I smiled up at him. He took my hand and we started down there. We laid down in the sand for awhile and I played with it while Austin just seemed content in watching me. After a little while he spoke up. “Ellie can I ask you something?” He asked me. “Uh hmmm...I don’t know.” I joked with him and laughed, “Of course you can! What’s up?” He sighed and scooted up behind me wrapping his arms around me from behind. I leaned back, using him as my own personal chair of sorts. “Where do you live when your not traveling for work?” He asked me. “I live with my Mom and her current boyfriend a little ways out from Ventura. Like kind of in the middle of no where.” I laughed. I knew the conversation I’d been waiting to happen was about to and my chest got tight. He took a deep breath, and then just blurted it, “I’m in love with you.” He paused taking another deep breathe before going on, “I know we’ve only known each other for a month. And trust me I know how crazy it sounds, but I do. I love you so…so much Ellie.” I almost started to cry, tears welling up in my eyes as I listened to him say all those things, in awe of the fact that he was saying this about ME. That he was in love with me. I turned around in his arms pushing him back slowly so that I was on top of him, and just looked into his gorgeous eyes for awhile before replying, "I’m in love with you too Austin. I know I’m in love with you because I’ve never felt the way I feel about you, about anyone ever. It’s overwhelming and scary and thrilling all at the same time, and I love it. I love you.” I said. He pulled my face down to his with both of his hands and kissed me, and it all hit me at once. The way our bodies fit together. The way our lips moved with each other like they’d been kissing for years and had it on lock. The way my face rested in his hand like it was made to be there. His eyes when they finally met mine, and how I didn’t ever want to look away. Finally something in my life felt right, and it was being with him. I finally just came out and asked the question I needed the answer to now even more: “Austin what’s going to happen when it’s time to go home?” I asked scared. I knew the answer I was looking for and didn’t know if I could handle any other. “I was going to ask you about that,” he said softly. “I’m not leaving your side. You can come stay with me in my home, or I’ll follow you wherever you want to go. Either way we’re staying together Ellie.” He said convincingly. I was so so relieved. The ton of bricks lifted off my chest as I lay my head down on his and thought for a little while about our options. We lived on two completely different sides of the country, meaning we’d have to choose one. I thought about my mom who, although I knew loved having me at home with her, was eager for me to start a life outside of her. That she didn’t need me to stay and ‘babysit’ her as she put it. That she’d found something in Robert, that they loved each other and took care of each other. Austin had a home, and life hear in Florida, that I knew even though he was willing, wouldn’t be as easy to leave. I sat up and looked at Austin with a smile on my face and said, “Lets stay here. Here in Florida, in your house. Where you and the guys write and record. And your dad lives just a little bit of ocean away. Hear in your world is where I want to be.” I concluded. His eyes crinkled, and I could see the happiness written all over him, but he stayed neutral and asked me “Are you sure? Becau-” I cut him off pressing my lips to his then said, “Positive.” He laughed and stood up and spun us around. I screamed and laughed at the same time as he ran us into the water.

We enjoyed the last day of the Warped Tour I would always remember and be grateful for, and later that night the band had a party on the bus to conclude the tour. I met the guys from All Time Low, and Bring Me The Horizon and we all had a really great time. About half way through Alan came up to me and said, “Heard the good news. Congrats.” I thanked him laughing as he winked and walked off the bus to get ahold of his girlfriend. I went and found Austin sitting with Jack from All Time Low and Aaron. Austin, beaming with a smile, pulled me so that I was sitting on his lap and sneakily nibbled my ear causing me to giggle and whispered “I love you.” I laughed at his love for saying it and said “I love you too.” Leaning back and taking a sip from my drink semi paying attention to the conversation they were having. The party lasted well into the very early ours of the morning as it died down and everyone went home to their own buses. I fell asleep on one of the side couch-ish benches during cleanup and I woke up to Austin picking me up to carry me into our room. I nestled my face into his neck and he laid me down into the bed. I let him undress me before undressing himself, and as he slid into bed beside me and I felt his warm skin envelope mine, I also felt the bus start to move. “I’ll be introducing you to your knew house tomorrow.” He whispered against my skin. I smiled to myself loving the feeling of his warm breath on my skin, before sighing, “I’ll be happy to make its acquaintance.” We drifted off laughing, in complete bliss. One I knew I wouldn’t have to give up for quite awhile.

