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atlas- a poem

atlas holding up himself and the sky, both so blue

atlas holding hands with the devil to pay heaven his due

atlas..atlas...oh so many indiscretions

tell me atlas, do you look to the devil and see your reflection?

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flower petals- a poem

(a/n: this is based off Hanahaki disease, if you don't know what that is, you should look it up for this to make any sense <3)

roses now completely void of emotion, its a tragic end to never be shown the same kind of devotion

but if anyone was ever special, no one would ever cough up flower petals

fresh cut daisies taste like poison, like the souls of those doomed to be cloven

but if anyone was ever special, no one would ever cough up flower petals

we're chocking on forget me nots, chocking because of broken hearts

and in the end? all that's left is the coughing's echo and a few stray fallen petals

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waves (a poem)

at night i lay in my bed

making up scenarios in my head

ones where you still love me and ones where we flirt

ones where you’re sorry and ones where we work

i can feel it slowly building, my waves of hurt

they rise with knowing- it’ll always be a lost cause

they crash with knowing- it’ll never be what it once was

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ive been in the worst writing slump ever but i’ve finally come out of it!!! this is “sick” and i wrote it just tonight in like 3ish hours and so here you guys go <3

“sick”

i’m choking up

and every feeling conflicts

i think that i’m getting sick

they say that only time can fix it

but i think its growing up

that’s making me sick

if i have to exist why does it have to be like this?

i wish i was still a kid

but i’m not and it’s making me sick

i feel my throat closing up

its been years yet this still persists

they say that only time can fix it

but i think its growing up

that’s making me sick

if i have to exist why does it have to be like this?

i wish i was still a kid

but i’m not and it’s making me sick

most days i’m not owning up

and im so close to throwing up

cause how can i be sure if i’m old enough?

if i’m sick from growing up?

i’m breaking down

i’m breaking down

i’m breaking down

cause

i’m growing up

i’m growing up

i’m growing up

~~guitar interlude~~

they say that only time can fix it

but i think its growing up

that’s making me sick

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guys. i just thought you should know that i have screenshotted every nice thing you guys have *ever* said about my work and i keep it in a photo album to look at whenever i don’t like what i write

so- thank you all so much ily all to the moon and to saturn <3

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i haven’t been very motivated to write recently but i haven’t shared anything in a while so here’s some older lyrics from a song called “ghost” (also these are in no particular order, i kinda just picked my fav ones from it!)

it’s like i can still feel your ghost

you linger like cigarette smoke

and i’m yet again the brunt of the joke

i keep you like a ghost…

cause it’s the most of you i’ll get

will i be filled with cheap regret?

will the day come that i forget?

to say

please don’t leave

please stay with me

let’s go back to how it used to be

so i don’t have to settle for your ghost

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i finished it!!! and the title is……

“great love”

verse 1

in the beginning it was magic

we were oh so ecstatic

to have something to call our own

i wanted a great love

but that’s not what we’re made for

pre chorus

i want a great love

you stay up

talking on the phone

but i fear that

that’s not what we’re made for

chorus

i want a great love

you wake up

together not alone

but i know that

that’s not what we’re made for

verse 2

oh we had chemistry

loving you came easily

back then i didn’t know

that that’s not what we’re made for

pre chorus

i want a great love

you stay up

talking on the phone

but i fear that

that’s not what we’re made for

chorus

i want a great love

you wake up

together not alone

but i know that

that’s not what we’re made for

bridge 👀

the argument reaches a crescendo

just for you to get up and go

you leave me alone

when i need you most

oh i want great love

but it’s not what we’re made for

cute lil outro!

you’re not my great love

but i really wish you were

cause i think it’s time to say goodbye

it’s time to be the love of some else’s life

and god i tried

but i guess this is goodbye

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what should i call this???

