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[breadandsugar]

we’re having the final battle tonight. roger is bringing the croissants

I, the baguettes

the challenge? whom can list the most French bread.

oh that sounds fun! i wish you luck!

[breadandsugar]

If you don't mind me asking, why do you hate the nether so much? Seems like a cool place to me!

it's a cool place, i j-just. it's not the place for me. everything's too...familiar.

there's fire everywhere and the air is constantly smoky, filling my lungs with dust all over again and making me choke. and the netherrack is a terrible, crimson shade of red that in my best days hurt my eyes and in the worst remind me of situations i keep reliving over and over in my nightmares.

i-it's just. i just hate the fact that i can't even step foot in it without linking it to pogtopia and to the explosions and the flames and the bloody floors, you know?

[breadandsugar]

Hey Niki!!

Just checking in!

How're you doing? What're you up to?

- your favorite incorporeal, g

i'm doing pretty good! i haven't spoken to anyone in a while, but everyone seems pretty busy. i've restocked me and puffy's flower shop, and i think i'll go to the nether today and get some more potion materials and glowstone to light up the underground city if i'm feeling brave enough. my hallucinations of wilbur have almost disappeared these past couple of days, so it should be fine :D

[breadandsugar]

I’m back from the war niki

Roger stole all our bread in the dead of night- and in the morning- *sob* HE ATE IT RIGHT IN FRONT OF US

staring. munching. nomming.

we may have lost the battle but, I shall win The Great Yeast War!

awww no, that's rude :(( if you want, i can leave you some more bread for your...Great Yeast War?

though i should probably stop giving away too much bread, i think some sort of celebration or event is happening sometime, and i'm sure people will want some pastries and baked goods to share. or at least, people are putting up decorations everywhere.

i haven't gone outside to look yet.of course, i'm glad they're doing this, it's been...far too long since we've had something good to bring us all together. it just reminds me of the Manburg Festival a bit too much.

ever heard the phrase "it's too good to be true"? yeah.

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hey Niki if ur sick of l'manburg and there government techno is hanging out in a pretty nice place. good snow. and polar bears you would like that. just saying

thank you, but though i'm not really supporting our government right now, i'm not going to give up on l'manburg. i'm not going to abandon everyone. we've all been abandoned and betrayed enough.

plus, l'manburg's my home. it has my bakery, my friends, the docks and puffy. and i know there are so many bad memories associated with here, but there are so many good ones too and i don't think living in isolation with my former ally who decided to turn on us and blow up our home isn't going to make more good memories than my home <3

and plus, how would i get there? and why? i don't trust technoblade and he doesn't trust me—at least, he has no reason to—and i have no clue where his house is anyways.

i do miss snow though. it's been a while since i've seen something so...pure. untainted.

i don't think i trust myself near it anymore. i don't think i can trust my hands not to taint it a crimson shade of red.

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Niki I’ve been engaged in a murder plot against Roger

Niki I’m so peer pressured right now that I’d rather pluck out my own eyes then look at Roger

niki I’m in too deep what do I do

i- what's happened?? are you both okay?

why are you trying to murder...Roger? have you tried talking first? i can give you pastries to give to Roger as a peace offering? (puffy told me to stop handing out things i need to sell to survive but i have more than enough to spare)

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I mean this in a positive way: why couldnt the government be incompetent? I just want to do my slightly above average witty remarks without them being brutally picked apart- why couldn’t phil exist without his house arrest chain? I mean he still stayed there without it… curses! A clever government! my weakness!

i mean if they were slightly more clever they would have decided to let technoblade be and not bring him back to try and execute him, and if they were slightly more competent technoblade would very much be dead right now. so it could be worse. or better.

but at least it's over now. they've learnt their lesson and they won't be targetting anyone else anytime soon :D

...right?

[breadandsugar]

‘amogus, impasta? not me’ *a note is scrawled where bread used to be. *

oh no what a shame :)

i mean :(

...totallyyy

[breadandsugar]

I'm glad you enjoyed your time with Puffy and I'm glad you were able to get some sleep

I'm sorry you had a nightmare but I'm glad Puffy was there to help

I feel like I'd be beneficial for you both if you hung out more

Maybe take her on a cute picnic date?