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Once again, another great chapter! I am seriously loving this story!

Thank you so much!! I'm so happy you are liking it! (: <3

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Are you gonna make a 5th chapter to Feels Like Forever? :3 I love it!

Most definitely! I plan to keep it going as long as you guys are enjoying it! I love your feedback and am sooo happy you guys love it (: I'll be writing Chapter 5 as soon as possible(:

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Feels Like Forever: Austin Carlile Fanfiction

See:

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4~~

5 minutes later I found myself standing (freezing) naked in a towel by the Of Mice & Men bus, having very mixed feelings about this idea. “It’ll be fine. The guys have girls stay with them in the bus all the time. Plus Alan’s got a girlfriend that comes and chills all the time too.” He persuaded, trying to get me to agree to staying the rest of the night with him in the bus. “That doesn’t exactly solve my clothes problem!” I said jokingly outraged, wondering why he had used Alan and his having a girlfriend as an example. That was a completely different situation. “We have a whole shitload of girls clothes in a laundry bag left over from all the guys’ one night stands so far on the tour. I’ll find you something.” He scurried inside the bus leaving me standing there. I slid my back down the side of the bus and into a sitting position and waited for him to come back, thinking about what he had just said. Was I going to be one of “the one night stands” he was talking about? I didn’t want to be, but if that was what was going to happen there wasn’t anything I could do about it now was there? I loved every minute I’d spent with him and hoped there would be more (prayed there would be more, because I was already finding myself so infatuated with him), but if not I was used to it, I mean this kid of stuff happens on tour and I reminded myself not to take anything to serious. ‘Don’t be your Mom.’ I said to myself. She got used and thrown away by musicians her whole life and let it tear her to pieces every time she fell in love and they didn’t. I could only imagine what she would say if she knew what I was doing. Austin came out already dressed, with a pair of pajama pants covered in a bud light logo and a black tank top in his hands. I looked up at him, rather impressed with his selection. “Good?” He asked. “Good,” I said slipping the clothes on, “So we’re both going to fit in your bunk?” I asked skeptically. He smiled shaking his head no, just leaning back on the bus with his arms crossed watching me get dressed. I finished, standing back up straight, crossing my arms in front of me and looking down at my feet then back up at him. “Do you do that when your nervous?” He asked a smirk spreading across his face. “No.” I said softly, doing it again. “Yes. You do,” he laughed, “it’s fucking adorable.”

"You didn’t technically answer my question" I laughed back, trying to change the subject. "There’s a kind of small bedroom in the very back of the bus where a bed that’s a little bigger than a bunk is." He said smiling and heading towards the door, he noticed my hesitation and mentioned that the guys that were in there were passed out. That made me feel a little better and he grabbed my hand, (I noticed that he did that a lot when he was taking me somewhere) and lead me onto the bus. Let me just say, it was fucking HUGE. At least compared to my dinky little crew bus. We passed through the living area, kitchen area, bunk area, (really nice bunks with curtains btw) and finally reached the way back of the bus where, adjacent to the bathroom there was a sliding wood door. He opened it and we walked inside a room just big enough to fit a bed, a couple of suitcases, and Austin and I. I laughed, “This is awesome!” and climbed onto the bed. I pulled out my phone, which I had stuck in my pocket after putting the pants on and looked at the time. It was 3:30 and I’d have to be out working in 5 1/2 hours. Austin got on the bed with me lying down on his stomach while his long legs dangled off the side of the bed. “So whats your job like?” he asked. I laid back letting my head rest on one of the pillows and stared up at the ceiling. “What do you mean?” I asked looking over at him now. “I mean like what all do you have to do, what time do you have to be there, what are co-workers like. Things like that.” He said. “Well to start with I have to be out on the grounds by the equipment buses by nine,” I said sighing as we both looked at the time. “and for the first part of the day I just do regular roadie work y ‘know? Set things up, haul amps and sound boards.” He raised his eyebrows glancing at my arms which weren’t very muscular. I laughed, “Believe it or not lifting that stuff is more about technique than strength. Plus I can fit stuff through small areas because of how small I am. Then the second half of the day I do what I was doing when we met.” He nodded smiling. “What about the people you work with?” He asked. “Well as you probably already know most, not all, but most of them are guys. Some are nice, some you don’t even get to know very well because they work so hard, and then there are some that treat me like shit cause I’m female. Often times they decide to do that when I won’t sleep with them. And all but one guy on my crew is an alcoholic.” I said picturing Max. He got a disturbed look on his face, and I chuckled, “Nothing I can’t handle though.” He shook his head, “Still bullshit though.” I nodded in agreement. Austin crawled up further on to the bed and pulled the covers over us laying his head down next to mine. We lay there quiet for a little while, him just staring at me through the dark and I staring back. After awhile, when I was close to falling asleep I heard him ask “Can I walk you to work tomorrow?” softly, hopefully. I sighed, and said “No.” He asked “Why not?” and I waited a second before replying, trying to think of the best way to say what I wanted to say. “Because then people will ask me what we are, and I won’t have anything to tell them.” He was quiet for a minute, before finally saying, “Tell them I’m your boyfriend.” My heart stopped. I thought for a minute then asked, ”Do you want me to tell them your my boyfriend?” He nodded and said ”Yes.” A smile crept across my face and I wondered if he noticed. “How come?” I asked quietly. “Because I want you to be my girlfriend.” He said softly. I turned around and I wrapped his arms around myself, and he secured them there, pulling me closer up against him. We lay their for awhile before I finally said, “Okay. Then I’ll tell them your my boyfriend.” And I felt him smile on my neck. “Good,” he whispered, “Cause I will be telling people your my girlfriend.” I laughed and closed my eyes, I was in heaven in this bed with him, and his arms wrapped around me holding me against his warmth. The last thought I had before falling asleep was how happy I was that this, right here, right now, was NOT a one night stand.