“what we’re made for” or “great love”

also- ignore the typo it’s meant to say “talking on the phone” lmao

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cold nights filled with memories

turn into cold shoulders

and watching you leave

i know we’re getting older

but does that mean

you forgot about me?

ignore that this sounds more like a poem than song lyrics

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it’s so much easier to share these lyrics on here where i know it’s like a treasured safe haven for me here!

in real life i don’t ever rly talk about the stuff i write because i get insecure but you you’ve all helped me gain more confidence in what i write!!

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this is just stuck in my head so i wanted to share a little snippet of the song “messy bun” (i’m still working on it a little bit so it’s not FULLY done!)

pre chorus

oh when things get hard you throw your hair up in a messy bun

pull yourself together on the outside but on the inside you’re coming undone

oh girl in a messy bun

chorus

oh girl in a messy bun

don’t you think you’re a little young

to be coming undone

oh girl in a messy bun

girl in a messy bun

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here’s another full song! it’s called ‘stay’

verse 1

so much has changed….

so it’s best if i explain…..

you talk to me and then say it was a moment of weakness

then two weeks later you’re begging for forgiveness

pre chorus

now you’re calling me up all hours of the day

yet if you want me why didn’t you stay?

really should’ve stayed- yet you want it your way

chorus

yeah you stabbed in the back

but now you want me back….

honey, it doesn’t work like that

oh boy you’d never win me back

can’t work like that

cause what’s past is past

verse 2

i just really don’t get it…. you’re a hypocrite, sad excuse of a boy!

cause you’re the one who destroyed US!!!!

pre chorus

now you’re calling me up all hours of the day

yet if you want me why didn’t you stay?

really should’ve stayed- yet you want it your way

chorus

oh boy you’d never win me back

can’t work like that

cause what’s past is past

bridge

i guess it’s half my fault cause i knew it was rigged and i still played

but- you broke a promise that you never should have made

so tell me…..why didn’t you stay?

you really just needed to stay

can’t get it your way

when it was you who walked away

pre chorus

now you’re calling me up all hours of the day

yet if you want me why didn’t you stay?

really should’ve stayed- yet you want it your way

chorus

yeah you stabbed in the back

but now you want me back….

honey, it doesn’t work like that

oh boy you’d never win me back

can’t work like that

cause what’s past is past

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i have a question!

what is the song “bewitched in the moonlight” about?

ooooh this is a good one…. it is a love song and it’s totally based off one of my favorite relationships in media!!!! it is based off of avery & jameson from the inheritance games!!!!!

here are some lyrics from it that are based off TIG

you think you're safe- till you see those two headlights

my whole world in your eyes

some pretty pretty white lies

bewitched in the moonlight

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i just wanted to say that i am so grateful for all of the kind words you guys have shared with me! i've been writing for about a year and its just been recently that i've shared these lyrics, songs, and feelings with anyone (literally just the people on here!!). you guys are the sweetest and i'm so grateful you like what i'm posting and i'm just so forever thankful for every kind word and compliment i have received since starting this blog and i just love you all <3

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this is a snippet of a song i wrote called “the fallout” and SHOCKER it’s about narcissistic people not taking blame lmao…..the song isn’t my favorite i’ve done but these lyrics are probably the best out of them!

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i wanted to give you guys a look at one i my whole songs! it’s called “why do i want you back” <333

somehow you left

and you took the very best

parts of me

left the rest here to bleed

so now i ask

why was leaving

oh so easy

for you to do

and why do i still feel like calling?

when it was never me you wanted

didn’t know you could hurt me so bad

so why on earth do i want you back?

i know it’s messed up

i don’t wanna let this love

go away

but you went away

and so now i ask

why was leaving

oh so easy

for you to do

why do i still feel like calling?

when it was never me you wanted

didn’t know you could hurt me so bad

so why on earth do i want you back?

holding onto the past

cause i’d take you back if you asked

i didn’t know it could be like that

for a love that didn’t last

why do i still feel like calling?

when it was never me you wanted

didn’t know you could hurt me so bad

so why on earth do i want you back?

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