bastardbones49

[bastardbones49]

TW - Body Ch3ck!

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[bastardbones49]

Hey everyone just figured I'd make an intro!

About me ~

My name is Max, and I'm 25 years old, I'm a trans male (started hrt in 2018), and like many, struggle with mental health so therefore this account is like a diary for me to vent.

Topics I could possibly share on here are mental health struggles, self-harm, and mostly disordered eating, so please do not interact if this is at all a trigger and please stay away if you're a minor.

With that being said, feel free to reach out if anyone needs anything or needs friends going through similar issues!

But yeah, that's the basics. stats below

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Height: 163cm

CW: 50.5kg

GW: 45kg

UGW: 40kg

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Weighed in at 50.5kg today.

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I'm back and ready to lock the fuck in 🤪

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28/11/24

Ahhh I'm so happy, despite not counting cals much these past few days I've still managed to keep my weight down, weighed in at 49.4kg this morning!

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24/11/24

Having dinner with my boyfriend this afternoon and him asking me if I've been eating okay because I'm looking thinner is the most liberating thing. Honestly, it's like a praise 😊😊

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22/11/24

When your friend randomly gives you this pop socket

💀💀 😅

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21/11/24

Ahh I've been so depressed this past week, the way my Ed makes me feel absolutely shit in the head and heart from under eating I had to force myself a few days of normal eating unfortunately, I don't even know why it's not like I care about my health. Anyway time to get back on track 🫠

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13/11/24

I was wondering if there was anyone within the 3D! Community that would like to be friends, I'm not one to encourage other people's disordered eating. It just would be nice to have friends I could relate to! Anyway, as in my bio, I'm ftm, and I'm 24, so only other adults, please

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12/11/24

Does anyone else torture themselves by watching cooking videos and delicious meal preps while restricting, or is that just me? 🙃

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5/11/24

One of the best things about having an active 3d is that you spend a significant amount less money on food which has been great for me as the price of food at the monent is fucked up

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3/11/24

Huge motivation for me at the moment is my boyfriend complimenting my body and how skinny I am all the time I know he loves it, a lot of times he's brought up how he's never been with anyone as skinny as me before. But the other month he was talking to me about when we first met and pretty much said that when we first got together I looked sickly skinny where as now I look 'normal' and this was honestly very triggering but it made me realise how much I missed restriction.

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1/11/24

So the most difficult part about wanting to lose w8 right now is not having full-time access to a scale, I really need to get one as the only time I can weigh myself is when I'm at my boyfriends place as we haven't kept scales in a long time at home and I'm not sure I could have one here discretely and man is it killing me not being able to weigh myself multiple times a day. 🥲🥲💀

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31/10/24

Well, after being away from Edblr for over a year and attempting recovery, I've shamefully marched my way back here. 🫠

I had to create a new account but here's a little about me. Hi I'm a 24 year old Ftm guy. Ive struggled with disordered eating since 2016 but it didn't really get bad until late 2020 I believe and ended up having to make a change in 2023 as my health had become noticeably bad, my family were getting worried as I begun fainting a lot and one night they called an ambulance on me 🚑 🥲

But anywho I'm back to my old ways and mindset as my life this year has taken a really messed up turn and my mental health is worse then ever after losing my mum who I had been caring for the past several years of my life, I'm lost and I cannot afford to see a psychologist. I feel like I'm just a nuisance in everyone's life 😕

But anyway I'm returning to restriction to help cope with that and everything else I'm currently dealing with and plan to use tumblr as a bit of a diary and hope to connect with others going through similar shit.