I woke up hours later to my 8:00am alarm going off on my phone. Austin and I both stirred, and I was feeling around in the bed for it, before I realized it was still in my pocket. I shut it off and looked over at Austin to see him lying their staring up at me his eyes crinkling into a smile. I stretched and maid the moaning noise that comes along with a stretch, then sat up. “Your cute when you wake up.” He said sweetly. I giggled and continuing to look at him. The sun was coming in nicely through the bus illuminating his face. God he was gorgeous. “God your cute too.” I said leaning over on top of him so that I was resting my chin on his chest, and getting a better look up close at what I for some reason got to call mine. He pulled my face up to his and kissed me, then said “I want you to go back to your bus, get your work close and come back here. Okay?” I nodded smiling. “Wait, are the other guys awake?” I asked listening to hear if their was anything going on outside the door. There was, it sounded like someone was playing a video game. “Yeah that’s Alan,” Austin said standing up, “C’mon I’ll walk you out their.” He opened the door and I watched Alan’s head turn towards him. “Fuck your alive! Where have you been the last, like, twenty four hours?” He asked questioningly. It was immediately after that, that he noticed me. A smile spread across his face, “Oooohhh,” He laughed, “Well that makes sense. Hey aren’t you the girl that did sound for our show the other day?” I laughed looking up at Austin then back to Alan. “Yep. That was me.” I said. He nodded appreciatively. “Definitely damn good at your job. You doing us again today?” He asked. I shrugged, “I don’t know yet. I don’t usually get my schedule until like twenty minutes before shows start.” He nodded, “Yeah makes sense I guess. Where you guys headed?” He asked. I liked Alan, he was easy to make conversation with, and didn’t seem to be at all judgmental. Austin spoke up now, “She’s gotta head back to her bus real quick and then gonna come back here so I can walk her to work.” Alan nodded and smiled, “Right on. Well I’ll see you later…?” He said not knowing my name I laughed and said “Ellie. And yeah I’ll see ya.” Turning to go outside. Austin followed me and laughed. “What?” I asked smiling. “He totally already knows.” Austin said shaking his head. I laughed, “Yeah kind of seems like it doesn’t it. Kay I’ll be right back.” I said turning to head towards the crew buses. “Better hurry your ass up!” I heard him yell from behind me, I laughed and started jogging hearing him laughing behind me.