- g

that's a good idea! she's been pretty busy so far but i'll ask her!

maybe even take her to a flower field for it <3

[breadandsugar]

I forgot to ask but did you ever hang out with Puffy?

If so how'd it go?

- g

i did :D

i didn't tell her about. you know. everything that happened but i think she knows. we didn't really do much except bake some cookies and snuggle under a blanket but it really did help <3

i managed to fall asleep for the first time in. a while. it was nice <33

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So helping Quackity when he's dying is a given but when techno's about to die right outside your front door it's okay and you don't do anything? i don't mean to antagonize you but who's side are you on??

i didn't help technoblade, yes. but that was not because i thought he was less deserving of help, but because, in all honesty, i panicked. hallucinating the ghost of your dead friend while the man who helped destroy your old home comes back near you in chains doesn't do much to help you think better. especially if the only warning you were given was some furious crows pecking at a stage.

it was wrong not to help him—whether he destroyed my country or not—and panicking is not an excuse. like i said, i'm not innocent either. but just because i was too late to save technoblade doesn't mean i can't save anyone else.

i don't support what the government is doing, yes. but i'm still on their side. not because of them, but because of my beloved, my friends—or at least, the few people that i know that are still alive—and my home. and if that means being on the side of l'manburg, so be it. there are worse things in life than helping your country.

[breadandsugar]

sometimes it’s hard for some to remember that the ‘enemy’ in a situation is still a person- prone to mistakes, and their own head getting the best of them.

What I really appreciate about you Niki, is that you don’t forget- you keep it in mind, and try to do right to those who have wronged you. Truely, your an inspiration- I don’t know if I could ever start the healing process, from ROGER the IDIOT stealing my BREAD- /j

thank you <3

and if you want more bread, i might have stress baked a bit too much last night. just saying :D

puffy says it's a waste of perfectly good loaves of bread and to leave out only the bread i can't sell but it would be a real shame if the window was left open and the bread was sitting unattended on the counter ;)

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your innocent queen dw <333

would someone who's innocent have ignored the signs of insanity from their best friend? have let them be cooped up underground with nothing but explosives, smoke, loneliness and the grief of losing what the loved for weeks? would the innocent have to think before saving someone? hesitate to talk to a grieving man because they're too scared to look him in the eyes and tell him all the ways his son was dying; all the ways they didn't help?

i'm not innocent. i'm selfish and anxious and weak...but i can still help people nonetheless. not because they're any better, but because they need it.

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Why did you save Quackity? He tried to kill techno like tf i know you like helping people but he is nowhere near innocent?!

because he was dying? i know he tried to kill technoblade and i know for a fact that he's not innocent but if we're going by that logic none of us would ever deserve to even go near a single scrap of bandage.

no one's innocent. i've messed up and he's messed up but that doesn't make any of us less deserving of help. if anything, those who have been hurt to the point of wanting to hurt others need help more than anyone else <3

[breadandsugar]

Hey Niki,

If you ever go back to the underground city maybe try using alternative forms of lighting (like lanterns or glowstone or smth along those lines)

You could also add a bunch of plant life to make it like a cool underground forest and less like Pogtopia

Regardless, here's a hug from your favorite (/not forced and platonic) incorporeal being<3

- g

oh, i never thought about glowstone! thank you <3

if i- once i go back there i'll be sure to bring some plants along too :D

thank you for the hug too <33

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the greatest thing here Niki is that you tried, and for that you are braver then most. (in the note, there is another shiny rock with a :D scribbled on it messily.)

i'm out i found the exit and i rode back and i- thank you, i needed that <3

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a cave!! *cheers* it would- it’d- be a shame- if a bird.. got in there .. real shame

anyway Niki where did you say this entrance was?

i d-don't i don't remember i dont remember why i'm here how i got here if here even exists i- i- just want to leave i need to leave there's b-blood everywhere and the silence is suffocating because everyone died one way or another and i-it's so ironic that I dug out this cavern myself by hand one block at a time i-in hopes that i could save everyone and now it's not even saving myself