I got to my bus and prayed no one was in there before going in. Low and behold the one person I had probably hoped wouldn’t be there most was just sitting there, and seemed to me like he was just waiting for me. Max didn’t look up when I walked in so I decided I’d just pretend he wasn’t there and go back to my suit case in my bunk where my clothes were. As I passed him he started to laugh. “You really don’t give two shits about anyone, but yourself do you?” He asked. I started to say something but he cut me off, “You don’t even consider the idea that you may being worrying someone who cares about you when you’re gone for that long.” He was getting angry, and I was getting nervous. I continued walking back to my bunk when he grabbed my arm pulling me so that I was facing him now. “Answer me!” He said harshly. I could smell the booze on his breath. “Max I don’t answer to you. Let go.” I said tugging away from his grip. He held on tighter and then shoved me with one of my pulls in the opposite direction sending me stumbling backwards and causing me to fall. I fell on my ass pretty hard and hit my head luckily not as hard as I fell. I stood up and slowly walked back to my bunk and grabbed a pair of black ripped skinny jeans and a baby blue tank top and my convers high tops. I didn’t put any of it on because I needed to get out of there quickly. I looked out towards the rest of the bus and saw Max just standing there by the door. I sighed and felt like crying. Why did this have to happen now?? I glanced at the door again and decided just to make a run for it. He was drunk, and shouldn’t be too steady on his feet. I held my clothes in my arms and ran towards the door. “Where the fuck do you think your going bitch?” He slurred. “We’re going to be late for work Max lets go.” I said trying to push through him. He wouldn’t budge. “Max, move.” I said more sternly now. He didn’t, so I built up all my strength and shoved him to the side. He stumbled and fell onto one of the dining tables. I more calmly now walked out the door. I started heading back towards Austins bus, and before I could even do anything about it I heard someone walk up behind me, and then felt a hard shoe hit hard and fast on my back and kick me down face first onto the cement. I caught myself with my hands, scraping them, and looked up to see Max wobbling past me I assumed heading to work. I tried holding back the tears that were making themselves present in my eyes and picked myself, and all my shit, up off the ground and started jogging towards Austins bus again. I made it half way there to find Austin coming in my direction. I tried to wipe my tears off my face before he saw and ran to him. “Hey hey hey,” he said looking at me, “Whats wrong? Have you been crying?” He asked putting a hand on my face and examining it. I sniffed and shrugged tying to play it off as no big deal. “I just had a run in with one of the guys on my crew. I’m fine. I have to get dressed or I’m gonna be late.” I said looking down at the clothes in my arms and chocking back tears again. “Whoah whoah wait, baby slow down. I um, I got you a later shift.” He said nervously. I looked up at him confused, “Wha-what do you mean?” I asked. “Don’t be mad, but I um I talked to the crew manager, and asked if Of Mice & Men could take you off there hands and hire you as our permanent sound engineer…which means you would be staying with me, on my bus.” He said rubbing the back of his neck. Again, my heart stopped. Did he really do that?? For some reason in that moment my tears and the lump in my throat subsided, and I smiled. Who was this man? I laughed, “Do you do that when your nervous?” I asked sweetly. He laughed and stopped rubbing his neck, just to start doing it again before asking “Sooo..?” I smiled, “Are you asking me if I’ll take your job offer Carlile?” I asked slyly cocking my head to the side. He smiled, putting his arms around my waist nodding. I reached up and pulled his face down to mine to kiss him and say, “Of course I will. Thank you, so so much Austin. I really needed to get away from that bus this morning and now I never have to go back.” He kissed me again and grabbed my hands to examine them. “God, what the fuck happened back their?” He asked, gently picking the rocks out of them. I winced, and said “It’s a long story, and I’m already super late.” He kissed each hand and started to lead me back to, what was now, our bus. “Well you have plenty of time to tell me that story, while I fix up your hands, because now you don’t have to work until I do baby. I’m your boss now and I decide when you work and when you don’t and what time.” I giggled and followed him. I was so happy I could barely feel my injuries.

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We loved with a love that was more than love.

Edgar Allan Poe (via 5weetsorrow)

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Seriously, I love your writing! That chapter was fantastic! I can't wait to see what's next! :)

Thank you! Working on chapter 4 right now, I'm so glad all you guys are liking it! (:

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Feels like forever part 4 please!!!!! It's such a good story :)

Of course!! Working on it right now (:

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Feels Like Forever: Austin Carlile Fic

See Chapter 1 & Chapter 2

Okay so this is a reeaalllyy long chapter because I didn’t write for awhile and it all just came spilling out haha, but trust me its well worth reading. (:

Chapter 3~

I woke up to my head smacking the bunk above me. “Fuck!” I exclaimed laying my head back down rubbing where I had hit it. I heard a couple male voices laugh, meaning a few of the guys were already up. I eased myself out of my bunk and on to the cold bus floor, walking out into the “living area” where a couple guys sat watching some action movie. “Did someone make coffee?” I asked, right as I noticed that they each had a beer in their hands. Sean shook his head no. That was the thing about a lot of the guys on crews, most of them were alcoholics. I went over to kitchen space and started a pot of coffee, and sat down in one of the two dining booths, checking my phone and emails. The action movie had gone to commercial when one of the guys spoke up and asked me, “So how come you got in so late last night? You’re never out late.” He said scoffing. That was the big joke around here ya see, I’m lame and don’t like to go out and get shitfaced until five minutes before bus call. “I went to a barbeque.” I said not looking up from my phone. “A bbq?” He said questioningly, “There wasn’t a bbq last night…?” He said confused. I finally looked up from my phone, “If it is crucial to your peace of mind to know Jacob, I was invited to a band member only barbeque.” He raised his eyebrows and laughed, “Really now? Who invited you?” The other guy Max, joined in now saying “Bet you got laid huh?” They were pissing me off, especially Max who just couldn’t quite get over the fact that I didn’t like him the way he wanted. I stood up, “A) Max that’s none of your goddamned business. And B) Wtf does it matter to either of you? I don’t interrogate you all on what kind of ass you got the night before when you stay out. Leave it alone.” I said walking back to the bunks to see if Jake was up so I could ask him where we were. He was, sitting in his bunk reading a book. “Where are we and are we almost in…?” I said trailing off not remembering what city we were headed to. He replied not looking away from his book “We should be in Ventura in about 20 minutes.” I smiled relieved I’d be able to get off this bus soon and said “Thanks geekoid.” And went back to my bunk where I grabbed some clothes to throw on in the bathroom, and waited until we got there.

When the bus finally stopped and the driver put it in park, he opened the door and I was the first one out. The lot we were parked in had a shower house and was across the street from a Mcdonalds, a Taco Bell, and a cute little diner that in my opinion, needed some attention. I started walking over their just as a bunch of people were getting off buses and heading towards the fast food places and of course the shower house. I stepped inside the all but empty diner and sat down at the counter. A little old lady dressed in a baby blue uniform walked up to me from behind the counter and took my order (a turkey sandwich on wheat bread with no mustard and an iced tea with a lemon). A few people had walked into the little diner as well. She served me my food smiling and went off to ask the other customers their orders. I sat eating my food by myself, listening to the other’s conversations and loud laughter, and the door behind me jingling every time a new person walked in. Suddenly someone sat down at the counter in the seat right next to mine and folded his hands nicely in front of him. I looked over at him to see that it was Austin, staring through sunglasses straight forward. I giggled, looking over at him as he put a finger over his lips and sort of whispered a “shhh.” I laughed silently to myself nodding and going back to my food. The old lady made her way back behind the counter to ask him what he wanted. “I’ll have the same sandwich shes eating. Looks good.” He said quietly, but smiling. She nodded and wrote it down. “Why are we shhh-ing?” I asked whispering. He glanced over at me and said “So not to draw attention. I don’t feel like signing things and hugging little girls just yet today.” I nodded understanding, taking another bite of my food. “I know we’re in California, but what city are we in?” He asked me. “Ventura.” I replied, my mouth kind of full. He chuckled, “Ahh yes.That’s right.” He said nodding to himself. The place was starting to clear out a bit when the woman served him his food, he looked around, deciding it was safe enough to take his sun glasses off. He put them on my head and began to eat his sandwich. I laughed, repositioning them so that they wouldn’t fall off of me. “So, what are your plans for this lovely day off?” He asked me. “Well usually I just check out some tourist attractions, or sleep depending on if we’re in a rather boring town or not. I like Ventura though so I’m sure I’ll figure something out.” I said. He smiled, (having already devoured his sandwich) and said, “Sounds great, where to?” I paused, cocking my head to the side, “You want to come?” I asked. He smiled, “Indeed, I would like to enjoy this beautiful city with a beautiful girl today if that’s what you’re asking.” I laughed looking around the empty diner, “Oh yeah? Where is she?” He looked around as well, “Shit, yeah I don’t know. Must have baled. Stupid bitch, guess I’m stuck with you adorable little thing sitting next to me.” I laughed, “Guess so. Well c’mon then.” I said jumping down off the counter chair and heading towards the door. As he followed we started the very long walk down the coast, running in and out of the salty water, and drawing random things in the sand. At one point he stopped for a minute to draw a rather large, and unpleasantly detailed dick in the sand.

Just as he was finishing it, a family of what I perceived from a distance as five, started toward the portion of the beach we were standing and had just drawn the dick on. We ran away as fast as we could (which wasn’t very fast because we were laughing so damn hard) and slowed back down resuming our casual yet subtly mischievous play making our way down the beach. Austin started singing obnoxious songs (which I gladly joined in on) for the rest of the time it took before coming close to reaching the destination I had in mind. “What is that?” Austin asked as we came closer to the old ugly looking warehouse. “You’ll see,” I smiled looking over and up at him, “Do you like art?” I asked. He laughed. “Now what the hell kind of question is that for an artist??” I laughed again shaking my head. We came upon the huge opening about the size of a garage door and walked inside the enormous place. There were about twenty sculptors, painters, and photographers all lined up in there stations along both walls, working away at whatever project they were enveloped in. I looked up at Austin to see his reaction, and it was great, in fact it was exactly what I had hoped for. His eyes wandered over the many different artists, observing for a moment each he saw. Photographers, of whom some of them oddly enough were photographing artists while they worked. There were some nude shoots going on, and some painters using a nude model as their muse, but then there were some, just painting free hand whatever it was they felt. But My favorite, and what I presumed would be his too, were the very few musicians working in each corner of the house, making soft melody’s and rhythms with their small instruments, such as bongo drums, maracas, flutes, and others. His eyes crinkled with the smile that spread over his face and he sighed, reaching for my hand and leading us further into the beautiful art-house to get a closer look at each artist and their work. I held his hand proudly, kind of enjoying the idea that anyone who laid their eyes on us would most likely assume we were a couple. I wondered if he thought so as well. We spent a very long time in the old artsy warehouse, long enough to see a lot of artist finish their works. Seemingly unwillingly, what with the perfectionists most artists tend to be. It was all so beautiful and to be honest pretty romantic. When we finally came out it was dusk, and you could feel the mist from the ocean being carried through the wind. We were starting our walk back down the beach when Austin spoke up, “Thank you for taking me to that place. I can’t even begin to tell you how beautiful it was. It… it was just fucking amazing.” He said. I smiled up at him and replied, “Your welcome. Thanks for coming with me, I think it’s better when you have someone their to see it all with you.” He nodded in agreement, and we continued walking as dusk turned to dark. About half way back he stopped walking, looking down at me thoughtfully. I blushed because of his eyes not leaving mine for as long as they did and finally asked, “What?” He sighed. “I’m not quite ready to go back to that parking lot and bus yet. Or um…say goodbye to you for the night. Do you maybe just want to stay here on the beach with me for awhile?” To be honest I was relieved. I didn’t want to go back, or say goodbye to him for tonight either. I nodded, “I would love to.”

So we sat, facing the water talking.

"What got you into what you do now? Like touring and doing live sound and stuff? Like tell me stuff about you." He asked me. I sighed and replied looking at him, "Like my story, kind of?" I asked awkwardly. He replied with a nod. I sighed again trying to think of where to start. "Well I guess to start with, I grew up here." I said gesturing to our surroundings. He raised his eyebrows, "Really?" He asked. I laughed, "Yep. My mom and dad were teenage runaways back then. My mom was pregnant with me, so they ran here. Most beautiful place in the world to grow up as far as I’m concerned- well maybe not the world per say.” I said looking around. “But no doubt its beautiful. Anyway, we lived in a tiny little loft house I guess you could call it, until my dad left. I was 6 and when he left he left us with nothing. So my mom, whose fucking beautiful by the way, decided to use that to hers and my advantage. She was a model, but not the kind you see on the cover of a magazine. She was the kind that we just saw in there.” I said gesturing back in the direction of the warehouse. He was smiling and looked away from me for the first time since I’d started talking, but only to laugh. “Paint me like one of your french girls??” He asked turning back to me. I laughed, “Yes exactly. And we had places to stay, and a lot of times enough money to stay in hotels for nights at a time because of it. So anyway I obviously I grew up around art, and often times musicians. My mom liked them best.” I said looking out at the water coming closer and closer to us with a sly smile. “I wanted to be a singer, but I couldn’t sing and still can’t to this day.” I said laughing, “So spending so much time around all these different musicians and bands I got familiar with the equipment they used. My mom would wait on them and do their laundry and ya know pretty much be a groupie and I was left with nothing to do but play with the stuff around me. I’m actually surprised I was never electrocuted. One of the guys in one of the bands that she had been seeing noticed one day and decided to take some time to sit and explain to me in better detail the parts and names of things and hooked it all up to instruments and would let me play with all of it. I spent the next like five years after that doing that with all of her boyfriends and the bands she ‘worked for’.”

I looked over at him, he was smiling and started to say, “That makes sense, all of it actually. Why your so good at your job, why you chose life on the road, your mom being so beautiful.” I cocked my head to the side, “What does my mom being beautiful have to do with me?” I asked confused. “Um have you even ever looked in a mirror? You’re stunning. And it makes sense now because you said your mom was beautiful. You must have gotten a double dose or something from her.” I laughed shaking me head. He was trying to flatter me. She was the ‘stunning’ one. Not me. I appreciated his thinking so though. “Well thank you.” I said, smiling up at him. Even when we were sitting he toward over me. He sighed looking out towards the water that was now touching the tips of our feet. “What?” I asked him, something I asked often when he sighed, I wanted to know what he was thinking about when he did that. “I want to kiss you again.” He said trailing off, then moving his head so that he was staring at me from behind his shoulder. Without skipping a beat I asked, “So whats stopping you?” and just like that his lips were on mine. It was a powerful kiss, I started leaning back and sooner or later he was practically on top of me. We made out like teenagers, and we must not have been lying there long before the tide completely enveloped us in cold salt water. I broke the kiss gasping, and we began to laugh fumbling to get away from the water. By the time we were both standing we were soaked and covered in wet sand. We kind of just stood there, practically pressed against each other to fend off the cold, smiling at each other just laughing. “C’mon,” he said grabbing my hand and leading me towards where the parking lot and buses were, “I know what to do.” and I followed him gripping his hand tightly, and shaking from the cold. As I realized we were headed for the shower house, I wasn’t even nervous, or afraid. I was hopeful, and hungry for what I knew he wanted as well.

We went inside and it was completely dark, all except the light from the moon coming in a window. I followed him blindly to where we stopped and he let go of my hand. I heard a shower start and next thing I knew his large hands were at the hem of my shirt pulling it up, and off. We undressed each other slowly, and quietly. When we were completely naked he slowly slid his hands down my torso and eventually to my thighs leaning down and whispering against me ear, “Jump.” and I obeyed, wrapping my legs around his waist. He walked us into the warm stream of water, and kissed me hard, pressing me against the tiled wall. His lips trailed down my neck, and eventually to my collar bone where he bit down gently causing a soft vocal gasp to escape me. He moved his lips and face slowly back up to mine and kissed me again, as he inserted one of his fingers inside me. I let out a breathy moan as he curled his finger and moved it in and out of me. He stopped suddenly and whispered “Ready?” I nodded in reply knowing exactly what he was asking. He positioned himself so that his erection was at my entrance and waited for a minute kissing me, before he pushed himself inside of me. We moaned in unison, and as he started thrusting in and out of me each one was more powerful than the last. “Austin..” I trailed off gasping, I was getting close and I could tell he was too. We both climaxed around each other and he finally moaned, “Ellie..." Before we both came. At the same time. We stayed frozen there for a minute, just catching our breath Austin kissing my forehead before letting me down.

He started to say “That was..” when I cut him off. “Earth shattering.” I finished. He smiled starting to laugh, and I joined him. I was the happiest with him today and tonight than I had been in a very long time. He left for just a second to go get a couple towels, coming back and wrapping one around me, and then himself. I checked the time on my phone and it was nearing 3am. It occurred to me then, and I went on to ask, “Um how are we going to get back to our buses…practically naked?” He got a concerned look on his face and thought for a minute. Then finally looked up with a, what seemed to be very sly, almost mischievous look on his face, and once again grabbed my hand leading me out of the shower house. “I’ve got an idea.” He said simply. And I was more than ready for our next “adventure.”